I want to kill myself because of my parents

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So, whatever I do, my mum tells me off. every single thing I do and she tells me off. She is a good mother but I think it's just in me that these days I can't concentrate on anything. I have a lot of pressure to pass my GCSEs. I cry every single day just because of the stress that I am dealing with and whenever I cry, I want to kill myself. I am too scared to tell my parents about this because I think I will get told off. I live in this terror where my mind is always scared. It's really hard to concentrate in school and home.I just want to talk to someone and take all the stress and negativity out but I don't want to talk to my parents or friends. In lessons, I am listening to the teachers but everything goes above my brain. I scared that I will fail my GCSEs.
I honestly don't know what to do apart from ending myself.

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Hello there -

Thank you for taking the time out of your day to get into contact with us here at the National Runaway Safeline, we are always here to listen and here to help in any way that we can. From your message to us, it sounds like you have are going through a very hard time right now and seem to be very overwhelmed with everything that is going on especially with exams and mother. It’s great that you are able to reach out for help in your current situation, it’s very brave of you to do that. It must be very frustrating.

Unfortunately, we don’t know much about resources in the UK for we mainly work within the United States. But there are resources that might be able to help you within UK that can be of more help. There is the “Runaway Helpline” (https://www.runawayhelpline.org.uk/) in United Kingdom that might be of more help since our resources don’t go outside the United States. There also might be a number in which you can call as well to talk to them about what has been going on. It might be a great way to talk to someone there that can help you get through these terrible times with your parents and exams.

Hope that information helps!

[Guest]

im not even in year 11 and im thinking about killing myself because my mum is always telling me of and i always get the blame for things that i don't even do. i have gotten my phone taken of me because of my sister all because my mum and dad believes her over me. and i don't think that its normal for a 12 year old girl to have thoughts about killing herself all because she family doesn't even treat her properly. and at 12 i believe that i should have my mum on my side. And also i believe that when i was getting bullied for the two years that i got bullied for i don't think that my my mum even cared and i think that she just wanted me to fight her and never talk about it again.

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Hey there. Thanks for reaching out to us here at NRS. We know that it can take a lot of courage to reach out for support, and we're glad you took that step. It sounds like you're really having a difficult time with your mom, which is causing you to think about killing yourself. We're sorry to hear that, and want you to know that you're so brave for looking for help. When things to start to feel really overwhelming and suicidal thoughts occur, it's a good idea to talk with someone about how you're feeling, like a therapist or social worker. They are trained professionals who have the tools and resources available to really help you and make sure you're safe. Unfortunately because it looks like you might be located outside of the US, we are unable to provide you with information that could help in your area. You can try reaching out the Runaway Helpline in the UK by visiting their website here: https://www.runawayhelpline.org.uk/. There should be a number listed that you can reach out to if needed as well. If this is a resource that is not relevant to you and you need support, please reach out to a teacher or a school social worker. They should also have access to resources that can help. And if you're feeling suicidal and think you might hurt yourself, contact your local law enforcement for immediate support.

We hope this information is helpful and are wishing you the best of luck.

NRS

[Guest]

Hello, I want to kill myself because of my parents. My parents parents will shut me up when I try to tell them how I feel about them not treating me like a human being. They would threaten to send me to an asylum just because I would try to open up to them about me feeling depressed and suicidal. They would constantly try to find anything to get them to yell at me. My parents doesn’t allow me to go outside or go anywhere even though I’m 19 years old. I told them I want to move out but they would constantly guilt trip me by saying “how much we sacrificed just for you. You have everything”. They say I have “everything” but what I don’t have is atleast respect or have them consider my feelings and opinions. Whenever I would try talk to a friend on the phone, they would spy on my conversation and they will get pissed off because I’m talking to a friend. They don’t want me to hang out with friends or even talk to them. I’m not even allowed to move out that I feel trapped like I’m in some sort of prison. They nailed my windows shut. They don’t respect my privacy. They check my stuff. They would throw away important stuff like my drawings and other personal items. Whenever I actually speak out they would shut me up and tell me to stop crying and my parents would start blaming my “bad behavior” on my hobbies, friends, things that I like and drawings. I want to kill myself in order to be set free from this toxic revolting nightmare. The only thing my parents care about is me being their stupid puppet.

