I Don't Feel Safe or Loved at Home Anymore

[ccsmod1]

Hi there,

Thank you for reaching out to us at the National Runaway Safeline. We are sorry to hear about all that you have been facing and want you to know that you deserve to feel safe and happy in your home. We understand that it takes a great deal of courage to seek help. You mentioned experiencing emotional abuse which may be reportable against your parents. Please keep in mind you by no means deserve any type of abuse, emotional or otherwise. Unfortunately, emotional abuse is often harder to provide evidence for compared to physical abuse which is often what CPS relies on when conducting an abuse investigation. That said, we can’t be 100% sure what the outcome will be if your local CPS decides to open a case based on what you share. Sometimes CPS decides to remove minors from the home and other times they offer services such as family counseling or mediation instead. The only way to know the outcome might be to reach out to them directly and if you’re ready to do that we are here to help you through that process. Reaching out to Child Help USA at (1-800-422-4453) or www.childhelp.org may help to get a better understanding of what may happen before and after a report is made. You also mentioned physical abuse which would be reportable against your step dad. Is there someone that can help you make that call to Child Help like a friend, other family member, or counselor at school? We understand that it might be hard to make the call from home, so is there a way to get to a pay phone or is there someone you trust that you can turn to? You can always reach out to us at 1-800-RUNAWAY (786-2929) and we could also help you make that call. Don't hesitate to reach out to us.

Another option would be to get someone to help you have a conversation with your parents. It can be difficult to have a conversation with them if they seem unwilling to engage with you and only yell or get angry. Sometimes it can be helpful to have another adult around when you’re trying to talk to them so that they can stand up for you and try to keep the conversation calm and fair. That person could be a guidance counselor, other family member, or any other adult you trust. Here at NRS, we also offer a conference call service and can help you have that conversation with them. Don't hesitate to give us a call if any of these options sound like they can help.

Stay safe,

NRS

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[Guest]

I'm 13 and I'm scared my mom screams and breaks things at home and tells me she's done with my bs I don't want to be in my house it's had for me I suffer with depression and anxiety and being in this house with my mom is making it bad and I want to get better and her behavior is not helping me she has told me after breaking stuff that she won't be do nice to me next time she says she owns me and that I have to obey her and I can't even speak up for myself she tells me I don't uave a choice I'm scared and I don't want to be home but I want to stay in the school I'm at I don't want to be home im scared

[ccsmod0]

Hello, After reading your submission it sounds quite similar to another posting that we received. We have attached a copy of the reply. If you have any follow up questions please give us a call anytime 1-800-786-2929

Hi there,

Thank you for reaching out to us at the National Runaway Safeline. We are sorry to hear about all that you have been facing and want you to know that you deserve to feel safe and happy in your home. We understand that it takes a great deal of courage to seek help. You mentioned experiencing emotional abuse which may be reportable against your parents. Please keep in mind you by no means deserve any type of abuse, emotional or otherwise. Unfortunately, emotional abuse is often harder to provide evidence for compared to physical abuse which is often what CPS relies on when conducting an abuse investigation. That said, we can’t be 100% sure what the outcome will be if your local CPS decides to open a case based on what you share. Sometimes CPS decides to remove minors from the home and other times they offer services such as family counseling or mediation instead. The only way to know the outcome might be to reach out to them directly and if you’re ready to do that we are here to help you through that process. Reaching out to Child Help USA at (1-800-422-4453) or www.childhelp.org may help to get a better understanding of what may happen before and after a report is made. You also mentioned physical abuse which would be reportable against your step dad. Is there someone that can help you make that call to Child Help like a friend, other family member, or counselor at school? We understand that it might be hard to make the call from home, so is there a way to get to a pay phone or is there someone you trust that you can turn to? You can always reach out to us at 1-800-RUNAWAY (786-2929) and we could also help you make that call. Don't hesitate to reach out to us.

Another option would be to get someone to help you have a conversation with your parents. It can be difficult to have a conversation with them if they seem unwilling to engage with you and only yell or get angry. Sometimes it can be helpful to have another adult around when you’re trying to talk to them so that they can stand up for you and try to keep the conversation calm and fair. That person could be a guidance counselor, other family member, or any other adult you trust. Here at NRS, we also offer a conference call service and can help you have that conversation with them. Don't hesitate to give us a call if any of these options sound like they can help.

