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  • #91
    Im 14- my mother and i do not get along. We are constantly yelling at each other. I want to be a loving family because who knows what tomorrow brings. When i try to talk about it with my father, he doesn't show interest and acts like its not a big deal. This summer has been really hard. I feel like I am being mentally abused for no reason. I get blamed for most of the situations that occur in my house, when actually my 5 year old brother is the one who is causing the problem. My older sister never wants to talk or hang out with me. I feel bad living here and I want a new start where I will be treated like a loved person, instead of a babysitter who gets mentally abused for actions that aren't theirs. I know this message will be interpreted as a middle child who wants attention. That's why no one ever listens to my wishes. I am finally asking for help because it has come to the point where I feel like I am not important. I also feel that if I die, my mother will have a better life, away from me. That's all I want for her. I don't hate my family, but I wish things could be different. My mother does not drive, and my father works during the day, so everyday I am home. Being home I think is the problem. My brother gets bored and he starts up a tantrum, then I am the one blamed for it because I was either the last one playing with him, or just because. I almost feel as though my mom can't admit that her son is the issue here. She thinks that he is the best thing that happened to her. I really just want the yelling and anger to stop. I've considered boarding camp, but my mother won't let me leave. I've also considered getting a summer job at a local ice cream store to avoid my mother and brother, but that idea was also not approved. Please help as to what I can do to be at peace with my family.

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    • ccsmod5
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      Hi, there!
      Thank you so, so much for reaching out. It sounds like being at home is really overwhelming for you and you feel that no one ever listens to your wishes. That must be so frustrating. You mention that you, “know this message will be interpreted as a middle child who wants attention.” We want you to know that it’s OKAY to want attention from your family! In fact, it’s normal and you deserve to get that attention! The issues you have written about—you and your mom constantly yelling at each other, being blamed for things that are not your fault, and your desire to feel like a loved person—those are completely valid and reasonable things to struggle with. It also sounds like you’ve tried your best to make your situation better, including talking to your family and asking about the possibility of getting a job. That shows a lot of maturity on your part!
      Before going forward, we do wanna address one part of your letter: you mention that, “if I die, my mother will have a better life, away from me.” We’re unclear whether you meant this generally or if you do have intentions of harming yourself. If so, we want to let you know that there is help out there and you are not alone! If you ever feel like you are in immediate danger of harming or killing yourself, you can always call 9-1-1. Another resource that could be helpful is the National Suicide Prevention Lifeline at 1-800-273-8255. Again, you’re not alone in this.
      Now coming to your question about what you can do to be at peace with your family. That’s a great question and as you’ve witnessed, this can sometimes be difficult to achieve. We’re happy to give you a couple options (and of course, if you would like to talk further about the situation or come up with other options, feel free to give us a call at 1-800-RUNAWAY). The first option that comes to mind is having a serious conversation with your family about how you’ve been feeling. It could be helpful to frame this in terms of how you’ve been feeling and what you need—perhaps something like, “Lately, I’ve been feeling like I get blamed for things that are not my fault and I’ve been feeling like we are constantly yelling at each other. I want to figure out a way to live in peace with you all. Would you please talk with me about this?” Of course, you can put that in your own words. If you think this conversation would be difficult to have on your own, you might also consider asking another adult to have that conversation with you and your family. That adult could be a teacher, guidance counselor, or any other adult that you trust and have a good relationship with. If no one comes to mind, you can also consider giving us a call; we are happy to mediate a conversation between you and your mom. Another option to consider is writing a letter or an email to your mom about how you’ve been feeling. It’s possible that your mom feels just as upset about the situation as you do, but just isn’t doing a good job sharing how she feels about it. Writing a letter could be an opportunity for your mom to see how you feel, take the time to think about how she wants to respond, and talk with you when she is ready. Finally, one more option is to ask your family about pursuing family counseling, which could be a great way to open up the lines of communication.
      If talking to your family is not an option, you already hinted at another possibility: avoiding family situations that are stressful. You mentioned that you wanted to get a job, but that was turned down. You might consider other opportunities to distract yourself from the stress, like reading, writing, playing a sport, making art, drawing, watching tv, or starting a new hobby. If you have any friends or other family members that you can confide in, that could also be helpful in getting the support and love you deserve.
      Again, thank you so much for reaching out. It’s clear from your message that you are a very thoughtful, intelligent, and mature young person. You deserve to have your family acknowledge this and be supportive. If you ever need someone to talk to or need additional resources, please feel free to call us at 1-800-RUNAWAY (1-800-786-2929). Stay strong and take care!
      --NRS

  • #92
    Im 13 and I hate my aunt so much I want to run away from this house.My aunt,and my grandma lives with me and my family.My aunt has been living here for long,since I was born and my grandma moved in a little late when I was 9 or something.

