Hey i'm 15 and of course, wanna run away.
i hate my life at home. I wish i lived in a group home or a foster home. I really to god do. All my parents do is work and if not working they are yelling at me for something i've done wronge. a friend of mine even said that it was verbal or emotional abuse. well i makes sense. all they do is cut me down and say how i'm a f**k up and scrue up, etc. So then later i feel like ******** and after awhile start believing them even tho part of me knows its not true.
My mom is always saying how she would love to smack the S***t out of me, threating it to. I tryed talking to someone about it but they said they cant do anything and i have to wait and see if it happens. Well sure enough one day at home i got in fights with my mom so bad she threatened it. i told her that it was child abuse and if she does i'm gone. She got about an inch from my face saying you wanna f***king test me?!?! then i tryed to leave once she called my dad. but she grabbed my arm and through me down. once i got back up she attacked me. I got her off me. (she says she put me in a headlock to keep me from running..bulls***t.) (still makes me really mad when i think about it) but then i was backed up in the corner for over 3 hours.
I would try to tell someone but my mom has a way of making up some stupid sob story to have everyone believe her.
I also have a foster sister and she literally gets to do whatever the hell she wants getting tattoos and piercings and all (shes 15) and i tryed saying how its not fair and my dad just laughed and my mom says it doesn't matter.
now a month or so sense it happened but i still want to run.life at home got me cutting thinking of suicidal crap and now i've been doing drugs....
im so close to leaving its insane.... and i don't know anyone else who could help me get where i want and need to be.... please....
i hate my life at home. I wish i lived in a group home or a foster home. I really to god do. All my parents do is work and if not working they are yelling at me for something i've done wronge. a friend of mine even said that it was verbal or emotional abuse. well i makes sense. all they do is cut me down and say how i'm a f**k up and scrue up, etc. So then later i feel like ******** and after awhile start believing them even tho part of me knows its not true.
My mom is always saying how she would love to smack the S***t out of me, threating it to. I tryed talking to someone about it but they said they cant do anything and i have to wait and see if it happens. Well sure enough one day at home i got in fights with my mom so bad she threatened it. i told her that it was child abuse and if she does i'm gone. She got about an inch from my face saying you wanna f***king test me?!?! then i tryed to leave once she called my dad. but she grabbed my arm and through me down. once i got back up she attacked me. I got her off me. (she says she put me in a headlock to keep me from running..bulls***t.) (still makes me really mad when i think about it) but then i was backed up in the corner for over 3 hours.
I would try to tell someone but my mom has a way of making up some stupid sob story to have everyone believe her.
I also have a foster sister and she literally gets to do whatever the hell she wants getting tattoos and piercings and all (shes 15) and i tryed saying how its not fair and my dad just laughed and my mom says it doesn't matter.
now a month or so sense it happened but i still want to run.life at home got me cutting thinking of suicidal crap and now i've been doing drugs....
im so close to leaving its insane.... and i don't know anyone else who could help me get where i want and need to be.... please....
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