Stay safe,

NRS

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[Guest]

I don’t feel safe at home. When I was little my parents got divorced and my mom never showed up to fight for custody of me so I live with my dad. We moved in with my grandparents until I was 8. My dad met my step mom and from the very beginning I was uneasy about her. Her way of raising her kids was very different from my dads so there is a lot of things they didn’t agree on. She hits us a lot and always resorts to yelling. She pulls my older step sisters hair. I always get blamed for everything, even if I wasn’t home when it happened. Whenever I’m out with friends she snoops through my room and goes through my stuff. My younger step sister puts all of her stuff under my bed just to get me in trouble. I started cutting myself last year but I stopped. I’m always scared that I’m going to get hit. I was sexually assaulted by a complete stranger and my stepmom blamed me for it, saying that it was my fault then proceeded to call me a slut and a whore. I get yelled at for wearing a dress when it’s really hot out but both my stepsisters can wear whatever they want whenever they want. All of my stuff has been pushed to one corner of my room that I share with my younger step sister. I’ve put up with it for 5 years and I’m honestly just done. My friend Colby that lives in the next state over offered to pick me up and let me move in with him and I almost agreed. I’ve run out of options. I tried talking to my school counselor but she ignored me and so do all the Other adults I try and talk to. I’m a thirteen year old girl by the way.

[ccsmod7]

Hi, thank you so much for reaching out. Situations like yours can feel incredibly hopeless and it is really brave of you to reach out. It sounds like your step mother is quite abusive. Know that you deserve better than that and what your step mother is doing is wrong. You deserve to have your privacy and what your step mother is doing is not okay. Self-injury is really serious and while its wonderful that you haven't resorted to that in a while, it is important to make sure you have healthy ways of coping with everything going on at home that aren't cutting. twloha.com is a self-harm resource that might help you in your recovery as you move forward. If there is anyone you feel comfortable confiding in, they can be a great resource for support during this tough time. You deserve to feel safe and loved in your own home and there are certainly options out there that can help with this.

Child Help is the national child abuse hotline and their number is 1800-422-4453. We are also available 24/7 if you ever need to talk at 1800RUNAWAY. We can help you file an abuse report, if you're interested. We would be on the phone with you and provide you with support as you go through the process of filing the report. If you have any pictures or other evidence of abuse (like markings or videos or recordings) those could definitely help. Once a report is filed, the situation will be investigated and if they decide to move forward, they could remove you from your parent's care.

If living with another family member is a possibility, that could also be an option. You mentioned you used to live with your grandparents, if going to live with them is an option that could be something to look into. I know you mentioned going to live with a friend, and while we aren't legal experts there is some general information you should know. If you leave without your parent's permission they would have the right to file a runaway report. You aren't breaking any laws, but running away is a status offense. This report is filed in a federal database and if the police knew where you were or came across you, they would return you to your parent's care. Your friend could also face harboring charges by allowing you to stay with them. For more specific information on how this all works please reach out to your local police department. This may seem very stressful but you are not alone in this. We are here for you and please reach out to us at any time.

Please understand that sexual assault is never your fault. What your step mother is saying about you is not true and you deserve better than that. Coping with sexual assault can be incredibly difficult but there are people out there that want to help you. RAINN is a resource for victims of sexual assault that you can reach out to at 1800-656-4673. And we are available 24/7 at 1800RUNAWAY if you ever need to talk.

It is ok to feel frustrated and angry about your situation. You have a right to be angry. Thank you again for reaching out and feel free to do so again at anytime.

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[Guest]

I'm 12 and I don't feel safe or loved any where. At home my mother yells at me constantly, hits me, makes me feel absolutely worthless. At school my teachers and classmates break me down like it's nothing. I don't know why they hate me so much. But then again I hate myself more then all of them combined. I am overweight and hate it. I starve myself and try to purge but i don't have a gag reflex. I have attended suicide 5 times and can never just be good enough to succeed. I feel like the whole world just wants me to suffer. And i can't die because then the world would have no one to hurt. I know that if you're going through something like this you should tell a trusted adult. Only problem is i have no one to trust in life.

[ccsmod10]

Hi there,

Thank you so much for contacting us. It sounds like you have been through a lot, but we are here to listen to you and see how we can help.

You do not deserve to be hit, or made to feel worthless. Your life is more valuable than anyone else can tell you, and you deserve to be loved.

