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    14 and I wanna leave my family
    I hate my life and my family. I used to get hit as a kid but I thought was normal to make it even worse my mom after hitting me would tell me it was my fault I got hit. I used to get hit with chargers which imprint scars that last for a long time. My siblings get hit too. When I was about 11 I was a good girl but my brother wasn't and so my mom would tie up my brother and hit him with a charger and then live him in the basement in the dark. I also tried running away before but I got caught. I also tried to call the police on them but my parents hid me when the police came to the neighborhood. I get scared by my mom. I don't know if she's good. I feel unsafe with her. I know she's a nice mother but she's really scary and controlling. She doesn't hit me anymore but she calls me names and stuff. I got so mad at her one day I tried to kill her. Yeah, I'm a terrible daughter. I hate myself. Anyways I grew up in Somalia and kids used to get hit in school and so of course I thought getting hit was normal. I know this was long ago but my parents would be hitting e today if I wasn't so big and strong. When I say strong I mean I stand up for myself. But sometimes it becomes hard with my guilt-tripping me. She cries and my siblings would get mad at me when she cries and blames it on me. I remember one day when I told my friend I called the police on my mom they were Somalian so I'm sure they got hit too and so they were disgusted by me. I don't get hit anymore but my mom threatens me like she would get a mop and try to scare me when I do something bad. I just wanna leave this family or die. I hate myself. I'm a terrible person to still have feelings of my past hittings. My siblings get hit but not me not since I called the police. It's just been a few hits and stuff and not the charger or the terrible hitting that make my body hurt. I can't really remember my hits but I know I can't remember it because it happened often or maybe it's because of my terrible memory. I have a good life but I just don't feel safe. In the summer my family and I will go on a vacation and I'm scared I'll be abandoned there. If I'm missing it's probably I runaway during vacation. I just feel like if I leave this family I'll be free. My life is just a loop inside a torture house. My siblings get hit and I think that's why I wanna leave because I don't wanna see them get hit. Just kill me already and let me be reincarnated in a new life.

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    I'm 15 i hate my mom i really want to leave my home.

    My mom is SO RUDE she does not do drugs or any bad stuff she is just REALLY RUDE AND YELLS at me and my older sister. Its HORRIBLE living here with my mom, luckily my dad is nice and calm unllke my HORRIBE MOTHER. ShE IS THE WORST. And I can't deal with her anymore its just COMPLETELY HORRIBLE.

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  • ccsmod15
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    Hi there,
    Thank you for writing to us here at National Runaway Safeline (NRS). We understand it takes great courage to reach out, and we appreciate you sharing a little bit about what’s going on. It sounds like you’re quite overwhelmed by things at home right now and you mentioned being harmed. We’re sorry you’re going through this. You don't deserve to be hurt in any way. If you are at risk of any danger or feeling unsafe, we encourage you to reach out to 911 or seek emergency assistance immediately. You may also be able to report any mistreatment to CPS. Child Help USA 1-800-422-4453 www.childhelp.org is an organization that helps protect minors from being harmed. They can tell you more about how CPS could respond to your situation. If you ever need assistance calling out to CPS to make an abuse or neglect report please call is at 1-800-RUNAWAY.
    It sounds like you’re fearing that the situation may end in suicide if things don’t change. Your safety and well-being is important. If you are at risk of any danger or feeling unsafe, we encourage you to reach out to 911 or seek emergency assistance immediately. The National Suicide Prevention Lifeline 1-800-273-TALK (8255); www.suicidepreventionlifeline.org is also a great resource to reach out to in addition to our crisis services.
    Often, having a safe space to share how you’re feeling may bring a variety of solutions previously not thought of. Suicide is a permanent solution to a temporary problem. This may be an isolating and lonely time for you, but you are not alone in this. We want you to know that we are here as support to help you through this challenging time.
    If you would like to talk more in detail please call or chat soon. Our contact information is 1-800-RUNAWAY (786-2929); www.1800runaway.org (click on the chat button).
    We hope to hear from you soon.
    Be safe and stay strong,
    NRS

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    I'm 13- and I feel like my life is a burden

    Before I say this I want to specify this is not to complain about my problems. I am grateful for what I have, I have a roof over my head, I have food and water, and a place to sleep. I wrote this as a last resort for advice on my mental health.

    I've never really had a good relationship with my family, my brother is physically and mentally abusive, my mother abuses her power as a parent and gives me no privacy, and my dad is at work 99% of the time. So, most of the time I just sit alone in my room. I have been diagnosed with depression before, and I've tried to talk to people, but I always get, "your not depressed, your just dramatic, stop acting dumb", I never feel like someones there for me. I build up others and help them with their problems, but why is no one ever there for me? I have run away before, my depression got so bad. I was so tired of living with my family. They were toxic to my mental health. Although it didn't last long, my mom found me. She didn't really care why I ran away, she just cussed me out for it. They ask me why I never leave my room, but why leave when all you do is tell me how awful I am and what I need to fix, or do this do that?

