Im a 15 year old girl from Colorado
i hate my life at home and always will untill the day i'm out of here. I wish i lived in a group home or a foster home. I really to god do. All my parents do is work and if they aren't working they are yelling at me for something i've done wronge which happens just about every day. I talked to a friend of mine about an incadint that happened and he even said that it was verbal or emotional abuse and possible phycial abouse. all they do is cut me down and say how [edited-much of a screw up I am], etc. So then later i feel like ********.
My mom is always saying how she would love to smack [edited]me, threating it to then trys to say she never said it.. i tryed talking to a cop about it but they said they cant do ******** and i have to wait and she if she really does it.. what kid wants to go back home and just wiat and see if it happens?? well i went home and sure enough one day at home i got in fight with my mom, idk what even about but then it go so bad she threatened it. i told her that it was child abuse and if she does i'm gone and leaving. She got about an inch from my face saying you wanna [edited] test me?!?! then i tryed to leave once she called my dad. but she grabbed my arm and through me down. i yelled to get off me but once i got back up she attacked me. As she was doing this i was screaming get [edited]off me then finally I got her off me. (she says she put me in a headlock to keep me from running..[edited]. she fully ment to. but then i was backed up in the corner for over 3 hours tell my dad came home and he did nothing... he toke her side.
I tryed to call child servieces last month after a month went by.. they said they would call back monday but i never got a call and lost the number.
I also have a foster sister and she literally gets to do whatever the hell she wants getting tattoos and piercings and all (shes 15) and i tryed saying how its not fair and my dad just laughed and my mom says it doesn't matter.
life at home got me cutting thinking of suicidal crap and now i've been doing drugs....
these are ALL of my problems... i cut, think about suicide, been really up in drugs, don't really see a point, don't care, [edited-messed] up my school years, my home life is down the drain, can't ever seem to do anything right, always [edited-messing] up, nothing ever stays good, i hate myself and my body included, i cant ever be who i want to be,etc... I'll probably thought of more by the time i send this and wish i didn't so i can add it... but pretty much I'm an over all [edited-screw]up.
extra info:P the cutting helps me relax and calm down.... and the burning with lighters helps me get...that rush...so i feel better.....
Basically i'm not go off here at home.... i need out and away..... Please help Id get emancipated.... but idk how to and i think you have to be 16... and idk if i can wait that long....
i hate my life at home and always will untill the day i'm out of here. I wish i lived in a group home or a foster home. I really to god do. All my parents do is work and if they aren't working they are yelling at me for something i've done wronge which happens just about every day. I talked to a friend of mine about an incadint that happened and he even said that it was verbal or emotional abuse and possible phycial abouse. all they do is cut me down and say how [edited-much of a screw up I am], etc. So then later i feel like ********.
My mom is always saying how she would love to smack [edited]me, threating it to then trys to say she never said it.. i tryed talking to a cop about it but they said they cant do ******** and i have to wait and she if she really does it.. what kid wants to go back home and just wiat and see if it happens?? well i went home and sure enough one day at home i got in fight with my mom, idk what even about but then it go so bad she threatened it. i told her that it was child abuse and if she does i'm gone and leaving. She got about an inch from my face saying you wanna [edited] test me?!?! then i tryed to leave once she called my dad. but she grabbed my arm and through me down. i yelled to get off me but once i got back up she attacked me. As she was doing this i was screaming get [edited]off me then finally I got her off me. (she says she put me in a headlock to keep me from running..[edited]. she fully ment to. but then i was backed up in the corner for over 3 hours tell my dad came home and he did nothing... he toke her side.
I tryed to call child servieces last month after a month went by.. they said they would call back monday but i never got a call and lost the number.
I also have a foster sister and she literally gets to do whatever the hell she wants getting tattoos and piercings and all (shes 15) and i tryed saying how its not fair and my dad just laughed and my mom says it doesn't matter.
life at home got me cutting thinking of suicidal crap and now i've been doing drugs....
these are ALL of my problems... i cut, think about suicide, been really up in drugs, don't really see a point, don't care, [edited-messed] up my school years, my home life is down the drain, can't ever seem to do anything right, always [edited-messing] up, nothing ever stays good, i hate myself and my body included, i cant ever be who i want to be,etc... I'll probably thought of more by the time i send this and wish i didn't so i can add it... but pretty much I'm an over all [edited-screw]up.
extra info:P the cutting helps me relax and calm down.... and the burning with lighters helps me get...that rush...so i feel better.....
Basically i'm not go off here at home.... i need out and away..... Please help Id get emancipated.... but idk how to and i think you have to be 16... and idk if i can wait that long....
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