what should I do?

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When I was 6 years old my mother died and my father blamed me.
After my mother died, I became very close to my grandmother.
I watched her get very sick, and when I was 8 I held her hand while she died.
Two years later my dad became very physically, and mentaly abuseive towards me.
It all started when I shaved my legs for the first time and I cut myself.
When I told him right before school(I was in the 4th grade), he grabbed my hair, threw me on the gound, than began kicking me. I went to school crying that day.
After that he began to hit me reguraly, and I tried to find comfort in other people.
When I was 12 years old I was with my friend Kristina, and I met this guy Chris.
I thought he was the best person ever.
When my dad kicked me out one month later, I lived with him. My dad called me in as a runaway, the MD police took me back home.
One month later my dad kicked me out again, I was waiting for Chris in the park and this guy raped me that night. I was still a virgin up until that point.
My dad sent me to mental hospitals for cutting, drug abuse, and attempting suicide.

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Re: what should I do?

Hello,

Thank you for contacting us and sharing your story with us. We can't even begin to image how difficult it must be for you to have gone through all of this. You are definitely a strong person.

Who in your life can serve as a strong emotional support for you right now? Judging from the detials of your story, sounds like you are going through this alone.

Have there every been any abuse reports filed against your dad for what he's done to you? He has no right to do that to you so if you are willing and able, you can file a report against him so some can hear you out.

Also, we are availabe 24hrs a day so please call in our confidential and anonymous hotline at 1800.RUNAWAY.

Please take care. Best of luck.

-NRS

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Re: what should I do?

Wow, you go through things that most girls have nightmares about. Something you might want to do is talk to a teacher or a friend's parent about it, because your father should not be hitting you. Talking to any type of authority figure could help you're situation improve. Good Luck!