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I am a sixteen-year-old girl. I live with my mother and father. For the past few years, we've been getting along very badly. We can't spend more than a few hours together. Our latest fight was about my parents making me go to church, despite the fact that I am not religious. This is something my mother takes very seriously and spent over an hour yelling about me about how it was her authority and she didn't care what I thought about it and that I had no rights and because they were providing for me, there is nothing I can do about it. What made me really angry though is the fact that my father doesn't care too much about the whole thing, but won't stand up for me because he is afraid of my mother, and he has told me this. This is what pushed me over the edge. I am headstrong, and I'll admit it.
My parents are highly political, however often on opposite ends of the spectrum. The house is consequently full of constant fights . I spend most of the time in my room, and I hate to come out at all because every time I do they find ways to degrade and belittle me. My mother got a higher title at her job and my grandparents are suffering and she takes care of them and then yells constantly at us for all the crap she puts up with there. She says we don't help out, even though I do half of the housework, in addition to all my schoolwork at an advanced school. Trying to keep up with everything makes me feel like I'm drowning. Everything I do, she criticizes. My father has withdrawn and says that we have killed his spirit and he's not going to joke anymore or do anything and all he does is sit in front of the television and my mother just yells at the both of us, but I know how my father feels. They both make fun of everything I like or find interesting and I feel like I'm stupid for liking it.
They just make me hate myself, like I should be hated, and like I'm doing something wrong when I know I'm not. They make me feel like a bad person. And they are headstrong too. They never tell me that they're sorry or show affection for me, except saying they're proud when it gets to the end of the year and I have all A's. They provide for me; I've got all I need, but I feel at home everywhere else but here. I feel like a prisoner or something. I've been putting up with it for five years and even though I've said I'm only stuck with it for two more years, I know I will go crazy if I have to. I already feel like I'm going insane. I need to run away, but I don't know where I can go or what I can do. I have some money, about five hundred dollars. I live out in the middle of nowhere, though, a long ways from anything or anyone I know. I can talk to friends about it, but they can't help me and I can't talk to family. No one in the family is trusting with things like this; they've been through this with their children and would tell me it's not bad, but they don't know it from the kid's point of view. Do you have any tips for running away? I've tried planning, but I don't even know where to start. I'm pretty smart and realistic about the whole thing; I know it'll be unbelievably hard.
Also I threatened to report them before, but my mom works at social services. She just laughed and said, "That won't do any good; it just goes back to me there, and you know what I'll say." Which is also a problem if I get caught running away, because I don't want to come back. I know that they are emotionally abusive-- I shouldn't feel this way around them if they aren't-- but it's nearly impossible to prove.
And a question about the hotline: if I call, will it show up phone or cell phone bill? Does it cost extra?
Thanks.
My parents are highly political, however often on opposite ends of the spectrum. The house is consequently full of constant fights . I spend most of the time in my room, and I hate to come out at all because every time I do they find ways to degrade and belittle me. My mother got a higher title at her job and my grandparents are suffering and she takes care of them and then yells constantly at us for all the crap she puts up with there. She says we don't help out, even though I do half of the housework, in addition to all my schoolwork at an advanced school. Trying to keep up with everything makes me feel like I'm drowning. Everything I do, she criticizes. My father has withdrawn and says that we have killed his spirit and he's not going to joke anymore or do anything and all he does is sit in front of the television and my mother just yells at the both of us, but I know how my father feels. They both make fun of everything I like or find interesting and I feel like I'm stupid for liking it.
They just make me hate myself, like I should be hated, and like I'm doing something wrong when I know I'm not. They make me feel like a bad person. And they are headstrong too. They never tell me that they're sorry or show affection for me, except saying they're proud when it gets to the end of the year and I have all A's. They provide for me; I've got all I need, but I feel at home everywhere else but here. I feel like a prisoner or something. I've been putting up with it for five years and even though I've said I'm only stuck with it for two more years, I know I will go crazy if I have to. I already feel like I'm going insane. I need to run away, but I don't know where I can go or what I can do. I have some money, about five hundred dollars. I live out in the middle of nowhere, though, a long ways from anything or anyone I know. I can talk to friends about it, but they can't help me and I can't talk to family. No one in the family is trusting with things like this; they've been through this with their children and would tell me it's not bad, but they don't know it from the kid's point of view. Do you have any tips for running away? I've tried planning, but I don't even know where to start. I'm pretty smart and realistic about the whole thing; I know it'll be unbelievably hard.
Also I threatened to report them before, but my mom works at social services. She just laughed and said, "That won't do any good; it just goes back to me there, and you know what I'll say." Which is also a problem if I get caught running away, because I don't want to come back. I know that they are emotionally abusive-- I shouldn't feel this way around them if they aren't-- but it's nearly impossible to prove.
And a question about the hotline: if I call, will it show up phone or cell phone bill? Does it cost extra?
Thanks.
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