I want to get out of toxic house...

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I guess i should start at the very beginning of all of this, well when i was 9 years old my real father started to molest me every time i was at his house up until i was 12 and i told my granny and she called the police and got me out of there and my mom was in a different pat of the state so she drove 3 hours to come and get me and we went straight to the police and filed a report. 2 years pass and he only get 6 months in a county jail, rather than what i was promised (5-15 years in prison) that's when my depression became a giant issue. i started self harming and wanting to kill myself. One time i did attempt to kill myself and my mother took me to a mental hospital and i was placed in there for 3 months. When i got out my parents started being more hostile towards me, my step dad would hit me or push me into things and my mom would sit back and say i deserved it. EX when i told them i was bisexual my dad grabbed my arm so tight it later left a bruise and he pushed me into the sink with such force than i had a bruise on my back and when i walked to another room my mom said i deserved it because it was a sin. in September my granny passed of stage 4 lung cancer but before she died she gave me a yorkie puppy for my birthday. my mom just sold him today without telling me first, he was the last thing i had of my granny. she gave me the money though... my mother is constantly putting me down and talking down to me. I was put back on medications because my depression is getting really bad again and i have really bad anxiety attacks. I need to get out of this house for my mental and physically safety. My step dad isn't home much so i haven't been hit in a while but i can't take the emotional hits from my mother. I've told her i want to get emancipated and she yelled at me, not surprising, now she won't let me get a job so i can support myself but my boyfriend in a different state is willing to let me live with him. he is 18 so i know he could get charged with harboring a run away but i have no options left.. do you have anything i can try, I've tried talking to my parents and the only yell and get mad calling me selfish, I'm 16 but they aren't letting me get a job. i have $100 to my name and all i have to do is tell my boyfriend I'm ready to leave and he will help me.. i need options...

[ccsmod4]

I want to get out of toxic house

Hi,

Thank you for contacting the National Runaway Safeline.
It sounds like you have gone through quite a lot emotionally and physically.
It must have taken a lot of strength to sit down and express your feelings this way.
Good for you. You do not and did not deserve anything that happened to you.
You are not responsible for another’s behavior you are a survivor and deserve to be treated fairly.
We understand how all of this has been so upsetting for you that running away seems to be a good option.
You are right to want to protect yourself from harm and be in a safe place. It sounds like you have somewhere to go and someone willing to take you in. It must be a comforting thought to know that someone cares about you. It sounds as though he would like to help you out of a bad situation. That's kind of him.

However you are right there are risks involved with your boyfriend helping you or harboring you should you run away from home. It’s great that you are willing to look at some other possible options and that’s just what NRS is here to assist with.
It might be helpful for us to explore any options with you by calling in and speaking with one of our crisis liners. An immediate option you might consider is filing an abuse report with your state Child Protective Service agency. NRS can help you to do this and we can try to help locate a safe place shelter for at risk and runaway youth in your area.
How does that sound?

We understand if there might be some hesitation to do this we just want you to know we are willing to help you find services you are comfortable with. It’s your decision to make.
You are very brave to take a step towards trying to find a better situation for yourself.

You can contact NRS through our 24hr crisis line 1-800-Runaway (786-2929).
You can also contact NRS via our website where we have a live chat session from 4:30pm until 11:30pm (CST).
We can explore options with you about your situation.

We can’t imagine what it must be like for you to go through what you go through on a day to day basis.
We do understand that it can become quite overwhelming. You spoke about attempting suicide in the past.
Should you ever feel like you might harm yourself try to remember that there are services like NRS that are here to help however we can. One referral we would like you to have is- The National Suicide Hotline at : 1-800-273-8255 (Talk). They have trained crisis counselors available to speak with you 24hrs.

We appreciate you having the courage to tell us about your situation. We applaud you for taking a positive way to try and come up with some options. Great job.

Thanks again for reaching out to NRS
Take Care

[Unregistered]

Hi,

Thank you for contacting the National Runaway Safeline.
It sounds like you have gone through quite a lot emotionally and physically.
It must have taken a lot of strength to sit down and express your feelings this way.
Good for you. You do not and did not deserve anything that happened to you.
You are not responsible for another’s behavior you are a survivor and deserve to be treated fairly.
We understand how all of this has been so upsetting for you that running away seems to be a good option.
You are right to want to protect yourself from harm and be in a safe place. It sounds like you have somewhere to go and someone willing to take you in. It must be a comforting thought to know that someone cares about you. It sounds as though he would like to help you out of a bad situation. That's kind of him.

However you are right there are risks involved with your boyfriend helping you or harboring you should you run away from home. It’s great that you are willing to look at some other possible options and that’s just what NRS is here to assist with.
It might be helpful for us to explore any options with you by calling in and speaking with one of our crisis liners. An immediate option you might consider is filing an abuse report with your state Child Protective Service agency. NRS can help you to do this and we can try to help locate a safe place shelter for at risk and runaway youth in your area.
How does that sound?

We understand if there might be some hesitation to do this we just want you to know we are willing to help you find services you are comfortable with. It’s your decision to make.
You are very brave to take a step towards trying to find a better situation for yourself.

You can contact NRS through our 24hr crisis line 1-800-Runaway (786-2929).
You can also contact NRS via our website where we have a live chat session from 4:30pm until 11:30pm (CST).
We can explore options with you about your situation.

We can’t imagine what it must be like for you to go through what you go through on a day to day basis.
We do understand that it can become quite overwhelming. You spoke about attempting suicide in the past.
Should you ever feel like you might harm yourself try to remember that there are services like NRS that are here to help however we can. One referral we would like you to have is- The National Suicide Hotline at : 1-800-273-8255 (Talk). They have trained crisis counselors available to speak with you 24hrs.

We appreciate you having the courage to tell us about your situation. We applaud you for taking a positive way to try and come up with some options. Great job.

Thanks again for reaching out to NRS
Take Care

She has gotten worse... after school today ill try to call or go to the chat before she gets home. i don't have my phone anymore and now she knows i have contacted you guys and i want to leave. she now sets alarms and I'm locked here and last night o told her i was depressed and wanted to cut and wanted to talk to my boyfriend and she laughed and said "i don't feel sorry for you" i have exactly 20 minutes when i get home to talk to you guys about this before she gets home and takes everything again..

[ccsmod1]

RE: I want to get out of toxic house...

Hello,

Thanks for getting back to us. We are here to listen and support you in any way that we can, and we are glad to hear that you plan to call us. You should know that you can call for free from any pay phone, and that we are here 24/7. We can help you go over your options and find safety. If you are in danger, you can also call 911. Another resource to keep in mind is the National Suicide Hotline, who you can reach at 1-800-273-TALK. It takes so much strength to reach out to help, and you sound like a really strong person who has been through a lot. You do not deserve what happened to you or to be mistreated at home, and we are here to listen and help you in any way that we can. We are looking forward to your call, and we wish you the best of luck.