I'm 13- and life is becoming a burden
I've never really had a good relationship with my family, my brother abuses me verbally, and physically. My mother has complete disregard for my privacy or my feelings, and my father the is always at work. So, I do not have a very strong bond. I have no friends to reach to, so I'm stuck here by myself. I have been diagnosed with depression before, I contemplated suicide and lost touch with my feelings. It got so bad, I was so exhausted of living with my family that I did end up running away. But, my mom did find me and didn't seem to care why I ran away, she just cussed me out for it. I feel often as though my worth is based on the way I look and my grades in school, that's what I've been lead to believe by the way I'm treated by my family. My mother and my brother are the main cause of my 0 self-esteem, constantly telling me what I should fix, why I do this, why I don't do this, to do this, do that, everything is just constant policing and criticizing. Unlike most kids, I actually enjoy school. Mostly because it helps keep me out of the house. Coming home is my least favorite part of the day. My mother always seems mad at me, and my brother just hurts me for no apparent reason. My dad is really the only there to comfort me, but as I mentioned before he's never really around anyway. Now, I do want to specify that I did not right to this sight to complain about my life. I have a roof over my head, food, and a warm place to sleep. I wrote this comment so I could get advice on my mental health so I don't contemplate suicide again, or try to run away again. I feel like a mess right now, so this was my last resort for help.
I've never really had a good relationship with my family, my brother abuses me verbally, and physically. My mother has complete disregard for my privacy or my feelings, and my father the is always at work. So, I do not have a very strong bond. I have no friends to reach to, so I'm stuck here by myself. I have been diagnosed with depression before, I contemplated suicide and lost touch with my feelings. It got so bad, I was so exhausted of living with my family that I did end up running away. But, my mom did find me and didn't seem to care why I ran away, she just cussed me out for it. I feel often as though my worth is based on the way I look and my grades in school, that's what I've been lead to believe by the way I'm treated by my family. My mother and my brother are the main cause of my 0 self-esteem, constantly telling me what I should fix, why I do this, why I don't do this, to do this, do that, everything is just constant policing and criticizing. Unlike most kids, I actually enjoy school. Mostly because it helps keep me out of the house. Coming home is my least favorite part of the day. My mother always seems mad at me, and my brother just hurts me for no apparent reason. My dad is really the only there to comfort me, but as I mentioned before he's never really around anyway. Now, I do want to specify that I did not right to this sight to complain about my life. I have a roof over my head, food, and a warm place to sleep. I wrote this comment so I could get advice on my mental health so I don't contemplate suicide again, or try to run away again. I feel like a mess right now, so this was my last resort for help.
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