I guess I'll try to keep this short.
I'm 13 and my family has been ********ed up for a long long time. History of abuse, depression and anxiety, divorce, and alcoholism, including my mom. She was always crazy and neglectful when I was a kid but got too many DUY's and injured someone while driving under the influence and it thrned into a felony. She had to go to rehab (court ordered) for about a year and a half. She's been home for a year and doesn't drink anymore but is still a bit crazy. So is my dad now. For years, not a day has gone by where I'm not yelled at for absolutely not reason or for my mental illnesses which i cannot control. I was forced to go into inpatient hospitalization in a psych ward (51-50) and I've been out for around a month and a half now but it's not getting too much better. I've tried running away before (a few weeks ago) and my family sistuation is just worsening. I keep self-harming and getting into drugs and my friends are hating me for it. I hate my school and my city. Everybody hates me here too, genuinely. I'm too much of an outcast and my sexuality has been outed before (I'm a lesbian). The other kids in group therapy hate me too. Even in the hospital i was more ********ed up than everybody else and I couldn't relate with them. I dont think im technically being abused but my parents have made me feel like absolute ******** for years and its just getting worse.
I feel like I'm absolutely stuck. Trapped here. I'm so depressed I know i wont graduate high school when i get to it (8th grade). I have no hope for the future at all. What can I even do about this????? I don't think i can do anythjng
I'm 13 and my family has been ********ed up for a long long time. History of abuse, depression and anxiety, divorce, and alcoholism, including my mom. She was always crazy and neglectful when I was a kid but got too many DUY's and injured someone while driving under the influence and it thrned into a felony. She had to go to rehab (court ordered) for about a year and a half. She's been home for a year and doesn't drink anymore but is still a bit crazy. So is my dad now. For years, not a day has gone by where I'm not yelled at for absolutely not reason or for my mental illnesses which i cannot control. I was forced to go into inpatient hospitalization in a psych ward (51-50) and I've been out for around a month and a half now but it's not getting too much better. I've tried running away before (a few weeks ago) and my family sistuation is just worsening. I keep self-harming and getting into drugs and my friends are hating me for it. I hate my school and my city. Everybody hates me here too, genuinely. I'm too much of an outcast and my sexuality has been outed before (I'm a lesbian). The other kids in group therapy hate me too. Even in the hospital i was more ********ed up than everybody else and I couldn't relate with them. I dont think im technically being abused but my parents have made me feel like absolute ******** for years and its just getting worse.
I feel like I'm absolutely stuck. Trapped here. I'm so depressed I know i wont graduate high school when i get to it (8th grade). I have no hope for the future at all. What can I even do about this????? I don't think i can do anythjng
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