    Everyday,my aunt would gives me many tasks and chores to complete,and if I don't complete them,my aunt would snatch away my phone for a whole week or yell at me.There was this one time,she was so mad I didn't complete this one petty task and she called me stupid,useless,and swore at me.She barged into my room and threw my clothes and pillows all over the floor and screamed so loud I couldn't control my tears because I was so scared.

    It all started since that day.I was 11.It was September or something and my eldest brother had a huge fight with my maid for something small.They were really upset with each other and weren't talking.And my brother talked to my parents,that he wanted to fire her.My parents asked for my opinion about it and I said anything was fine.But it wasn't.I was too young I didn't know what I wanted.I was very close with my maid.My two elder brothers would sometimes get abusive and hit me,even my little brother,too.My maid had always protected me from them.She was very cuddly.She loved to hug me and talk to me.I wasn't comfortable with it as I wasn't usually showered with love so I didn't really like it.We shared many precious memories and promises.She was the first person who was there for me during my ups and downs,helped me,comforted me,cheered me.Unlike any of my family members would do.

    On the day she was fired,I cried myself to sleep.I was depressed.It went on for days.after that,my aunt started to arrange chores for me and my brothers to do.I have two elder brothers and one 10 year old little brother.He's really close with my aunt,he's basically her "precious baby" so he didn't do any chores.All he has to do is act cute,eat,sleep,cuddle with her.That was his role.And I had to be the slave.She ordered me to do the laundry,cook lunch,dinner;wash dishes,clean the house,clean the toilet and more.I was tired.

    I was stressed because sometimes I don't have time to do my homework.i worried about not being a good student,I worried about not meeting up my parents' expectations,I worried about not being on the same level as my smart classmates.Im in the smartest class.So therefore,the expectations from me were high.and I was stressed about it.

    one other thing is,no matter when I was born,I would always be the one bullied.Even I couldn't fight against my little brother because he had the right to tell what I did to him to my aunt.She would then hit me and yell at me for doing that to my brother.i had always feared of her,I tried to think in her own perspective.Im her niece.She wants the best for me.she wants me to be good.She loves me.Which is why she's always correcting me.

    but I couldn't take it.I couldn't think positive anymore.I started doubting her because She's always yelling at me.I started to have these selfish and angry thoughts.

    Why does she live in MY house?Why is she living in her brother's(my dad) house instead of her own?

    She can't tell me what to do.She can't tell me what she wants me to do.I WANT TO DO WHAT I WANT TO DO.THIS IS MY LIFE.MY OWN ********ING LIFE SO WHY DON'T YOU GET OUT OF THIS HOUSE??

    I'M SO SICK AND TIRED OF YOU.YOU KEEP YELLING AT ME AS IF IT WOULDN'T HURT MY FEELINGS.HECK,YOU ********ING DID.YOU ********ING HURT MY FEELINGS.

    I can't breathe.I can't live with her.I can't live with that selfish witch.She wants everything.She wants me to be sad.She wants me to be scared.Anxious.

    Hell,I did everything she wanted me to do.What does she want from me?Take away my happiness?Can't she go away?Can't she just disappear from my life?

    and thats when I started to hate myself for thinking these thoughts I didn't know what to do.Shes my family what the ******** am I saying?

    but who the hell cares?What am I even doing?Is this even right?Is this okay?

    No.I hate her.I HATE HER.But then what would happen if she died?Would it be the happy ending?No of course not.but it was okay.

    It was okay for me to hurt.Its okay for me to be hurt and be alone.That way,less people would be hurt.Ill just act happy,give fake smiles and laughs and continue to live my life with depression.

