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**Guest** · 12-09-2019, 09:55 PM

my mom screams at me for everything. she has replaced me with her boyfriend and she assumes anything that goes wrong is my fault. i’ve tried to talk to her but she doesn’t change, once i told her i was suicidal and she laughed and made fun of my for it after like a year. i see my mom only in the mornings when she takes me to school and for a few hours when she gets home from work. she managed to make me cry everytime i see her. i’m struggling a lot because i recently got into a very bad argument with my dad and he lost visitation and my mom got full custody. i miss my dad and i understand it wasn’t all his fault. now i have no escape from my moms hell and i can’t tell how long i’ll be able to keep myself together.

**Guest** · 12-11-2019, 08:40 PM

i love my family and i always will but i can’t help but feel so alone and lost. my mom and my stepdad will constantly tell me how i need to go to the gym and how gross i look and they would give me this stare with disgust and it would just ruin me. but not only does that happen my mom will call me a **********, whore, asshole, and disgusting while i’ve done nothing to make her upset. and yes i know that she is most likely taking her anger out on me but this has been happing for 6 years now and i don’t know how much i can take anyone. i have an older brother who does drugs gets eh grades but yet here she is yelling at me for doing nothing and she looks at my brother with this kind of look that says “your perfect” and i’ve never seen her look at me that way before and it makes me so upset that she doesn’t love me the same way she loves my brother. i’m not saying she doesn’t love me because i know that she does deep down but when you hear your mom say those hurtful things to you everyday non stop it just ruins you. my dad has always supported me no matter what i do and he always makes me happy but he has a serious drug problem and i can’t be around that stuff so i’m not aloud to move in with him and i know that in the long run that i will leave this house someday and be on my own and that i don’t have to deal with this anymore but i honestly just don’t know how much longer i can wait because when it happens everyday you still don’t get used to it, everytime she says another hurtful thing to hurt my self esteem or make me feel so bad about my self it just hurts more than the first time because you realize she doesn’t want to stop making me feel this way. and i’ve tried to tell her i how i feel i’ve told her that i’m depressed and that i really need someone to talk to she just turns the whole situation around and starts calling me selfish and an asshole and a ********** i just don’t have anyone to talk to, yes i could very much talk to my friends about it but it’s embarrassing knowing that they have a loving relationship with their family that i will never have and that they don’t understand what it’s really like. i don’t know if what my mom is doing is considered emotional abuse i feel like it is but i’m still not sure.

**Guest** · 12-17-2019, 07:24 PM

Im a Pakistani Muslim Girl and im ashamed to say but ive done bad things in the past two years and when ever my mom gets the chance she yells and relates me to toxic family members. She took my phone she says she hates me and my friends and yes ive said bad things baout her but that dosent mean i hate her i hate how she acts with me. I go to a public school and i had feelings for this guy, i told him but didnt want to date so i didnt she saw the text today and was yelling at me and she said that she would take my phone and she'll tell my dad. I've always been criticized by family, by my weight, how i dress, what i eat, if my room is a bit dirty. My brothers dont comfort me so i go to my friends cause i feel like thats all i have, i cry myself to sleep, and go to school with a fake smile acting like its all okay. I hate coming home during these times, i dont know what to do.

**Guest** · 12-19-2019, 10:48 PM

Hello,

I am 13 years old girl and i have a special needs brother and his life is so easy compared to my life. I have a hard time in school and i have an IEP for most of my classes and i get A's and B's but i have a hard time taking tests and my dad is nice and my brother is nice but my mom hasn't been so nice lately but i took my science and social studies final and I got 100% on science and 78 out of 100 which is a C+ and she said i will be proud of you if you get a C- or higher but no she had to go off at me and she hit me on the back because i din't do so good on the social studies test ( SS ) and in SS i have a turned in late assignment and she hits me again and yells at me and get so made at me. I get yell at so many times a day i cry and cry everyday of my life and some days i want to run away or move somewhere far away from my mom. I want to know what i can do so then i can can have a nicer mom and a happy family. And sometimes I wish that I was never born because of my mom, My dad is nice but when my mom influences my dad he gets mad and yells at me but that very rarely happens.

Sincerely,
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**Guest** · 01-06-2020, 10:18 PM

Hello my name is Sam, and I get emotionally abused by my mother and I think she doesn't know how much it affects me. I don't know if i'm just being a brat or just being a really sensitive person, when my mum argues with me it sounds like she actually means it, it hurts me to the point I start to cry a big waterfall, like now. we just had a fight about me going on her phone, that was a BIRTHDAY GIFT TO ME!!. But she took it back and does whatever she wanted on it. its more horrible that it looks, every time when we finish our argue she acts like it never happened and yet she tells me that if I don't buck my ideas she'll either send me away and render me homeless, I can do homeless, but I know if I ran away, she'll have the police find me and bring me back to her. And it started when I was 11 mid-way growing up. She says she gets me but even I know that she doesn't get me, and I'm her first. And I have a lot more to say, for that's not even half of what I wrote.

