I cry almost everyday because of my mom.

[Guest]

The problem is my mom she compares me and makes me feel like I don’t have a personality just a bad reflection of other people I thought the the problem was my grades so I raised them but she still yells at me she gets mad at the simplist things like me wanting to split up veggies from meat she hits me when I try to stand up for myself and she called me the f word and says that she wish she would’ve of killed me at birth when I cry she tells me boys can’t cry and I cry to much but that is only because she hurts my feelings I tell her child abuse is illegal but she just laughs at me like it was all a joke sometimes she threatens me and pulls out a kitchen knife of course she doesn’t hurt with the knife she twists my ear sometimes slaps me too and strangles me untill I can breath then let’s me go I’m only 11 and I wish that I was never born because of my mom My dad is nice but when my mom influences my dad he gets mad and hits me very rarely and it hurts so bad I have bruise marks.

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Hello There thank you for contacting The National Runaway Safeline, we are here to help and here to listen. We know that reaching out takes great courage and we are glad you gathered up some courage to share a little bit about your story. It sounds like you are going through a really difficult time. You do not deserve to be yelled at, called the F word, or being hit. What you are describing can be a form of abuse. Abuse is not acceptable and should not be tolerated. If you ever feel like your safety is at risk you can call 911. If you wish to report the abuse you can report the abuse to your school counselor, or you can call Child Help at- 1800-422-4453. We know that making reports can be scary, if you would like to call us we can help you with making an abuse report. We want you to know that your life is very valuable. We hope this information is helpful to your situation. If you would like to talk more or if you have any other questions, please feel free to give us a call we are here 24/7.
We wish you the best of luck, stay strong you are not alone!
NRS

[Guest]

Finally people I can relate to im a 13 year old girl from a half Mexican family. From the age of 4 I saw the most horrible things done to my sister. At that time my sister was 8 cuz she is 4 years older than me. My mom always hit her with cables ,the broom, the belt. I always felt bad and would start crying on my own whenever I saw how my mom treated my sister. I saw the same things over and over for the past 2 years. Until everything changed at the age of 6 my mom started doing the same to me. It started from her only pinching me and pulling my ear to her banging my head against the wall and slapping me with her own hands. I cried so much I always prayed to God telling him to make this stop. Same things happened over the nest 5 years until I got to 6th grade. I was 11 when I started 6th grade I didn’t know that the worst 2 years of my life were about to come. My mom always had the idea that she was a perfectionist therefore her daughters had to be the same. She scolded me for everything little mistake I did I got called horrible names and was told that I was worth nothing. She threatened to kill me many times saying if I’m the one that gave birth to you I have the right to also kill you as well. Honestly whenever she said that I wasn’t scared because I myself had plans on dying soon. I started cutting my self at the start of 7th grade I went through depression and loneliness at the verge of just wanting to end it all. I just wanted to silence those screams for good. The only places I found comfort were my friends and my sister who went through the same thing. Right now I’m 13 not much has changed I still get called those names and still get beated by her. Ive been able to control my tears but I always pray to God asking him to take my life away.

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Hello There,
Thank you so much for reaching out to The National Runaway Safeline, it takes courage to reach out, and we are glad you had the courage to reach out to us. Wow it sounds like you and your sister have gone through some difficult years. You both do not deserve to be treated this way. Abuse is never acceptable. You can make an abuse report by calling The Child Help line at: 1800-422-4453. If you are in immediate danger you can call 911 and a police officer could help you ASAP. We know that making an abuse report can be scary, if you would like help you may call us at any time. If you are attending school you can also tell your teacher or school counselor they are mandated reporters and are required to report any abuse that is going on.
We are sorry you have to deal with your mother calling you horrible names, you do not deserve that. We want you to know that you are important and you are worth something. Sometimes when people say mean things they are doing that out of their own insecurities. If you are ever feeling suicidal you may call The National Suicide Prevention Line at: 1800-273-8255, someone will always answer to provide support and listen. If you ever feel like cutting yourself you can put a rubber band on your wrist and pull it whenever you are feeling like cutting. This method may be a safer option. Whenever you are feeling depressed you can try to do coping skills to keep your mind off of what’s going on. Some coping skills may be writing your feelings in a journal, going for a walk, taking deep breaths, and doing hobbies you enjoy.
We hope this information will be helpful to you in your situation. If you have any other questions or would like to talk more please feel free to give us a call we are here 24/7. We wish you the best of luck!
NRS