Know that if you have no one else to turn to, we are always here. If you are ever feeling depressed or suicidal, you can give us a call at 1-800-RUNAWAY (786-2929), and we can talk about how you are feeling and whatever else is on your mind. You can also always call the National Suicide Prevention Lifeline at 1-800-273-8255 to talk to people who are trained to help you feel better. There are always people here for you, even if it feels like you are alone. It may seem like you don’t have anyone to trust in your life, but you can trust us and other places we may refer you to, to listen to you.

It sounds like you’ve tried a lot to make things better. Some people find it helpful to file a report about the way your mom treats you with Child Protective Services. This can be frustrating sometimes because it can take a long time for things to change, but we encourage you to keep contacting them to make reports when things like this happen. Documenting any bruises or marks left behind for CPS to see can help them a lot when make reports too. We can also help you file these reports, if you gave us a call first.

You also mention feeling like you hate yourself, and struggling with being overweight. The purging you describe could be considered an eating disorder. The National Eating Disorders Association is always available to you to talk about how you feel about your weight. You can call them 24/7 at 1-800-931-2237.
Know that you are beautiful regardless of your size, and if anyone tells you otherwise they do not deserve you in their life. It may be helpful to talk with a therapist or school counselor about how you are feeling. This can be a helpful outlet to express your emotions to someone who will be there for you. We can help you find affordable counseling services in your area that you can meet with on a regular basis. Again, just give us a call and we can look into this for you.

Thank you again for reaching out to us. Keep in mind that you are a strong person deserving of love. Please give us a call if you want to talk more. Best of luck, and hang in there.

[Guest]

Hi I’m 12 and I don’t like living with my moms boyfriend he has been pushing my around and nearly broke my arm and I want live with a friend but since I’m 12 I don’t think I can live with a friend to day he spit water in my face and kicked me before has has punched me very hard and their has been times where he has grabbed me bye the shirt and tossed me across the room I don’t enjoy living with him sometimes he will go in my room and steal money candy sometimes my PS4 and for some reason I’m the only one in my family who stands up to him my mom doesn’t and my sister doesn’t PLEASE someone tell me a law that allows me to live with someone else and sometimes I will get depressed in class and in my house because of how bad he treats me and makes me feel like I’m worthless these are his words “you will never amount to nothing you dumb piece of ********” and when I start crying he laughs and says awww is the babby crying and even righ now as I’m writing this I’m crying because I’m thinking about what he says sometimes I try to stay after school but the teachers won’t let me so all I do is stay in my room I have called the suicide hotline and they say tell you mom that you don’t like him but I cry and she hears me and says shut I and then I yell ARE YOU ********ING KINDING ME HE JUST ********ING SPIT WATER IN MY FACE and she only yells at me and I just want to hurt him because I don’t think he’s scared to break my arm or something else bye I will keep on posing

[ccsmod15]

Thank you for contacting us at the National Runaway Safeline. It takes a lot of courage to reach out for help and we are glad you decided to reach out to us.

We are sorry to hear that you are going through such a hard time at home. It is not your fault and it is not OK for your dad to treat you like that. If it might be an option for you, you could call the Child Help USA hotline at 1-800-422-4453 and they can help provide you provide information on filing an abuse report. If you are ever in danger of hurting yourself or someone else you can call 911. Your life matters and we are here to support you through this. We are sorry to hear that calling the Suicide Hotline has not been helpful. You can also contact SAMHSA at 1-800-662-HELP (4357). It is ok to cry.

You are doing great by reaching out for help. We wish you the best and hope to hear from you soon.

Best,
NRS

[Guest]

Im 13 i feel like im crumbling everytime my family tells me im worthless and a bad person and to stop messing up there life and i dont know what im doing wrong they barly hit me anymore tho so idk what to do. I want to leave then i would stop messing up there life. My brother and sister are so loved and i dont want to mess that up for them. They yell at me and call me things like ********** moron retard what should i do?

[ccsmod2]

Thank you for reaching out to us here at National Runaway Safeline (NRS). We understand that it takes courage to seek help. You mentioned some things that raise concern for your safety and well-being. If any harm or abuse is happening at home, you have the right to report it. We are not experts on the issue, but generally once it's been reported, social services will either decide whether or not to take the case and further investigate. If they do take the case, they will send out someone from child protective services to do an investigation (interviewing people in the household) and from there they will decide the level of danger within the household. It generally ranges from no danger (the youth stays in the home, some services are given, and the case is closed), moderate danger (they will provide family services with possible temporary displacement) and high danger (they will remove the youth from the home and offer certain services). If you have any other questions or just want to talk, please feel free to contact us directly via our 24 hour crisis hotline (1-800-786-2929), email, or live chat.