    It was okay.

    but not anymore.I figured thst the only way out of this is me.I needed to do something

    I need to get out of this house.

    I wanted to run away.But where would I go?Where would a 13 year old girl like me go?I didnt have any friends i could depend on.I lost my good friends.I lost my best friends.I lost my boyfriend.I lost my love.I don't have anywhere to go.

    I belong here.Here with this witch.That was my fate.But I still wanted to run away.

    im anxious and I don't know what to do.


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    • #93
      Hi there,

      Thank you for reaching out to us at the National Runaway Safeline. We're sorry to hear about all that has been going on and want you to know that you deserve to feel safe and happy in your home. You deserve to be heard and to be able to talk out all of these things with someone. Are there any adults in your life that you can talk to that can support and advocate for you? If not, we are here 24/7 to listen and we could also help you try to identify potential allies in your life. We also have a conference call service here at NRS where a liner could help you have a conversation with either your aunt or someone else in your home so you could voice your anxieties safely. We can be reached at 1-800-786-2929. Don't hesitate to give us a call.

      Everything that you are feeling is understandable and valid. It would be hard to go through that all alone. Know that we are always here whenever you need us and hopefully we could help you think about other people that you can turn to as well.

      Stay safe and let us know how we can best help.

      NRS
      Please remember you can reach us directly by calling our 24 hour hotline, 1-800-RUNAWAY (786-2929) or through our Live Chat.

      National Runaway Safeline
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      1-800-RUNAWAY (24 Hour Hotline)

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      • #94
        I'm 13 and I hate my dad.

        I'm 13 and I hate my dad. I hate him so much, I want to run away, but I don't know where to go? He is a really big control freak. He controls nearly 3/4 of my life. My dad expects way more from me and it’s too hard to exceed his expectations. It's like I don't have my own life. I really wish I could run away from him, from my whole family and get a new one, even if I get adopted, I don't care. At least I won’t have to live with him! I really want to call up the police someday or some kind of child helpline or counselors, but I’m too much of a scaredy cat. Although, I know I might do it someday, as I am growing up and I feel less and less scared. I also know I'm going to run away from my dad, if he doesn't change. I just want grow up and leave him! He is not only a control freak, he is a horrible dad and person in other ways as well. I just didn't want to mention it.
        Last edited by ccsmod4; 09-05-2018, 07:32 AM.

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        • #95
          Reply:I'm 13 and I hate my dad.


          Hi there,
          Thank you for writing to us here at National Runaway Safeline (NRS).

          We understand it takes great courage to reach out, and we appreciate you sharing a little bit about what’s going on.
          We want you to know that we are here as support to help you through this challenging time.

          We can best help by phone or chat as NRS is unable to respond more than twice by email or bulletin for assistance.
          If you would like to talk more in detail and share more about how we can help specifically, please call or chat soon.
          Our contact information is 1-800-RUNAWAY (786-2929); www.1800runaway.org (click on the chat button).

          If you are at risk of any danger or feeling unsafe, we encourage you to reach out to 911 or seek emergency assistance immediately.

          We hope to hear from you soon.

          Be safe,
          NRS
          Please remember you can reach us directly by calling our 24 hour hotline, 1-800-RUNAWAY (786-2929) or through our Live Chat.

          National Runaway Safeline
          [email protected] (Crisis Email)
          1-800-RUNAWAY (24 Hour Hotline)

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          • #96
            I am 12 and my family is not great not as worst as the other family's on this page but my mom gets mad at me every time my skinny brother cries and she tells me to stop yelling at both of my brothers and she tells at them every time they do something wrong I just want to get my passport and alot of money to leave to another state or country or go to a orphanage and say I dont remember my last name

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            • ccsmod10
              ccsmod10 commented
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              Hey there,

              Thanks for reaching out to NRS!

              We are always here to listen and here to help in any way that we can. It can be very frustrating not knowing what to do or what your next step might be from this point on. It’s brave of you to reach out during your time of need.

              It sounds your mom has been taking out her anger on you and your brother. It makes sense that you’re getting sick of being treated that way, it’s wrong of her to take her anger out on you two! You are not alone and you’re being very strong! If you ever want to try to talk to your mom about how you’ve been feeling, we offer conference calling services between youth and parents. We're here if you need our help calling and talking how your mom makes you feel when she gets mad at you and your brother. You do deserve all the opportunities for happiness. If you are thinking about running away and somewhere to stay, we can try to find a runaway shelter for you.