[Guest]

I cry everyday because of my parents they always think that I have a attitude I can tell that I’m the least favorite of the family. When I get something to eat my father says no I’m not going to become broke so stop eating everything in this house always puts my down as a person. I need help I don’t want to live here anymore I want to go and live with my aunt

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Hello There thank you for contacting The National Runaway Safeline, we are here to help and here to listen. We know that reaching out takes great courage and we are glad you gathered up some courage to share a little bit about your story. It sounds like you are going through a really difficult time. You do not deserve to be yelled at disrespected. Have you talked to your parents and your aunt that you want to go to go live with your aunt? If you did then what was the outcome of the conversation? There are some things to think about when wanting to move to a different household. The first is are you moving away from your friends, restaurants you like, or places you have fun at? The second is will you have to go to a new school with new teachers and peers? The third is what are you hoping is different when moving into your aunt’s house? These are some of the main questions to think about and it sometimes helps to do a pros and cons list. The benefit of writing a pros and cons list is that you can see everything at one time about if moving is a good idea or not. We want you to know that your life is very valuable. We hope this information is helpful to your situation. If you would like to talk more or if you have any other questions, please feel free to give us a call at 1-800- RUNAWAY (786- 2929) we are here 24/7. We wish you the best of luck, stay strong you are not alone!

[Guest]

I cry almost everyday because of my whole family, they’re making me depressed, I don’t share any of this with anyone. My family doesn’t even know I’m depressed

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Thank you for writing to us here at National Runaway Safeline (NRS). We understand it takes great courage to reach out, and we appreciate you sharing a little bit about what’s going on. It sounds like you’re quite overwhelmed by things at home right now. It sounds like you’re fearing that the situation may end in suicide if things don’t change. Your safety and well-being is important. If you are at risk of any danger or feeling unsafe, we encourage you to reach out to 911 or seek emergency assistance immediately. The National Suicide Prevention Lifeline 1-800-273-TALK (8255); www.suicidepreventionlifeline.org is also a great resource to reach out to in addition to our crisis services.
Often, having a safe space to share how you’re feeling may bring a variety of solutions previously not thought of. Suicide is a permanent solution to a temporary problem. This may be an isolating and lonely time for you, but you are not alone in this. We want you to know that we are here as support to help you through this challenging time.
If you would like to talk more in detail please call or chat soon. Our contact information is 1-800-RUNAWAY (786-2929); www.1800runaway.org (click on the chat button).
We hope to hear from you soon.
Be safe and stay strong,
NRS

[Guest]

Hey,
im 18 and my mom beats me everyday for no reason and
she hurt me physically and emotionally since i was 8. Every time she sees me she yells at me. She always compare other children with me and complains. She always tells me to die or get lost. No matter what i did she never appreciate always blames me. And calls me harsh words such as ********** everyday
i don’t know what to do im emotionally down and stressed, physically hurt. She never think about me everytime when i tries to talk to her she yells at me with anger and start ro beat me. She always makes me feel like useless and it makes her happy. I just want to stay somewhere peaceful even when i tries to stay at a firends house she won’t let me. She drives me crazy wish i was dead or something.

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Thanks so much for reaching out to NRS. No one deserves to be abused, and the way your mom has been treating you is wrong. You deserve to be in an environment where you feel safe and respected.
In most U.S. states (except for Alabama, Mississippi, Nebraska), the legal age of majority is 18. That means you do not need your mom’s permission to leave home or move out. The National Domestic Violence Hotline (866-331-9474) is a great resource. They are a 24/7 hotline like NRS who can help you make a plan to leave home safely. We at NRS can also help you find resources like shelters in your area. If you feel like you are in immediate danger, always call 911.
You are not alone in the way you are feeling, and you deserve mental health care. We can also help you find affordable counseling services in your area. If you ever feel like you might act on a suicidal thought, please call 911. You can also call NRS or the National Suicide Prevention Lifeline at 1-800-273-8255. We are here for you any time.