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[Guest]

Hi I’m 12 year old girl and I live with my grandma but I just don’t feel happy here anymore it feels like she doesn’t love me anymore even though she says it but not as often anymore I feel like she just waiting for me to go back to my moms house but I don’t know I also am in a depressed stage and I’m feeling very sad I’m also scared that if I come home from school and see I’m grandma dead so plz help me

[ccsmod15]

Thank you for contacting us at the National Runaway Safeline. It sounds like you are going through a difficult situation right now. It takes a lot of courage to reach out for help and we are glad that you decided to reach out for help.

It sounds like you are concerned about your grandma and are scared. Sometime talking and explaining how you feel can be helpful. Talking directly to your grandma can be helpful to explain her how you feel. It sounds like you are worried and unhappy. If it might be an option for you, you could call the Substance Abuse and Mental Health Services Administration at 1-800-662-HELP (4357). If you ever feel sad or depressed and thinking about hurting yourself you could also call 911 or the National Suicide Hotline at 1-800-273-TALK(8255). Family counseling can also be helpful in many situations. If it might be an option for you, you could call us at our 24 hour confidential hotline at 1-800-RUNAWAY(786-2929) and we can just listen to you, explore your options and provide any resources.

We wish you the best and hope to hear from you soon.
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[Guest]

I feel very unsafe at home. I’m 15 years old and being here with my aunt and uncle makes me feel very un easy because they always get mad for nothing. Scream at me and only me throws stuff at me and scares me. I don’t like being here with them and idk how to make me feel better. I sorta stay in this messed up scary situation becuse if I leave or get help it’s worse. I just don’t know what to do to make things better. I try to avoid them but they constantly yell at me or hurt me even more. I’ve never felt so unsafe in a place that’s suppose to be surrounded by happiness or a sense of comfort.

[ccsmod11]

Hi there,

Thanks for reaching out. It sounds like you’re feeling unsafe at your aunt/uncle’s home because they scream and throw things at you. That definitely sounds like it could be a messed up, scary situation. We’re sorry to hear you’re going through this all at this point. You definitely don’t deserve to have things thrown at you, and your relatives have no right to try and harm you. It sounds like you’ve tried to get help or leave before, both of which are valid options. However, it sounds like whatever you did in the past hasn’t prevented you from being in the situation you’re in now. Sorry to hear that. We would like to offer some services to you that may hopefully help. We can file abuse reports on your family members if you would like us to, which would authorize CPS to investigate your case more thoroughly to take appropriate action. We also can talk to you about any of the experiences in your home that have made you uncomfortable so that you can get some support in this difficult time. We also can help refer you to emergency shelters in your area that can provide you with housing in the event you do decide to leave home.

Hopefully this helps! Best of luck,
NRS

[Guest]

Hi, I am 18 years old. My dad is 10 years older than my mom; she was 20 when she married him. My dad was an alcoholic until I turned 10 years old. When I was around 6 years old (I was an only child), my dad starting hitting me around 10 times with a belt or rope every time I did something wrong. His excuse for hitting me that many times was that he was raised like that too. To this day, I still feel like that treatment was exaggerated. I dealt with it 4 years from what I remember. When I turned 10, I had a 3 year old sister and a 1 year old sister. My dad started going to church and he stopped drinking alcohol completely. All of a sudden, he wanted to talk to me, pray together, and eat as a family. He just expected me to forgive him quickly... it's been 8 years and I still haven't.

I feel so disconnected from my family. I now have 5 siblings. My mom had 1 miscarriage and she is expecting another child soon. I am 7-8 years apart from the sibling born after me, so I feel even more disconnected to the other younger siblings. The only sibling that loves me is the baby, the youngest one. My dad never treated my siblings how he treated me. I'm so glad but at the same time I'm so sad I had to deal with that. To this day, he calls me useless and tells me that he doesn't need to give me an explanation when he name calls me. Every time he yells at me, I cry and remember the times he would hit me. My parents dont let me go out and always ask who I'm talking to on the phone. I am not allowed to have a boyfriend, but I have one anyways. Im 18 already but I cannot do much. I want to move out, but my dad works overnight and has a soccer training school. My mom does not drive. I have to move my mom around, take her shopping, take the kids to school, pick them up, take them to church, take them to soccer practice, etc.