              We’re here if you’d like to talk more about your situation. Our safeline is open 24/7. We also have a chatting service via our website, unfortunately, it is not always open. The best way to contact us would be to call in and talk with our trained liners.

              Be well, NRS

          • #97
            I don’t like socializing, so I asked my mom if Ican do homeschool. She said no. I realy don’t like people and want to move in with my uncle. She also said no. I don’t like how I’m ending up in this situation and my depression is not helping. I just want to live with my uncle and be homeschooled. My explosive anger doesn’t help this situation either. I keep getting the same results each time I ask. I realy just need somebody to talk to about this.

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            • #98
              Hi there,

              Thank you for reaching out to us at the National Runaway Safeline. We are here 24/7 to listen and support. We're sorry to hear about everything that has been going on and want you to know that you deserved to be listened to. We are non-judgmental and confidential and always here to lend a listening ear.

              Another option you could be interested in would be getting help talking to your mom about being homeschooled or find other alternatives to help your situation. It can be difficult to have a conversation with your mom if you're unsure how either of you will react. Sometimes it can be helpful to have another adult around when you’re trying to talk to your mom so that they can stand up for you and try to keep the conversation calm and fair. That person could be a guidance counselor, other family member, or any other adult you trust. Here at NRS, we also offer a conference call service and can help you have that conversation with your mom. Our number is 1-800-786-2929.

              Let us know how we can best help,

              NRS
              Please remember you can reach us directly by calling our 24 hour hotline, 1-800-RUNAWAY (786-2929) or through our Live Chat.

              National Runaway Safeline
              [email protected] (Crisis Email)
              1-800-RUNAWAY (24 Hour Hotline)

              Tell us what you think about your experience!
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              • #99
                My mom got married to my step dad. Everything was OK. It wasn’t perfect, just ok. Out of no where my mom tries to act up when she’s near him. She becomes really mean and aggressive to us when he’s around. My mom really changed ever since she got married to him. She’s changed so much that she kicked both my sisters out, she throws things at me, she’s thrown shoes, glass plates, baskets, and so much more at me. She talks down on me. She tells me that if I run away or if I stop her from hitting me she’ll call the police and tell them that I’ve been hurting her. I’m 13 by the way. I don’t know what to do anymore, talking to her wouldn’t help because it would make her angry. I really want to move out but as I said, I’m 13 and i don’t know if that’s even possible.

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                • ccsmod9
                  ccsmod9 commented
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                  Thank you for reaching out NRS! We know that it can be a difficult things to reach out and seek help. We just want you to know that we are here to help and listen in any way we can
                  We are sorry to hear that you do not feel safe in any one of your parent’s home. It really is sad that your mom has changed so much after marrying your step dad. You do not deserve to feel like you cannot rest anywhere. Though we are not legal experts, what we can gather is that because you are 13 you are still considered a minor. What this means if you do runaway your parents have the right to file a report. What this means is that you if the Police do find you, you will be taken back home. Some other consequences depending on your situation and state is you might have some fine or court. However nothing involving jail time could be given if you did choose to runaway since it is technically not illegal. If you feel like you are no longer safe anywhere please know that you have the right to call and report your parents. You can call your local Police station or the National Child Abuse Hotline (1-800-422-4453). You deserve to feel safe and cared for no matter what. Another option you can explore is perhaps talking to a school counselor about the situation at home. Perhaps a family member or adult you trust could speak with you and your parents about the situation. Just know you have the right to protect yourself. If you do happen to runaway NRS can provide you with shelters, transitional housing programs, food pantries, etc.
                  Again we want to commend your bravery for reaching out and more than anything seeking out help which can be the most difficult of all things. We hope that we have helped provide some options for you to look over. If for any reason you feel like you have more questions or concerns please do not hesitate to call us at (1-800-786-2929) or online at (www.1800runaway.org) on our chat option.
                  Best Wishes-NRS
                  Last edited by ccsmod9; 10-10-2018, 02:51 AM.