[Guest]

Ever since I was caught at school with my juul it’s never been the same at home. My parents probably say five words to me each day and I can only have my phone during school. I find myself crying at the most random times because I feel so unloved and worthless. I know what I did was a huge mistake but I don't think there is anything a kid could do to make their kids feel like they are unloved. it’s so hard because I’m grounded so I can’t see anyone or talk to anyone outside of school so I find myself alone all the time because I can’t talk to my parents. I think it’s causing depression because the way I’m feeling I’ve never felt before and it’s an aching feeling, please help, I really need some words of encouragement because right now there is no one to talk to.

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Reply: Ever since I was caught at school

Hello,
Thank you for writing to us here at the National Runaway Safeline.

We understand it takes great courage to reach out, and we appreciate you sharing a little bit about what’s going on. We would like to be of assistance to you if we can. It is times like these that would be nice to have a listening ear. It is also important that you remember to exercise self- care. You did well by reaching out to NRS. Good for you.
You might also consider speaking with a counselor or social worker at your school if there is one available.
We want you to know that we are also here as support to help you through this challenging time. We can best help by phone or chat so that we might learn a little more about your situation and how we might assist you. If you would like to talk more in detail and share more about how we can help specifically, please call or chat soon.

Our contact information is 1-800-RUNAWAY (786-2929); www.1800runaway.org (click on the chat button).

We hope to hear from you soon.

Take care,
NRS


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[Guest]

My mom is always yelling at me yeah I have anger issues but when I'm calm she yells at me over and over again. Even when I wake up I get yelled at she barely talks to me. I cry everyday because of her.sometimes I think of moving with my brother.my dad is somewhat the same way but everyday is the same old same old yelling at me. And If I tell my parents about this their going to get mad and say "yourtemper\adittude is mean but I barely get mad sometimes the only time I really get mad is she yelling at me or when people ignore me. I can't keep living like this I was adopted by my mom and dad but no I just want to leave.

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Thank you for reaching out to the National Runaway Safeline. It sounds like you’ve been going through such a tough time, and we are here to support you and help you in any way we can. That sounds so hurtful and stressful to be yelled at. It sounds exhausting to have this conflict going on.

If you haven’t already, you could consider reaching out to a trusted adult, relative, worker/teacher/counselor at your school for help and support. You could also consider talking to your parents about how you’ve been feeling or having another trusted adult help you talk with them. Just so you’re aware, we have a conference calling service here where we could help mediate a conversation between you and your parents.

It sounds like all of your struggles are making you consider leaving home. If you do decide to leave home, you could consider thinking about ways to make sure you stay safe. You could explore ways you would pay for food, shelter, clothing and other necessary things. You could think about how long you would stay away, where you would stay, and what things would be like when you return. You could consider what you would do if you felt that you were in danger or had an emergency.

There are also many resources that could help you with anything else you may need. If you want to talk more about what’s been going on, or if you would like more information about resources, you can call us at 1-800-RUNAWAY (1-800-786-2929) or chat with us online.

Again, thank you for contacting us. It sounds like you’ve been going through a really hard time, but you’ve shown a lot of strength by working through these challenges and reaching out for help. If you ever need anything in the future, please feel free to call us or chat with us online. We’re always here to listen and here to help.

