Run away with the circus

[Gemove]

This is going to be strange, but i need advice on what to do.
Ive been on my own since i was 16 moving all over the place with friends and diffrent familey. Recently i had my own place but i struggled with depression witch forced me to lose my job. Not having anywhere to go i moved into my dads. Im a high school drop out and just recently turned 18. My mom is leaving to a diffrent province so she will no longer be in my life to support (wich she never was anyways *druggie abusive alchohalic!!! * ) and my dads is a bad enviroment (drinking all the time, no food in sight, house is messier than houses ive seen on the tv show horders) ever since i was a little girl ive wanted to join the circus. There this boy im dating and hes in the circus , he really wants me to join with him and stay with him. But everyone is telling me not to cause of the dangers.ex: what if its a trick and i get trafficed(sold for sex) if i dont go im scared ill regret it , i have nothing here. This city is ******** ! Ive been raped, abused, homless, you name it, ive been threw it. But im acared of what might happen if i go. If i go im completly relying on him because i have no money no nothing. I hardly even have enough skill to be in te circus. On the other hand my mom asked me to move with her. But if i do that i know it could just turn into a ******** storm. Wtf do i do?!?!

[ccsmod14]

RE: Run away with the circus

Hey,

Thank you so much for reaching out to us. We’re so glad that you found our bulletin board, and were brave enough to post on it. It sounds like you have had a really hard time in life and you’ve hit a pretty tough spot, and you’re looking for some assistance. We want to assure you that we are non-judgmental here, and we’re here to help you as much as we can.

So you shared that you have moved all over the place with friends and family, and it sounds like you had your own place for a while but because of your depression and other issues that came with this, you moved back in with your dad. It sounds like dad’s house is not a very safe place to be based on everything that you have shared with us, so it is understandable why you would feel like you need to get out.

It sounds like you have been thinking about leaving with this person that you are dating, to join the circus. You shared that everyone has been telling you not to because of the dangers that you described. The concerns you listed are completely legitimate, and it is really great to be thinking about this ahead of time and to be talking through your options the way that it sounds like you have. You said that you would be relying on him completely, because you don’t have any money or anything. It sounds like that is a pretty big risk to take if you’re not entirely trusting of this person.

It sounds like you have thought about living with your mom as an alternative, but you shared that she is abusive, an alcoholic and an addict. That sounds like a very hard environment to be in as well. There is an organization that is for loved ones of addicts for support, and you can look into it more here: http://www.al-anon.org/how-to-find-a-meeting. We’d also like to provide you a hotline for the same type of support, Families Anonymous at (800) 736 9805. If you were able to access this outside support, do you think that this would help you if you were to live with your mom and make it more manageable?

We’re not here to tell you what to do, we’re just here to help keep you safe. If you would like to talk further about this situation, you are welcome to call or chat with us. It sounds like a complicated set of options to be trying to navigate, so don’t hesitate to ask for us for some more help, that’s what we’re here for!

Best of luck,
NRS