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    Ever since I was little, my father told me things like my mom didn’t love me or it was my fault my sister stopped breathing. I was scared to drive something dangerous and my dad floored the pedal. When my mom comes and I ask her for help, if my dad is there, he’ll tell her to leave. My mom always tells me that my dad has equal rights over me, just as she does. She doesn’t help. I’ve told my mom these things and she avoids it. With all these things my dad tells me, I sometimes feel like I’m not good enough. I feel spoiled though, I have everything I want, I love a good life, but I just feel uncomfortable around my dad. He yells a lot and calls us from across the house to get him something, even if it’s not that far away from him. My mom doesn’t always agree with him but she doesn’t do anything when we’re seriously needing her. I don’t know what to do. I’ve thought about running away, but it was never a number one option for me. Living out like that is hard and I would never gager away with it because I live in a small town. My dad does a lot for me and I really appreciate it but I don’t want to be treated like I’m nothing. Lately, my dad has been touching me. Not extremely inappropriate I guess, he just holds my lower hip and I hate it. That’s normal though, right? My dad calls me names if I refuse to do something or talk back. My mom and my dad both slap my siblings and I when they were frustrated and we tried to talk to them. Both my parents are working a lot though, so I don’t see them a lot. My mom hates her job and people pressure her. When I see my dad, most of my family goes downstairs. I’m not sure if I’m going to post this either, because I’m always nervous about sharing this stuff. When I talk to my parents and politely ask if they could stop doing something or tell them I don’t really like it when they do this, they laugh at me and mock me. When I make a mistake they mock me. When I started vein bullied, I told my mom and she didn’t listen to me. I tried another time and she said to “figure it out myself.” I try so hard to have a normal life and to have a normal family. I feel like my parents don’t even love each other anymore. They fight a lot and my mom’s number one excuse is “your lucky you still have parents that are together.” I feel like their just together for my sibling and I. I’m great full for what they do for me, i really am but It’s been getting too far. I don’t want to hear my dad telling my mom doesn’t love me, or when my sister stopped breathing it was my fault, or even being called a **********, etc. I think you get the point. I don’t want to file this because I feel like it’s nothing. My friend said it’s abuse but I don’t think it’s considered “abuse.” IV et been in council a few times for friendship and another time because I scratched myself when I was sleeping. I have anxiety a lot, mostly when I come home from school and during school. I tried to keep my family together but I don’t want to hear these things everyday. It’s hurting me so much inside. It’s probably no big deal and sorry for wasting time, but I feel like I needed to vent a lot too. I have considered many things like running away, but it was never a plan. I’m not looking over this. If anybody has an idea of what to do, please let me know because I don’t want to live like this. I guess I have to put up with it either way and I probably sound like a drama queen. Thank you for your time and suggestions.
    Last edited by ccsmod2; 03-30-2018, 02:50 AM.

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    We understand that it takes a great deal of courage to seek help. You mentioned experiencing emotional and physical abuse from your parent's. Abuse is never okay, you and your siblings don't deserve to be treated that way. If you ever feel as though you are in immediate danger, we encourage you to contact 911. You do have the right to report the abuse. Reaching out to Child Help USA at (1-800-422-4453) or may help to get a better understanding of what may happen before and after a report is made. They could also provide you with information on how to transfer custody.

    It sounds like you want to runaway, having a plan about where you would go and how you would take care of yourself is important. You may want to consider asking your mom if you could stay with another family member or close friend. If you leave home without permission your parent's has the right to file a runaway report. With a runaway report, if the police finds you they will return you home. If you decide to leave home, you could visit the National Safe place ( the website would provide you with local safe places to go so that you are not on the streets. Please feel free to contact us directly via our 24 hour crisis hotline (1-800-786-2929), email, or live chat if you have any other questions or just want to talk.

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