[Guest]

Man I feel you, I have to deal with the same thing too
When you are the weakest emotionally , they just start hitting you in the face with insult , some worst than the others. I don't know if you are a girl, but I was told that I will never have a decent husband, and he would hit me and disrespect me
I just want to disappear sometimes, so she will know how it feels when you don't have anyone to talk to about your problems.
Just hang on, hopefully you can get this resolve, or just get it done and move out far from her

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Hi,
Thank you for your message. It sounds like you have a lot to deal with and we’re glad you reached out. You do not deserve to be insulted or told that you will never have a decent partner. That is a cruel thing to say to anyone, let alone someone you’re supposed to be loving and supporting. Please know that you deserve a partner who is loving, supportive, and decent. If this person is your legal guardian, we are happy to mediate a conference call between you to help you have a productive and calm conversation. In the meantime, we encourage you to take care of yourself however you can. That could be reading, writing, talking with friends, making art, exercising, or anything else that helps. Feel free to give us a call at 1-800-786-2929 if you ever need someone to talk with, brainstorm options, or help you locate resources. We are here to listen and help 24/7. Stay strong!
NRS

[Guest]

I'm a 19 year old girl and I feel like my parents and my relationship have never been good ever since I was small. The worst memory that I remember clearly about when I was a kid was getting whacked by my dad and having bruises all over my body. Because I had school the next day my mother tried her best to cover all my scars and told me to not tell anyone at school about them. The only pain I felt was inside my heart. During that time I was jealous over my baby brother because my mom didn't give much attention to me. Since I couldn't have their attention I tried to do good in school and do the chores at an early age, but I soon realize that it didn't change anything and it just made my parents get use to using me as a maid. As a kid my parents use to tease my sister for weighting more than me and they tease me for being smaller than her. Because of this I ate a lot of food and by the time I knew it I weighted more than her. My parents then stop teasing her and started bullying me and soon after my brothers also joined into bully me. They would say hurtful things. It hurt so much that I would keep a smile and tried my best to ignore it. Times like this made me wanted to disappear and suicide. I even have thoughts like maybe I wasn't born as their child maybe that's why they treat me so different and maybe that's even why I look so different from my parents and siblings. I would often get blame for doing things that I would never do by my parents and even when they get mad they would put it all on me. Makes me wonder if I am just a burden to my family.... As I got to middle school I finally had the courage to let everything out in front of my best friend/cousin. Though she felt bad for me the only thing did was hug me tight. Going into Highschool I got so stress and depressed from everything that I started to lose weight drastically. My aunty who treated me like her daughter knew what I was going through because I cried in front of her before when I saw that she loved her daughter and treated them with respect. I knew deep down that it was something I could never have. At the same time she knows she can't do anything that will change my parents view for me. Going into college my mom brought up a topic about me and it was that I am to blame for everything that goes wrong in her life. When I asked her why she just told me It's because everything is my fault. That was the moment that broke me up the most. I felt as if I was shot in the heart. Also in my cultural even if the girls are 18 or over we can't move out until the day we are married. Up to these days I still do chores, buy food in the house when there is nothing to eat, and try to take care of my parents and sibling but I feel like I am still stuck in the past because everything just repeats. I just want them to treat me the way I'm treating them but I guess it is too much to ask for. I also did tried talking to my parents about these problems at times but things would go down south quick. They would repeatedly tell me that they don't understand what I'm trying to say and they don't want to understand. All these time I feel like no one could help me even if I tell them but I guess this is my destiny. When I have money I make them smile for a day and once the money is gone everything goes wrong. Maybe in my past life I made a big sin and now is the price that I have to pay but I will try my best to endure everything on my own until I transfer which they don't know about...

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Hello there, thanks for reaching out today.

Sounds like you have gone through a lot living with your parents and they are not hearing you when you try to talk to them, and your mom is blaming you for her problems. That has to be very difficult to endure, and you so deserve to be treated with respect. Here at NRS, we truly want to help.

You mentioned that you have been trying to talk to them about how you are feeling; which is great that you have been trying to have those conversations. It must be really frustrating that they are not seeing where you are coming from. If you would like to have a mediated conversation with your parents, we have a conference call service here at NRS. It could be a safe space to let your parents know how you are feeling without being interrupted or disrespected. Please call us at 1-800-RUNAWAY for those services. Also, if you are interested in family counseling resources to help address how your family communicates with each other, please call or chat us.

It's understandable that you are feeling like you can't leave because it is a cultural norm to stay home until you are married. If you ever do decide to leave and need shelter resources, please know that we have those resources here and we are one call or chat away. It might not feel like it, but you are not alone and there are people and resources out there who truly want to help.