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Hi there,

Thank you for reaching out to us, we hope to help as best we can. We understand it can be difficult at times to reach out, and we are so glad you did. We want you to know that mental health is important, and there is help for when you might feel things may end in suicide. Being treated for mental illness is not wrong, its simply getting the help one might need. The National Suicide Prevention Lifeline 1-800-273-TALK (8255); www.suicidepreventionlifeline.org is also a great resource to reach out to in addition to our crisis services. They can help talk through situations that might be difficult to deal with alone. They are confidential and free to talk to. You may also be interested in using NAMI, the National Alliance on Mental Illness. NAMI HelpLine is a free, nationwide service providing information, resource referrals and support to people living with a mental health conditions, their family members and caregivers, mental health providers and the public. Mental health service can be difficult to access, we hope these resources can be helpful!
Often, having a safe space to share how you’re feeling may bring a variety of solutions previously not thought of. Suicide is a permanent solution to a temporary problem. This may be an isolating and lonely time for you, but you are not alone in this. We want you to know that we are here as support to help you through this challenging time.
You mentioned some things that raise concern for your safety and well-being. If any harm or abuse is happening at home, you have the right to report it. We are not experts on the issue, but generally once it's been reported, social services will either decide whether or not to take the case and further investigate. If they do take the case, they will send out someone from child protective services to do an investigation (interviewing people in the household) and from there they will decide the level of danger within the household. It generally ranges from no danger (the youth stays in the home, some services are given, and the case is closed), moderate danger (they will provide family services with possible temporary displacement) and high danger (they will remove the youth from the home and offer certain services).

If you feel like this is an option you want to explore, you may find this website helpful: https://www.childhelp.org/child-abuse/. We can also help you to file a report if that’s the route you are considering.

If you would like to talk more in detail please call or chat soon. Our contact information is 1-800-RUNAWAY (786-2929); www.1800runaway.org (click on the chat button).
We hope to hear from you soon.

Be safe and stay strong,
NRS

[Guest]

My parents have this way of belittling me a lot. My mom went through a lot of trauma when she was young and so did I. When I try to tell her how I feel she makes comments like, "Wow. Now your life is over huh?" Or like, "oh how much your life sucks..." My dad and my mom like to tagteam omg and saying such hurtful remarks. I have attempted suicide several times in my teen years and they are informed. But it hurts to know that I have depressive episodes and they make it worse with their comments. I hate when school ends because I'm stuck in this house with parents always fighting with me... I don't know what to do and feel like a huge ass problem.

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Hi there,

Thank you for contacting us here at the National Runaway Safeline (NRS). We know it can be difficult to reach out for help, so thank you for being vulnerable and sharing the situation going on at home. Please know that you do not deserve the remarks that your parents make. The trauma you experienced isn't something that should be belittled and you deserve to feel loved and cared for. The feelings you're experiencing are valid and we're so sorry your parents make your depressive episodes worse with their comments. We are here to support you and listen to you during this challenging time.

If you ever need to talk through the depression you're feeling, feel free to call SAMHSA’s National Helpline at 1-800-662-HELP (4357). They are a national organization that specializes in providing confidential, 24/7 mental health services. Additionally, if you'd like to talk more about your specific situation, we are here. We can discuss options you have, coping methods you can try, or just simply be there to listen to you. NRS is unable to respond more than twice by email or bulletin for assistance, so if you would like to talk more in detail, please call or chat soon.

Our contact information is 1-800-RUNAWAY (786-2929); www.1800runaway.org (click on the chat button). If you are at risk of any danger or feeling unsafe, we encourage you to reach out to 911 or seek emergency assistance immediately.

We hope to hear from you soon.
Be safe and take care,
NRS