              • my mom hates me and so does my brother the only one that kind of likes me is my dad but he is never home as much. He's lucky. My mom took my phone this morning now I don't have any money for lunch so i can't get lunch. She asked me were her coat was and I said in my room and then she said is it in your room and I said yes I just said that. Then she proceeded to call me a ********** and take my phone for no reason. At this point I would rather struggle on my own than live with her. How can I legally go live with a friend or grandma or seriously just runaway.

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                • ccsmod7
                  ccsmod7 commented
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                  Hello there, thanks for reaching out this morning. Sounds like you have had a rough morning with your mom calling you a name and taking your phone. It's not okay that your mom called you that name, you deserve to be treated with respect. Here at NRS, we truly want to inform you and support you.

                  If you haven't already, you might let your dad know what your mom called you and how it made you feel. Sometimes it can really help to have adults advocate for your needs, especially if another adult is not hearing you. You might also ask your dad for permission to stay with a friend or your grandma. The easiest way you can live away from home, is with your parents' permission. If your grandma who you want to live with is also a good support for you, you might let her know about how you are feeling and what you need. Maybe they can talk to your parents for you about moving in with her.

                  Depending on your situation, there might be other options for leaving home aside from gaining parental permission. If you call us at 1-800-RUNAWAY or chat us, we can talk through your situation and help you brainstorm your options. If you do decide to run, we have youth shelter resources if you ever need to get to a safe place.

                  We hope to hear from you soon.

                  Best of luck,

                  NRS

              • I'm 12 and I hate my family but none of my other family members will take me in.

                So, i am a 12 year old girl, and i've got major depression, anxiety, ODD, and disruptive mood disorder. I take medication for my depression, but I honestly think they don't help. I live with my mom, step dad, 6 year old sister and 3 month old sister. Right now my step dad is in Texas because of the army, so my mom is under a lot of pressure. So basically, i can't stand living, I've tried self harm and have gone to a mental hospital, but i have the same problems. My other family members wont take me in like my grandma, uncle and aunt, or grandpa, They all push my situation off like it's just a stage, but it's not. My sister (believe it or not) who's 6, bullies me and tells me the worst things. My mom says i'm stupid and weird because of my sexuality, doesn't accept my choice of clothing, hair, or personality, and i am just sick of it. I want to run away, but i know i'll just be caught, get in more trouble, then but back at the hospital. I don't know what to do because i am tired of being yelled at being judged, criticized, and crying every night, dreading to wake up the next morning. I want to either die, run away, move, or be taken away. Plz help me...

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                • ccsmod2
                  ccsmod2 commented
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                  Hello There,
                  Thank you for reaching out to The National Runaway Safeline, we know that it takes courage to reach out to us and we are so glad that you took the first steps into reaching out. It sounds like you are going through a really difficult time right now, and we want you to know that you are not alone, we are here to help and listen to your situation. You mentioned that you are taking medication and that you do not think it is helping. You could consider speaking with your doctor and they may be able to switch your medication to something that would help. You also mentioned that you cannot stand living. We want you to know that you are valuable, and if you ever feel suicidal you can call the National Suicide Prevention line at -1800-273-8255. You may also call us at any time and we will be there to talk through whatever is going on, and be there to provide support. You also mentioned self-harming. Next time you feel like harming yourself you could consider trying to put a rubber band around your wrist and snap it every time you want to self-harm. That option may be a safer option for you. You do not deserve to be bullied by your sister, or be called stupid by your mother. It is understandable that you are tired of being yelled at, and judged. Having these thoughts can be difficult to deal with alone, you may want to consider reaching out to your school counselor. Also you can contact The National Alliance of Mental Health, otherwise known as NAMI. Their phone number is 1800-950-NAMI, they may be able to provide you with some more resources. You also mentioned running away, because you are 12 if you left home without permission you could be considered a runaway. We are not legal experts, but in most cases the police would bring you back home most likely. If there is abuse going on or if you do not feel safe you can always report it to the police or child services. We hope this information will be helpful in your situation. If you have any other questions or would like to discuss your situation in further detail please feel free to give us a call at any time we are available 24/7. We wish you the best of luck, remember to stay stong!
                  NRS