**Guest** · 01-07-2020, 08:12 AM

I feel terrible. At home I’m never happy, and sometimes I feel like killing myself or calling child protective services but I would feel like a selfish brat. I never get to say what I want, even in normal conversations. School and online make me a little happy, but home is terrible. My mom hits me and demands that my room door is open, or I have to sit in the living room crouch so that she can see me. I have tried making myself faint, and cut a flap out of my window screen so I can escape. I’ve also cut myself 3 times before I stopped. I even told my mom I wanted to die but she laughed it off. My dad is nicer too me though. He listen and we can have a normal conversation about things we disagree about. He’s gone on Monday’s through Wensdays though. Everyone else is mean to me in a way. I feel trapped.

**Guest** · 01-14-2020, 11:13 PM

I’m a 15 almost 16 year old girl. The oldest of 6 kids. I’m homeschooled so I’m with my family all day pretty much. And I can obviously tell I’m the least favorite of the family. My opinions never matter, what I want to do comes last. And I feel like life is completely unfair, especially in relation to my siblings. If I wait till I’m 12 to finally do something I’ve been asking for a long time, next thing I know my little brother is doing it at 9! When I bring up how I feel my mom yells at me for a LONG time. She’s the “parent” blah blah blah. I’m at the point where I can rarely have a normal conversation with my mom. She somehow always turns it into an argument, before calling me names, cursing at me, and telling me everything I fail at. Even if I mess up on something she takes revenge on me. One time I was planning to do an activity with a friend that meet once a week Wednesday nights for six weeks. We had been planning it for 2 months. She already agreed to drive me. Then the night before it started I forgot to fold some laundry and she told me she wasn’t going to drive me. She told me to tell my friend I wasn’t going to make it because I was a “disrespectful selfish b*tch.” I cried for hours after that. She slaps me sometimes, or kicks me outside in the middle of winter or in the rain. I once had a blister on my cheek where she hit me. She always expects the most out of me. She only ever uses my age against me. If I say I’m 15 now, can’t I do this? It’s always no. But if it’s you’re 15 you better get good grades. Then all of a sudden I’m old. She always expects the most out of me from school. One time I got a bad grade and she said I was a failure and that she didn’t care about my future. She always has patience with my siblings, but not with me. My siblings always get first pick on everything, I ALWAYS get the leftovers. Now for my dad sometimes if my room is messy he’ll call me a pig, or refer to me as a dog. If I haven’t brushed my hair or put on makeup he’ll say a look like a dirty hag. He’s also called me disgusting or repulsive. He has also hit me and strangled me. If I asked for something they always yell at me, it’s 99% chance it will be no anyway. They often send me to bed without dinner. I also had this crush on a boy which they mocked me for, and allowed my siblings to as well. They often tolerate my siblings being mean to me, but dare I do anything to them. Recently I’ve had more feelings of sadness and depression or even thoughts of self-harm. I don’t want to think these thoughts. I just feel useless numb, like an object or robot that’s just programmed to do what their told. I don’t know what I keep doing wrong in my parent’s eyes. I don’t understand. I cry almost every day. I know my situation might not be that bad compare to some people, but to me it is.

**Guest** · 01-15-2020, 09:07 PM

I am a twelve year old Asian girl i am turning 13 in July.

This happens to me too, except i'm also not allowed to talk to boys hangout with them even if they're gay. My broth er is two years younger and gets all the attention. My parents both love him way more and if he does something bad they nicly talk to him. My mom always exaggerates to my dad if i do something wrong. My mom tells to my face "What sin have I cause to have you for a child?" and "I hate you." My dad just straight up swears to me saying im a stupid dumb idiotic b*tch
with no future. They every often threaten to put me up for adoption and leave me outside in winter in the snow without a jacket or anyway to get in the house for hours on end. My mom tells all her friends my dads friends family, family friends what a bad person i am. Then she exaggerates how amazing my brother is. I keep tract of how many times I cry and I cry approximately 25 times a day. My mom doesn't let me do anything. She won't let me leave he house EVER, doesn't let me do anything to my body; dye my hair, dress how i want, wear even mascara... CLEAR MASCARA. It took me years to convince my mom to let me pierce my earlobes and I recently JUST got Instagram just to follow my friends. I have also thought of self harm but i'm too scared. I have become depressed too. I have no friend either. I have 6 cousins one is older than me by a couple months (Lets call her Lisa) and she is a perfectionist. She always sticks with her sister (who I will call Tiffany) She is a little less bossy than "Tiffany" But everyone loves her. They live in a mansion and are really entitled. My aunts and uncles adore her because she is the oldest. Let's talk about "Tiffany" now. she is a couple months younger than me and is EXTREMELY entitled she is 11 but acts and dresses 15. She always has the newest Iphones, Ipads, Macbook airs, airpods etc. My youngest cousin ( lets call him Baden) Is also in the spotlight all the time. He is 5 and has a sister (lets call her Quincy) all of my aunts, uncles, grandparents, mom, and dad ADORE him too. "Quincy" Is the second youngest and is loved by my family. My brother (lets call him Presto) Is really annoying and funny at the same time. He is 2 years younger than me and is "The Popular Kid" in school. He never stands up for me even though i always have and always will stand up for him. Im just a shadow of Lisa and tiffany and then Braden, Quicy nad Presto always steal the spotlight. ALL of my family hates me and if they had the chance they would leave me on the streets to die. I did but they just stopped inviting me to things because they know I would be forced to say no by my mom. They said when I get old enough to move out of the house, they never want to see me again. Please help me. I'm actually crying right now.

