It's Harder Then You Think

[Guest]

Even if nobody reads this, it's nice to get it off my chest. To feel like I have a place where nobody will criticize me or feel the need to threaten someone on my behalf.

I am 15 years old, female, and bisexual.
I was immediately adopted when I was born, and have a younger brother, as well as an older sister.
My parents, once they found out I'm bisexual, did not talk to me for an entire week. They constantly claim that I am a disappointment, and that I am ruining their reputation. They don't act like parents, and they seem to be only shaping me into who they wish they could have been.
I get bullied at school on a daily basis. It sucks, and I don't have anyone whom I can talk to.

I have friends scattered around the world, and I would love to go and live with one of them, but I know I would have to get my parents permission to, and I am 100% positive they will not do that.

I am sick of living here, I am miserable.

I cut, I have suicidal thoughts. I am depressed, anxious, my grades have gone down tremendously. I have bulimia.

I am sick of it all, and being able to go and live with a friend would fix so much.

What do I do?

[ccsmod2]

Hi,

Thank you for being brave and reaching out to us. You seem really unhappy at home. Based on what you shared, that's understandable. You mentioned that you want to live with a friend, but you know your parents wouldn't allow it. Unfortunately, that would make leaving home pretty difficult, we imagine. Being 15, your parents would still be legally responsible for you until you turn 18. Running away to live with a friend is most likely a quick fix, and may not change how you feel inside. It's great that you do have your friends for support though! Please continue to reach out to them for help as well. As far as how you are dealing with your emotions, it may be a good idea to reach out to some online resources that can give you support. There is the LGBT hotline (1-888-843-4564), the National Eating Disorders Association (1-800-931-2237) and the Suicide Prevention Lifeline (1-800-273-8255) who are all ready and willing to help you work through this! They are all also available online for support and resources as well. Please feel free to reach out to any of them or us, if you need further help.

Take care,
NRS