I was recently diagnosed with anxiety which leads to sleep paralysis and sleep apnea. My psychiatrist said it's due to stress.

I am so tired of this, but my family needs me. The only people keeping me sane are my boyfriend and friends. I can get a dorm at the university in the fall semester since I have leftover scholarship money. Should I help my family or get a dorm/move out?

[ccsmod11]

Hi there,

Thanks for reaching out to us to help you decide about this situation. It sounds like you’re going through a lot at home and are thinking of leaving to dorm. This is surely a difficult time for you, and we’re sure you’ve been enduring a lot. Hopefully we can help.

Firstly, abuse is never okay regardless of what you may have done to get in trouble. It is never acceptable for your parents to harm you, and we’re so sorry this happened. It seems that this has happened a while ago, but you may still have unresolved issues from the years of abuse you experienced. You may also have issues because your father seems so eager to move on after the abuse has happened. We are here 24/7 to talk to you about these issues. Just call us at 1-800-786-2929. We also can help talk to you about some of the difficulties that arise from your parents treating your siblings differently than they treated you.

We are also glad you’re still wanting to help your family out. That shows a lot of caring and resilience. Ultimately, the decision of whether or not you should move out is up to you. You may want to consider whether or not it is better for you to leave your family and gain some independence. You may want to think about how your mental health and finances would be affected by a move-out as well. You ultimately know what’s best for you, and making this decision on your own terms is important. Call us if you think you would like to talk more about these issues.

Hopefully this message was helpful to you today!

Best of luck,
NRS

[Guest]

I am a 16-year-old Female living in Utah. My mother is very abusive. She grabs my hair (which leaves my hair falling out of my head for days) and drags me around the hall. She's hit me with metal rods/glass plates/ books/cups, chased me with a knife, kicked me while wearing heels (which have left scars), and slammed my head into my metal bed frame multiple times. A few nights ago, things got really bad while I had a friend over, her mom came and picked us up and I stayed there for a few days. My parents didn't really care until two nights ago, where they called the cops and had me removed from my friend's home and brought back to my parent's home. Ever since that, I have lost all of my privileges. I don't have my phone anymore, my car, my bedroom, and they have taken away my right to participate in extracurricular activities (which I mainly used to stay out of the house.) My parents are threatening me now saying, that if I get "Out of line" again, they will call the cops on me. I'm not allowed to share my opinion or leave too soon after an argument. If my parents interrupt me I'm not allowed to continue talking. I have to be quiet and let them finish what they were saying. I'm told to "shut up" and if I don't I'm overstepping my boundaries. I want to file a report with the police, but my parents threatened to send me to live with my aunt (which is not something I want to do.) My parents are also getting a restraining order against my friend and her mom because they helped me and are continuing to do so by filing police reports and talking to CPS. My mom is very emotionally and physically abusive. If I don't do well in a volleyball game, she'll tell me I'll never amount to anything more than high school volleyball and she wouldn't be surprised if I don't make the team senior year. She's very verbally abusive. She swears at me and if I swear back, I get hit with belts. Is there some kind of report I can file that would allow me to live with my friend and her mom? Her mom was willing to add me to their insurance and health care. She has let me drive her car (seeing that I got mine taken away). She makes plenty of money to support us three and she's offered to do so. My parents keep threatening her and me and I just do not want to live with them anymore because I feel incredibly unsafe. Especially with my senior year of high school coming soon, I want to focus on school. Not trying to survive.

[ccsmod1]

Hi there,

Thank you for reaching out to us at the National Runaway Safeline. We're sorry to hear about all that has been going on for so long and want you to know that you deserve to feel safe and happy in your home. We want you to know that you don't deserve any sort of abuse, physical or verbal. We would encourage you to keep reporting and continue documenting the abuse and do things like take pictures of your injuries. You and your friend's mom could reach out to Child Help at 1-800-422-4453 to talk to an expert and get all of the information that you can specific to your situation. They would be able to talk about what more you can do besides reporting it and about possibly getting custody transferred to someone else. You can also give us a call at 1-800-786-2929 and we could help you report the abuse as well. Don't hesitate to give us a call as we are 24/7 and here to help.