**ccsmod4** · 01-16-2020, 01:37 AM

Hello,
Thank you for writing to us here at the National Runaway Safeline.

We understand it takes great courage to reach out, and we appreciate you sharing a little bit about what’s going on. We would like to be of assistance to you if we can. It is times like these that would be nice to have a listening ear. It is also important that you remember to exercise self- care. You showed some by reaching out to NRS. Good for you. What you have been experiencing sounds very sad and very, very unfair. You do not deserve to be treated this way by your parents. It’s not your fault that they behave this way. It sounds emotionally abusive. Your feelings are important and they matter.
You are deserving as anyone that wants to be happy.
We want you to know that we are here as support to help you through this challenging time. We can best help by phone or chat so that we might learn a little more about your situation and how we might assist you. If you would like to talk more in detail and share more about how we can help specifically, please call or chat soon.

Our contact information is 1-800-RUNAWAY (786-2929); www.1800runaway.org (click on the chat button).

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**Guest** · 01-16-2020, 08:34 PM

Hi, I'm 17 and I live with my father. I haven't known him all my life and moved in with him and his wife during my freshman year. I'm a Jr now and I've had enough of him and his wife and a need to get away, if I run away can he legally force me to come back if its a stable environment?

**Guest** · 01-20-2020, 09:02 PM

im really sad

**Guest** · 02-03-2020, 03:24 AM

Whatever you said is so relatable. I am an Indian girl and I am in my bedroom with the door locked so that my mother won’t yell at me and keep pressurising me about my studies. I am in grade 9, and I have a major drop in my percentage this time. I know I need to work harder, but all my mother does is just saying one day that it’s alright, work harder next time. It makes me feel loved and relieved that my mother isn’t pressurising me. But later she forgets all that and she says that I never study at all and I think of myself as a genius. I can’t help but yell at my mom again because I am working hard to improve my grades and just for once when I decide to take a small break she sees me with my phone or doing something else instead of studying and then she keeps yelling at me all the time
My mother yells at me for every single thing, even talking to my friends on the phone. When I say politely and be straightforward and tell her that she is being unreasonable or that she needs to calm down and not yell at me, she yells at me even more and hits me with the stick and says “I am your mother. I am elder to you. It’s not your job to say what is wrong and what is right. You are wrong. And I am right “ Then I say that just because she is elder to me doesn’t mean she is always right, but she never accepts it or say sorry for any mistake she has ever made.

I forgive her later and don’t say anything but she keeps saying that I never work hard and all I do is just time pass and I don’t study. She makes me cry almost everyday and hits me very hard. I seriously don’t know what to do because she never understands me

**Guest** · 03-28-2020, 01:11 PM

Hey, I hope you’re doing better now that it’s 2020. My mom can make me cry by slapping me or saying I’m stupid.Then she completely “forgets” about everything and then I cry myself to sleep. Then I just forgive her after she buys me a toy or candy. When I bring it up, she just says I’m sensitive. Like Today she wanted me to change my password back on my laptop. I changed it and didn’t tell her (she never uses it) and when I told her my new one she got mad and I told her I didn’t want to change it. She then snapped back by saying she ruled me because she was my mother. I cried while she was doing my hair then she pretended like she didn’t see anything and tried to make “jokes” to “cheer” me up. When I brang it up in Walmart she said “sorry”. But I knew it wasn’t genuine, it was a “ fake stop fcking crying and looking sad” sorry. But yeah,,I have to go. Race: Black

**Guest** · 04-01-2020, 12:26 AM

What should I do when mom makes me cry everyday

**Guest** · 04-07-2020, 07:44 PM

I do cry almost every day because my mother if I can call her that compares me to my sisters, she believes them when they blame stuff on me and yells at me, I always get in trouble for stuff I didn't do, I get used to it I'm forgotten I used to self harm because of how bad it got, I only tell people she yells at me but she hits me, she always reminds me how worthless I am and useless.

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