    I have no friends to turn to, they've all faded away after elementary. I feel so alone, like i'm drowning and the water is everyone around me. I feel like I have no purpose, I try to trust in god that he'll get me out and show me my purpose. But, sometimes even when you know the truth, it's blurred by what your seeing in the present moment. I try not to focus too much on, "some day it'll get better", because if you focus too much on the future or past you can only make your situation worse. The most important time is now, which is why I need help. I've contemplated suicide before, every day I'm sad, I feel worthless, I want to die... but, I keep going. The only reason why I keep going is because I try to remember that every day god wakes you up, is a day of purpose that you should never take for granted.

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  • ccsmod15
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    Hi there,
    Thank you for writing to us here at National Runaway Safeline (NRS). We understand it takes great courage to reach out, and we appreciate you sharing a little bit about what’s going on. You deserve to feel loved and supported at home. We are glad school is a place you feel safe and are happy there. It seems like you’re quite overwhelmed by things at home right now. It sounds like you’re fearing that the situation may end in suicide if things don’t change. Your safety and well-being is important. If you are at risk of any danger or feeling unsafe, we encourage you to reach out to 911 or seek emergency assistance immediately. The National Suicide Prevention Lifeline 1-800-273-TALK (8255); www.suicidepreventionlifeline.org is also a great resource to reach out to in addition to our crisis services.
    Often, having a safe space to share how you’re feeling may bring a variety of solutions previously not thought of. Suicide is a permanent solution to a temporary problem. This may be an isolating and lonely time for you, but you are not alone in this. We want you to know that we are here as support to help you through this challenging time.
    If you would like to talk more in detail please call or chat soon. Our contact information is 1-800-RUNAWAY (786-2929); www.1800runaway.org (click on the chat button).
    We hope to hear from you soon.
    Be safe and stay strong,
    NRS

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    I'm 13- and life is becoming a burden

    I've never really had a good relationship with my family, my brother abuses me verbally, and physically. My mother has complete disregard for my privacy or my feelings, and my father the is always at work. So, I do not have a very strong bond. I have no friends to reach to, so I'm stuck here by myself. I have been diagnosed with depression before, I contemplated suicide and lost touch with my feelings. It got so bad, I was so exhausted of living with my family that I did end up running away. But, my mom did find me and didn't seem to care why I ran away, she just cussed me out for it. I feel often as though my worth is based on the way I look and my grades in school, that's what I've been lead to believe by the way I'm treated by my family. My mother and my brother are the main cause of my 0 self-esteem, constantly telling me what I should fix, why I do this, why I don't do this, to do this, do that, everything is just constant policing and criticizing. Unlike most kids, I actually enjoy school. Mostly because it helps keep me out of the house. Coming home is my least favorite part of the day. My mother always seems mad at me, and my brother just hurts me for no apparent reason. My dad is really the only there to comfort me, but as I mentioned before he's never really around anyway. Now, I do want to specify that I did not right to this sight to complain about my life. I have a roof over my head, food, and a warm place to sleep. I wrote this comment so I could get advice on my mental health so I don't contemplate suicide again, or try to run away again. I feel like a mess right now, so this was my last resort for help.

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  • ccsmod1
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    Hey there,

    We are glad you reached out. We understand how hard that can be and you are brave to make this step. It sounds like your home is very difficult. You don’t deserve to be treated like that in your own home.

    You mentioned that you don’t feel safe. Your safety is our number one priority. It can be helpful to have a safety plan when things at home are getting out of hand. If you need to leave you can contact the National Safe Place (https://www.nationalsafeplace.org/). You can text them with your current address and they can return to the nearest safe place to go. They also have a chat feature if you need to talk to someone. If that is not possible, a safe place could be at a friend's house, or a trusted neighbor. You could also have somewhere in your house that you can go to get away from your parents. Like a bathroom or somewhere else you can lock the door. If you ever feel in danger you can always call 911 for help.

    It sounds like it’s really hard to communicate with them. Some options could be to call us and we could help mediate a conversation between you and your mom. Sometimes it’s helpful to have outside help to get your feelings across. You could also try family therapy. https://www.samhsa.gov/ can help find affordable options in your area.

    If you would like to talk any more about these options, or your situation. Again, thanks for reaching out, that was very brave of you. Feel free to reach out to us again, either by phone or chat (1800runaway.org). We are hear 24/7, here to listen, here to help.