We truly wish you the best,

NRS

[Guest]

my mum is trying to send me to boarding school because shes trying to make everything about her she hates me she wishes i was never born she wishes i was not even breathing she wishes i would drop dead right now because apparently it would save her a lot of hassle this is what i did wrong i was walking along with my friends in the mall and i told my mum we were going to watch a movie and the movies were in the mall and we had just come out i it was nearly mothers day and i said to my friends can we call into farmers to get my mum a mothers day present because last year i didn't get her one and she had said that i didn't appreciate her as a mum i only didn't get her anything because my dad was on a work trip in Seattle and i couldn't take my mum out to get her gift and i gave her money last year and she doesn't like to get the same things each year and well she saw me she was buying some make up and i was going to get her some hand cream and it was right next to her she looked at m and then looked away again at the time i didn't realise it was her till she said my name and looked at me with these anger filled eyes it was terrifying after that she dragged me home i was only trying to be a good daughter!

this happens every time it was like she was stalking me waiting for me to do something wrong it gets really upsetting when you can't even pee with out being scared of her its like i'm just something she stepped in in the garden its so sad that i'm being treated this way because no one deserves to be treated like this the only people who deserve this is if they truly did do something wrong but like i said i didn't. she also says stuff like your a waste of a air you don't deserve to breath well not exactly but that's what is feels like to me i put it that way because some word are very bad and can't go on here please give me some advise

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Hi there,
Thank you for writing to us here at National Runaway Safeline (NRS). We understand it takes great courage to reach out, and we appreciate you sharing a little bit about what’s going on. We want you to know that we are here as support to help you through this challenging time. We can best help by phone or chat as NRS is unable to respond more than twice by email or bulletin for assistance. If you would like to talk more in detail and share more about how we can help specifically, please call or chat soon.
Our contact information is 1-800-RUNAWAY (786-2929); www.1800runaway.org (click on the chat button).
If you are at risk of any danger or feeling unsafe, we encourage you to reach out to 911 or seek emergency assistance immediately.
We hope to hear from you soon.
Be safe, NRS

[Guest]

My name is Elizabeth, I'm 15. I'll turn 16 in September. I don't want to live with my parents anymore. I hate being around them. They are always fighting and there is a lot of separation between my mom and her family and it causes a lot of problems. I can never even see anyone on her side of the family. I also can never see any of my friends. I feel so isolated and alone, I also feel like my parents hate me. I can never seem to do anything right in their eyes, no matter how hard I try. I want to leave but I'm not sure what I can do or when.
im also a diabetic and I don't know if that changes things. If I did leave there still the fact that all of my medical supplies would need to go with me and I'm not sure how that would work.

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Hello There,
Thank you for contacting The National Runaway Safeline, we are here to help and here to listen. It sounds like you are going through a really difficult time right now. It must be really difficult to feel isolated and alone.
We are not legal experts but we do have general knowledge of the laws. If you were to leave home without permission, your legal guardian does have the right to file a runaway report. If the police did find you they most likely would bring you back home. Also it may be hard to get the mediation you need if you are away from your legal guardian.
One option to consider is to try and talk to your school counselor about what is going on. Sometimes talking to a professional can help us feel better and they may be able to provide you with additional resources. Another option may be to try and talk with your parents about how you have been feeling and how their fighting is affecting you.
We hope this information will be helpful to you in your situation. If you have any other questions or would like to explore more please give us a call. We are here 24/7 to listen and to provide support. We wish you the best of luck in your situation!
NRS

[Guest]

