I need to get out of my house ASAP

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My parents constantly tell me that they want to help me and that that's why they treat me the way they do, when in reality they don't know how bad they are hurting me. I am already very stressed out by school and extracurriculars, and they are still the main cause of my stress and depression. They are hypocritical, rude, volatile, and are constantly yelling at me and placing the blame for every little (and big) thing on me. They don't and can't understand me, even though they say they want to. They don't care. They make me think I am worthless and I've often considered suicide as a viable option. They have always told me I'm "overreacting" or "being such a child". I tried to make arrangements to live with my friend for a couple weeks at least, but we had a falling out and are no longer friends. My cello lesson teacher (whom I'm very close with) said she'd take me in if my parents kicked me out, and for the longest time I truly thought they might. I am also bisexual, which has always been a subject of strife between my parents and I. The plans with my teacher fell out when my mom talked to her about it. My teacher told my mom that she had not been serious. Finally I broke and told my boyfriend everything that had been happening lately, and he said that his family could probably take me in, if need be. He said they'd been prepared to take people in before. I'm absolutely open to this idea but based on my last two experiences trying to stay somewhere else, my mother will find a way to manipulate the caretaker out of wanting to help me. I wish I could just stay but I honestly believe my parents are bad for my mental health. I would love to just stay here, but they are always telling me I need to change, and they are never willing to put any effort into our relationship. I am 15 and a half, and desperate.

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Hi,

Thanks so much for taking the time to reach out to us tonight. It sounds like you're feeling really stressed out and frustrated about how things are going at home. It is definitely hard to feel misunderstood by the people you are living with, especially if they are causing issues with your mental health. We take what you are saying seriously and it is unfortunate others in your life have not. We understand that it can feel very isolating to live with people who do not put any effort into their relationship with you and want you to be the person they want to be.

If you're going through any abuse at home please know you can always report it. You can call the National Child Abuse Hotline at 1-800-422-4453. You can also call into our hotline or talk to a trusted adult or teacher and they can help you out too. When it comes to not feeling accepted by your parents in terms of your sexuality, there are also some hotlines that can help you out with that, too. You can call the LGBT National Hotline at 1-888-843-4564 or the LGBT National Youth Talkline at 1-800-246-7743. If seeing a therapist is an option for you that is something you can consider, too!

You can call into our hotline anytime to talk about what you're going through as we are 24/7. We are always here to help and listen in the best way that we can. You can call us at 1-800-RUNAWAY. You deserve to feel happy, loved, and respected.