              • I’m 12 (almost 13) and I wanna run away from my family

                My parents basically hates me at things I do. Sometimes I tell them you have really smart children that will give you a better future because my parents were refugees and it sucks just to hear them favoring my younger brother (who’s 10) because he got a good grade on a state test. Plus my parents never really teaches me anything when it comes to school, and my dad told my brother to study about pre-algebra (and he is only 9 at that time!) I can’t believe that they don’t care about my education but they care about my brother’s education. It’s not fair how they are treating me. They always don’t care whether I’m feeling down or not. I’ve always had the feeling of dying because I don’t feel worthy of myself. I always struggle during the weekends because I go to this Islamic Program and if I don’t pass my homework the teacher will hit me, slap, and yell at me. My parents are not on drugs (thank god) but I struggle with stress. I’m writing this with a headache because of the stress building on my shoulders. I have good grades but my parents say “you should be like your brother.” I had suicidal thoughts, and I attempted to do it but I knew it would hurt so I decided not to. I prefer living with another family but I’m a picky eater and I don’t eat other people’s food. And I had a friend who said you don’t have depression and that I’m being a crybaby (I can’t help it being emotional!) And I think I have it but I really don’t know. I search things on YouTube and I wrote “Trump making fun of Muslims.” After I got to the comment section people were agreeing with what Trump said about “Muslims are our enemies.” And I never felt so awful about myself. I’ve always wanted to be Christian. I developed stutter and stumble over my words. I felt everything I’ve ever loved and enjoyed feels like it’s gonna die away forever. I don’t know what to do!

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                • ccsmod6
                  ccsmod6 commented
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                  Hello there,
                  Thank you for reaching out to us during this difficult time. It sounds like education is very important to you and you feel like your parents don’t support you the way they are supporting your siblings. You also mentioned that your teacher at your program abuses you. You have the right to feel safe and wanted in your own home, or in your own school. You can contact Child Help at 1-800-422-4453 and they can help you learn about the reporting process or make a report if you are interested in either of those options. Since you said you are thinking about suicide, the National Suicide Hotline at 1-800-273-8255 can talk to you about your feelings and help develop coping strategies. They are also available via chat if you don’t feel comfortable talking over the phone. It also sounds like you need support in more than one way. One idea might be to talk to a counselor at school about what you’re going through regarding getting bullied because of your religion. You can always talk to us at the National Runway Safeline at 1-800-RUNAWAY (786-2929). Please stay safe and we are always here for you.

              • I am 13 my dad is an alcoholic my mum has anger issues and my brother has extremely bad anger issues I hate them all what do I do?
                Last edited by ccsmod4; 11-21-2018, 07:56 AM.

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                • Reply:i am 13 my dad is an alcoholic

                  Hello,
                  Thank you for writing to us here at the National Runaway Safeline.

                  We understand it takes great courage to reach out, and we appreciate you sharing a little bit about what’s going on.
                  We want you to know that we are here as support to help you through this challenging time. We can best help by phone or chat as NRS is unable to respond more than twice by email or bulletin for assistance. If you would like to talk more in detail and share more about how we can help specifically, please call or chat soon.

                  Our contact information is 1-800-RUNAWAY (786-2929); www.1800runaway.org (click on the chat button).
                  If you are at risk of any danger or feeling unsafe, we encourage you to reach out to or seek emergency assistance immediately.
                  We hope to hear from you soon.

                  Take care,
                  NRS

                  We hope this response was helpful! We’d love to hear from you about your experience using our crisis email/forum. Your feedback plays an important role in helping us improve our services to youth and families. Please click the link to fill out our survey: Your Opinion Matters to Us

                  Please remember you can reach us directly by calling our 24 hour hotline, 1-800-RUNAWAY (786-2929) or through our Live Chat.

                  National Runaway Safeline
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                  1-800-RUNAWAY (24 Hour Hotline)

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                  • Im 13, I don't like my family and they definitely don't like me. I wanna leave without them knowing my intentions.