I need help, I don’t know what to do anymore, I live with my sister and her husband because my mom died two years ago, my sister and her husband are both 22, and I have a bad relationship with both of them, I’m currently 16, and they stress me out so much, whenever I get home from school they yell at me because of my grades, and I have a really hard time in school, and I try really hard in school and I tell them that but they don’t believe me, and I’ll even admit I do make bad decisions sometimes and I know I shouldn’t, but whenever I get home from school they lecture me until I’m in tears, it’s gotten so bad to the point where whenever they lecture me I get really bad anxiety, they trigger my anxiety, and sense I’ve lived with them my depression has gotten worse, to the point where I’ve tried taking my own life, and when I did that my sister and her husband said they don’t care about ever seeing me ever again, my sister has told me I’m going to be a bad mom when I grow up, she’s told me I’m a burden, she’s said I’m ruining her marriage, they’ve told me they don’t want me no more, I’m not allowed to hang out with my friends now and they took my phone away from me when I didn’t do anything wrong, so now I literally have nothing to do, there pushing me away from them, I don’t have any privacy or freedom, they always go through my things, I want to die, I’ve self harmed so many times because of them, I’ve cried myself to sleep so many time because of them just wanting my mom to tell me everything thing will be okay, there emotionally abusive, as you can tell, what do I do? Should I tell somebody

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Hello,

Thank you for reaching out to the National Runaway Safeline. It sounds like you’re in a highly frustrating and anxiety-inducing situation with your sister and her husband.
You deserve to live in a safe home and not be emotionally abused by your guardians. We’re really sorry to hear that your sister and her husband were not there for you when you tried to take your own life in the past. You are not a burden and their responses to your anxiety are out of line.
Dealing with your mom’s death as well as school pressures and your home life with your sister sounds particularly challenging. Since your sister and her husband have shown themselves to be unsupportive guardians, having friends and other adult figures in your life that you can talk to might help with reducing some of the stress that you’ve been experiencing. Also, if there is a trusted adult in your life that you would prefer to have as a guardian, your sister and her husband can enter into a legal agreement to transfer custody over you to the trusted adult. If that is something you would be interested in exploring, we can talk over transferring guardianship and everything that you’ve messaged us on our phone line.
We are here to support you and talk through any decisions that you decide to make. It takes a lot of courage to reach out and send us a message and you deserve a safe home environment (which will help you in trying to do better in school!) We are glad that you have left us a message and hope you are able to follow up with us in the future if there is more that you’d like to discuss.
Know we are available with support 24/7!
Stay safe and take care,

NRS

[Guest]

I have strict parents, I have a hard time with rules, I don’t want to live with my parents anymore, they are emotionally abusive, but try and excuse that by saying I’m a “bad kid”, is that okay for them to be doing that? I have a really close friend I could stay with, is it possible that I could live with them if her parents are willing to take me in?

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Hi there,
Thank you for writing to us here at National Runaway Safeline (NRS). We understand it takes great courage to reach out, and we appreciate you sharing a little bit about what’s going on. We want you to know that we are here as support to help you through this challenging time. From what we understand you wish to leave home. Unfortunately, because you are a minor you cannot go anywhere without your parent’s say so. If you wish to leave maybe asking them might help your situation to move but otherwise, you could be filed as a runaway and those housing you can be charged with harboring a minor. If you would like to talk more in detail and share more about how we can help specifically, please call or chat soon.
Our contact information is 1-800-RUNAWAY (786-2929); www.1800runaway.org (click on the chat button).
If you are at risk of any danger or feeling unsafe, we encourage you to reach out to 911 or seek emergency assistance immediately.
We hope to hear from you soon.
Be safe, NRS

[Guest]

I also, every single day, lock myself in my bathroom, because my mom makes my life ********ing, miserable, because, she's a ********ty **********.

[ccsmod8]

Hello there –

Thank you so much for taking the time out of your day to reach out to us here at the National Runaway Safeline. We are always here to listen and here to help in any way that we can. It can be very frustrating not knowing what to do or what your next step might be from this point on. We are mainly here for support and help find some guidance to local resources that might be able to help a youth through their particular situation and we aren’t here to tell you what to do because you know your situation a lot better than we do. We just want you to know your options and with whatever you choose that you’re safe and not on the streets.

Only you know yourself when it’s time to leave home due to it being an unsafe situation and it sounds like you might some specific questions that you want to ask us or maybe find a place to vent about what you are feeling right now. It’s hard to talk to just anyone one about what has been going on. Please rest assured that we are completing confidential. So anything that you share with us will stay between us. We don’t ask for any identifying information, unless you want to report any abuse. We certainly want to help you.

Hope to hear from you soon!