    Good Luck!

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    I HATE WHAT I'M GOING THROUGH.

    i'm only 13 and have attempted to run away, kill myself, and so much more. Everyone in my S****y @$$ family blames everything on me. My mom's stupid freaking tablet went missing and she is threatning to destroy my room looking for it. And She AUTOMATICALLY thinks it's me. NOBODY ELSE BUT ME. I literally don't feel safe here. I really don't. Although i love them, it doesn't seem like ANYONE IN THIS D**** HOUSE GIVES A F**** About me. SO It's getting to the point where i need to get adopted again. I was adopted by this family when i was only a few months old and have been here since. Yesterday, my Mom found a box of her $h17 in her car and it was opened. She Started yelling at me and cussing at me and saying, you're just a lying little S**T. So i would like to know if there's anything i can do about it. Because Every time i try to talk to them about it, they start sayng. You're he child and im the F*****G Adult around here and i do ********. That's what they say. SO I NEED SOME ADVICE AND HELP! I went to crosspointe but they just did that to get AWAY FROM ME. PLEASE HELP.

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  • ccsmod13
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    Hi there,

    We are glad you reached out for help. It takes a lot of courage to ask for help. You deserve a safe and emotionally supportive home. It is very stressful when you don’t have that. It makes sense that you want to leave and have your teacher adopt you. In order to help you with a specific plan for you and your situation, we need to talk with you in more detail. We are completely confidential and available 24/7 either through a chat on our website or via phone on our crisis hotline at (800) RUNAWAY. Once we get some details on your situation, we can help you access local resources in your area and develop a plan that works for you. We hope to hear from you soon. Good luck.

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    please just help me i can't take it anymore why cant my teacher adopt me

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  • ccsmod15
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    Hi there,
    Thank you for writing to us here at National Runaway Safeline (NRS). You are courageous to reach out and share your story, and we appreciate you telling us a little bit about your situation at home. It is great to hear that school is a positive and safe space for you. We want you to know that we are here as support to help you through this challenging time.

    You mentioned that you were recently whooped. If any harm or abuse is happening at home, you have the right to report it. If you feel like this is an option you want to explore, you may find this website helpful: https://www.childhelp.org/child-abuse/. We can also help you to file a report if that’s the route you are considering.

    We can best help by phone or chat as NRS is unable to respond more than twice by email or bulletin for assistance. If you would like to talk more in detail and share more about how we can help specifically, please call or chat soon.

    Our contact information is 1-800-RUNAWAY (786-2929); www.1800runaway.org (click on the chat button).

    We hope to hear from you soon.
    Be safe, NRS

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    Living at home is not ok... I love going to school because i get to talk with my teachers, And also i can tell them whats been going on at school, Even tho i have been doing good in school i never got in trouble my whole life, I just got a whooping for... i don't even know but please help me.

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  • ccsmod0
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    Hi there,

    Thank you for writing to us here at National Runaway Safeline (NRS). We understand it takes great courage to reach out, and we appreciate you sharing a little bit about what’s going on. We want you to know that we are here as support to help you through this challenging time. We can best help by phone or chat as NRS is unable to respond more than twice by email or bulletin for assistance. If you would like to talk more in detail and share more about how we can help specifically, please call or chat soon.

    Our contact information is 1-800-RUNAWAY (786-2929); www.1800runaway.org (click on the chat button).

    If you are at risk of any danger or feeling unsafe, we encourage you to reach out to 911 or seek emergency assistance immediately.

    We hope to hear from you soon.

    Be safe, NRS

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    I can't be doing this anymore
    I am not suicidal but conditions at home are too much on me. My parents make fun of me when they see me injured. They yell at me for crying(I am a boy btw). I don't even have money and I lose access to my phone if my grade goes below an a+. And its honestly too much.

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  • ccsmod9
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    Thank you for contacting NRS,
    We are sorry to hear you are going through so much. It can be alot to handle when both parents make you feel like you are not being loved in a good. It seems like your parents are not treating you well and you do not deserve that kind of treament. If you ever feel as though you are in immediate danger please know that you can call 9-1-1 for help. You may also be able to report any mistreatment to CPS. Child Help USA 1-800-422-4453 www.childhelp.org is an organization that helps protect minors from being harmed. They can tell you more about how CPS could respond to your situation. If you ever need assistance calling out to CPS to make an abuse or neglect report please call is at 1-800-RUNAWAY.

    If you would like to talk more in detail please chat soon through our website www.1800runaway.org (click on the chat button) if you are unable to call in. We unfortunately cannot give advice as we are non-directive. You know your situation best

    We hope to hear from you soon.

    Be safe,

    NRS
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