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I'm in a situation that I have been in before many times, I'm thinking about running away because of the ongoing problem at my house. I'm not here to convince anyone that my problems are so much worse than others, or that I should be getting some special attention just because I'm going through stuff. I simply just need help. I feel like I have been put in a life to test my tollerence constantly. Mainly all of my problems come straight from my parents view of things, and some more from just dealing with my girlfriends parents (yes, they are complete nutballs). And before you just think that I'm some kid complaining how parents don't like me, with the reality that I'm just some ungreatfull immature being, I think I should say that I have tried countless times to mend this relationship with my parents, and not seeing any attempt from them to comply. About my girlfriend's parents, they are the only set of parents outside my family that I have problems with. I can say that most all of my friends and exes parents never had a problem with me.
So coming back to my parents, I think the main problem is that we have such a long history of fighting, that it's almost a given that we can't just call it truce and work from there. My dad is constantly on a power trip and is the type of person that wants everything his way and believes he is always correct. My mom is better, but when we all get in conversations or arguments, she always agrees with my dad on everything, even if 10 minutes earlier she told me something otherwise. I'm 17 turning 18 in a few months and I have developed many disorders over the past few years. My freshmen year of high school I was anarexic and depressed. Sophmore year it finally cooled down, but Junior year I had an extremely hard time with General Anxiety Disorder (diagnosed by a phychiatrist). I believe all this has been based around the parents and my relationship. Since i can't spill my whole life's story into a few paragraphs, I need you to just take my word that It has been really bad over the past 6 years (ever since Jr. High). Now my parents have been yelling at me asking if I was happy here, and after I told them I didn't want to answer because I told them I didn't want any more problems, they just continued on saying, "Well if your not happy, then go on live somewhere else and be happy, and make us happy too!". So practicly If im happy, great. If not, pretend I'm happy and suck it up, or leave. Ironicly this way about the time I started getting ideas of leaving. So I guess its set.
My plan was to travel to my girlfriend's town (just like 20 mins away) and practicly live nowhere. Just walk around and hang around stores to get free water, restroom, and go to my girlfriend's school to get food. Now I know your probably thinking this could be the worst possible run away plan, but I have spent a long time thinking this through.. and this was the only possible outcome that I could have. I have tried talking to my parents many many times about our relationship. I have tried counceling, phychiatrists, school councelors, and just talking with teachers that I felt comfortable with. All of them said there really wasn't anything that could be done with my situation. Im stuck here having to tollerate this from my parents, and the question I have to ask is how much can one person tollerate (even with all these people saying: don't give in, don't run away its selfish, just talk to someone - and Ive tried that so many times) when it comes to the point that you can't tollerate tollerence. I need to do something this time, please help. Thank you for reading this.
So coming back to my parents, I think the main problem is that we have such a long history of fighting, that it's almost a given that we can't just call it truce and work from there. My dad is constantly on a power trip and is the type of person that wants everything his way and believes he is always correct. My mom is better, but when we all get in conversations or arguments, she always agrees with my dad on everything, even if 10 minutes earlier she told me something otherwise. I'm 17 turning 18 in a few months and I have developed many disorders over the past few years. My freshmen year of high school I was anarexic and depressed. Sophmore year it finally cooled down, but Junior year I had an extremely hard time with General Anxiety Disorder (diagnosed by a phychiatrist). I believe all this has been based around the parents and my relationship. Since i can't spill my whole life's story into a few paragraphs, I need you to just take my word that It has been really bad over the past 6 years (ever since Jr. High). Now my parents have been yelling at me asking if I was happy here, and after I told them I didn't want to answer because I told them I didn't want any more problems, they just continued on saying, "Well if your not happy, then go on live somewhere else and be happy, and make us happy too!". So practicly If im happy, great. If not, pretend I'm happy and suck it up, or leave. Ironicly this way about the time I started getting ideas of leaving. So I guess its set.
My plan was to travel to my girlfriend's town (just like 20 mins away) and practicly live nowhere. Just walk around and hang around stores to get free water, restroom, and go to my girlfriend's school to get food. Now I know your probably thinking this could be the worst possible run away plan, but I have spent a long time thinking this through.. and this was the only possible outcome that I could have. I have tried talking to my parents many many times about our relationship. I have tried counceling, phychiatrists, school councelors, and just talking with teachers that I felt comfortable with. All of them said there really wasn't anything that could be done with my situation. Im stuck here having to tollerate this from my parents, and the question I have to ask is how much can one person tollerate (even with all these people saying: don't give in, don't run away its selfish, just talk to someone - and Ive tried that so many times) when it comes to the point that you can't tollerate tollerence. I need to do something this time, please help. Thank you for reading this.
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