I don't feel safe at home anymore

Can someone please help me, my name is Josh, I'm turning 16 soon,and I don't feel safe in my house, I am in constant fear, I never feel safe and I'm scared to death that my parents will yell at me or hit me, while they have not physically abused me in over a year I know I cannot use that as evidence for anything, but they call me a pedophile for dating a girl 2 years younger than me, they invade person space, they take everything of mine, the last time I reached out it was because they would choke me until I passed out,but they got mad, told me I was stupid for hurting myself and trying to kill myself, they also told me if I ever reached out again the would "kill me". I would like to know if there is any way I can possibly not live here anymore, I would like to leave

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Hi there,

Your home situation seems really stressful. Based on what you shared, it is understandable to be concerned for yourself and your younger brother at home. Leaving home at 15 can be really stressful and things could be more difficult than you think it will be. We can talk with you about ways to try and stay safe or relieve some of the stress. We do not give advice here at NRS and won't be able to tell you what you should do, but if you would like to speak more about your situation you are welcome to chat with us for support.

Take care,
NRS

Hey,
I'm a 15 year old boy and recently my parent's actions have been concerning me more and more recently. I've been diagnosed with depression due to anxiety and my parents like to use this against me as another ploy in their book of insults. Basically, my father has a very warped definition of "respect" that he uses as an excuse to basically treat his kids like absolute dog ********. He goes out 4 nights a week, acts like he's 19, and has 5 KIDS! You'd think a man would know the emotional undertaking it requires to have this many kids, but not this guy. He constantly calls us scumbags, pieces of ********, ungrateful faggots, etc etc. If you question him and say anything REMOTELY negative about him in anyway he flips out. Whenever I comment on how much he goes out he says that he "Doesn't owe us ********" and that I should be grateful for all the money he's spending us. I try to be grateful but money can't buy love or good parenting. He constantly abuses my younger brother who's 14 because he has bipolar disorder (thanks to my mom) and doesn't understand/care and goes ape******** on him. He thinks he can beat respect into his kids. I do everything out of fear. I have to say I love him in front of family since if I don't he'll beat me when we get home. This man is everything wrong with a dad. He is HEAVILY narcissistic/arrogant. He will not hear any of his kids out, ever, constantly saying he knows better. His arrogance gets me very pissed but I can't call him out on it since I'll just be called a scumbag ungrateful piece of ******** later. My mom doesn't even help, she AGREES with him. She is bipolar as well and fights with him just as much as we do. But whenever she is in front of him they are in love again like it's their first date, it is disturbing. He thinks we forget the ******** he pulls and that he can get away with it. It is depressing and no one should have to live like this. Just today I asked him a question along the lines of "Dad, hypothetically speaking, what if I was bisexual" He literally said to "never talk like that again" as if being bisexual is like having cancer. He also said he'd disown me, great dude right. I would rather be on the street, panhandling, sleeping in the woods. Why? Because the woods can't call you a scumbag & you can't be "ungrateful" for nature.

I want to leave as I am getting really concerned for my brother who is going to get seriously injured one day if he stays here. I don't like coming home, I try to stay in school and then go to the bookstore to pass the time because being home just gives me anxiety and an adrenaline boos I thought parents were supposed to nurture you, not you nurture them! What do I do??