                    This all started a few months ago when I went from: nice, caring, helpful, brave, leading, appreciated, and loved. To: misunderstood, trapped, antisocial, hated on, and untrusted. I used to get really good grades and my parents used to always let my friends come over to hangout. I got to ride my bike with friends and sing songs and go to concerts and helping out a lot. I had the energy and time to do ANYTHING. But now, I hate coming home from school and seeing my older sister, my mom, and my dad. All I do when I come home is: let my dog go pee, I go to the bathroom, I get a snack, I go to my room, shut the the door and lock it, open my laptop, and start watching youtube. And I never start my homework early. Idk why but I always start it at 10 or 11 at night. My parents always want me to come out of my room and have dinner with them but I don't want to. I know what kind of people they are, I don't like them, they don't like me and I want to leave. I know right now it seems like my parents just want to spend time with me. They don't. I promise. I dont have the energy I used to have. I don't wanna leave my room. I dont wanna eat. I don't wanna go to school. I don't wanna have special occasion breaks. I dont have the energy to do anything anymore. Sometimes I cry myself to sleep, and sometimes I want to hide in the smallest box that can fit me and never come out. Sometimes I whisper to myself I want to die. And I do. My sister is a f***ing b**** and a snitch who tells on me FOR EVERYTHING, I hate her sooo much. She is annoying and still acts like an 8 year old WHEN SHES 15. Im younger than her and I act and look older than her. Everytime I want to talk to someone in front of her, she always wants to join the conversation. Either trying to fit in, or trying to correct me. And either way, it's so annoying. I tell her to stop nicely, then she continues to judge me, when I never judged her. Then I eventually yell at her because she doesnt stop and continues to annoy the s*** out of me. And that happens everytime im around her. We used to be super close but now all we do is fight. My dad and I just started going to the gym (with the only energy I have to leave my room). We used to be close and play games and hug each other. But now I hate him, he is annoyed of me. He STILL calls me princess. (I hate that nickname) And lately I've been having bad dreams of him rapping me for some reason. So obviously I don't like him touching me or talking to me because I don't want it to come true. He doesn't like me having a boyfriend that I actually love. And he yells at me and threatens to take away my phone or something else valuable. (My parents think I'm stupid and don't believe that I can hack into systems and get wifi back or use social media without wifi or figure out a pass code that they made to get into important files or thinking that they've prevented my devices from accessing things they've blocked from me) My parents are very overprotective. They wont let me go over to anyone's house anymore. They wont even let me see my boyfriend anywhere else except school. My mom is the family member I talk to the most but is very annoying in many regions. From also judging me, wanting to know who im texting all the time, to repeating things to what it feels like 100 times even though I have elephant memory. I want to say more reasons but I dont have the time or energy to.

                    Things are WAY different at school. I hide my home life from my friends. At school, I have TONS of friends and a lot of best friends that I love. And I have my boyfriend that I love so much but can't see that often. I guess, you could say I one of those rare nice popular kids. I've never been bullied in my life. I make friends with anyone I meet and Im a riet to have around. I hang out with them a lot during school and we all laugh and have fun and they never suspect a thing of what's happening at home. Because I never told them. But I want school to be a fun, happy, relatable place for me and my friends. And it is.

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                      Hello There,
                      Thank you so much for reaching out and sharing your story with the National Runaway Safeline. It sounds like you’re going through quite a rough time at home. You mentioned feelings of being misunderstood, hated and not trusted. You also mentioned at times you cry yourself to sleep and whisper that you want to die. Sometimes the challenges we experience in life may bring us sadness but reaching out for help and exploring options is such a courageous thing to do. There are support lines out there that can provide good coping tips on how to deal with tough situations. You may find the National Alliance on Mental Illness support line which can be reached at 1800-950-6264 or the National Suicide Prevention Lifeline at 1800-273-8255 helpful. In addition to these support lines you are also more than welcome to reach out to our 24 hour hotline at any time. You also mentioned that you are contemplating running away from home. You may want to take into consideration how you plan on keeping yourself safe, where you will stay and how you’ll provide for yourself while you’re making a decision. Also, it may be useful to know if you do decide to leave home without parental consent that your parents have the right to file a runaway report because you are under the age of 18. This typically can mean that if you are found that you may be required to return back home. We hope this was helpful. If you would like to discuss further please feel free to give us a call at 1800-786-2929 or chat in with us at 1800runaway.org. Best of luck
                      Last edited by ccsmod2; 11-21-2018, 06:13 PM.
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