I want to leave my house. What should I do?

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I am a 14 year old girl, and I've always been a good kid for the most part. When I was younger, I always rebelled, I started hating the idea that religion made me and my parents grow together in a different manner. My parents are extremely religious, and they have used to bible to control my life. I have always though ignoring myself as non-religious, and my parents have said the harshest things about me because of my ideas. When I was little, my parents always treated me a bit different from the rest of my family since I am physically whiter than my siblings (I am Mexican). My parents, they view me as different. They treat me like I'm something else. They have used the harshest words around me, and they do not care about my feelings or the way their words impact me. I have attempted suicide over three times, but I'm even unsuccessful at that. My parents are emotionally and verbally abusing me, and I have gotten into cutting for about three years. I remember when I discovered music as my passion, they hated my style of music and judged me for it. They got me into smoking weed, but they later stopped me. But today, my urges to keep smoking heft higher, but I've been clean for about half a year. I need help! I hate the way my family treats me and makes me feel like I'm stupid and useless. The only person who seems to listen is my boyfriends of six months, we promised to stop smoking together and he listens to my every word, and he became a best friend to me. But my parents do not want me with a boyfriend. How do I deal with my being able to be with the only person who listens to me and get away from the people who weaken me everyday? Please be considerate and thank you!

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Thank you for reaching out to us here at National Runaway Safeline. We under that it takes a great of courage to seek help and share something so personal. We are very sorry to hear that you are being verbally abused at home. You don’t deserve to be treated that way. Although verbal abuse is hard to prove, you do have the option of reporting the abuse. Talking to someone that you trust such as a teacher or school counselor could help. Child help (1-800-422-4453) is a great resource for abuse reporting and obtaining information about custody transferring. If you ever feel as though you are in immediate danger, we encourage you to contact 911.

You mentioned that you have attempted suicide in the past and have stated cutting as well. Your life matters, and you are not alone. Talking to someone that understand what you are going through may help. The National Suicide Prevention Life (1-800-273-8255) has experts that could talk you through your thoughts of suicide. To Write Love on Her Arms (www. twloha.com) is a resource for people that engage in self harm.
We are very proud of the fact that you are your boyfriend have decided to stay clean together.

You stated that you have been having urges to start smoking again. The Alcohol &Drug Helpline (1-206-722-3700) could assist you with those urges. It seems like your boyfriend is supportive of you. It is very unfortunate that your family doesn’t want you two to be together. You could try asking your family if they would allow you to stay with another family member or close friend.If you have any questions or just need to talk, please feel free to contact us directly via our 24 hour crisis hotline (1-800-786-2929) or live chat. Please be safe.