Stay safe,

NRS

[Guest]

I am a 13-year-old girl, my family is constantly hurting me like as in emotionally and mentally. Well kinda my dad used to physically abuse me and he has extreme anger issues and I feel highly uncomfortable around him and depression runs in both sides of my family but on my mom has anxiety which she gave it to me. If my dad is downstairs and I have to do my laundry I always tell my mom to go down there with me since I am really scared of him. Also, I can't even go outside because of my anxiety and how anti-social I am. I am always scared of being judged. Almost daily I have emotion or mental breakdowns. I have had a total of six suicide attempts and five of them were just in April this year. I wouldn't really ever end my life but I sometimes actually wish that I wasn't alive. My dad also kinda physically abuses my two brothers, the first time that he officially hit me was after he hit my youngest brother which was five years old at the time and then proceeded to try to choke me for a really short amount of time. This was back in September or November and I became anorexic in December which also just so happened to be when my birthday was and I couldn't go to school because I got really sick for not eating for a couple of days while my dad had to go to rehab for threatening to commit suicide the day before my birthday and was there for a week, and during that week it felt so peaceful. I honestly want my parents to divorce but if I had to live with him I would literally run away without any second thought. I really don't know what to do at this point, I feel so broken, worthless and scared now. Do you have any advice?

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Reply: I am a 13-year-old girl...


Hello,
Thanks for contacting the National Runaway Safeline.

We are sorry to hear about how tough life has been at home for you.
You nor your siblings deserve to be hurt by your father, it is unfortunate that this has been going on but it is not yours or their fault.

It sounds like because of the trauma you have gone through that it has caused you to have anxieties and several suicide attempts. Hurting yourself is not the answer. We understand that you are hurting emotionally from everything but suicide is a permanent solution to a temporary problem. Please try to understand that you are not alone and that there is help available.
Sometimes talking about things may bring some new ideas and focus on dealing with the situation.

NRS is here to help and here to listen. We want you to know that we are here to support you during your time of need.
Reaching out is such a brave thing for you to do. Your health and safety are important. It seems like you want something better for your life. Good for you.
Talking about your feelings can be helpful.

Maybe you might consider talking with your mother but if that is not an option perhaps a counselor at school would be another option. We can try to assist you with locating counseling services in your area if you’d like.

If so please contact us at 1-800-Runaway (786-2929) or www.1800Runaway.org (Live chat).
If you are at risk or any danger please call 9-1-1 for immediate help. To report child abuse contact Child Help 1-800-422-4453 this is an organization that helps protect minors from being harmed. It may also be a good place to explore options for staying with another family member or someone you trust as far as transferring custody.


We wish you well as you continue to cope with your situation.

Take care,
NRS

[Guest]

At age 11 I date my husband he's older than me 6 years I was get scold for breaking stuff my mom said nasty things tell me be a whore we move alot place in my family all my siblings were taking turn bully me especially my older sister and my biggest bother also my dad year after year I get older at age 12 my husband visiting me our long distance relationship I was so happy when I saw him I give me first time to this man he is my life saver I know my family doesn't love me they call me name too I try to kill myself once but to chicken I missed my husband so I can't do it when I turn on age 16 I married my husband and get pregnant my mom and 6 elder sister with my big brother squeezed my belly laughs at me and said I was in high school grade 11 can't be pregnant then 3 of them cooperate my 6 elder sister beat me with hard metal and boom stick with hanger too I got the bruised on my body and pull my hair in that time my baby was dead in my stomach I lay on the sofa crying tear painful feel cold and my 6 elder sister take me to hospital for the operation I tell my husband everything then I move out myself about age 17 my family have given up on me I say to myself I never have family I remember when I was eating my dad throw chop sticks at me no reason I can't bear anything repeated abuse I run off from connect with my parents and siblings again I go running to my husband I love this man after I graduate highschool I wanted to study college and university I let go my dreams because I need love someone truly appreciate me accept my mistake

[ccsmod0]

Hello,
Thank you for taking the time to write to us here at the National Runaway Safeline. It sounds like you are in a complicated situation. We would love to talk to you more about what you are experiencing. We were having difficulty understanding what you posted about and we think it might be best if you give us a call. 1-800-786-2929
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I don’t feel safe. My
aren’t gave me a phone but they get mad when I call my grandma to tell her what’s going on at home. I have to write this on my school iPad bc they monitor EVERYTHING. Schools about to end and I’m scared. I’m always getting yelled at and called names and slapped or smacked. My stepmom ripped up my mother’s day present right in front of me because I sided with my dad in an argument.

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Thank you for contacting us at the National Runaway Safeline. It sounds like you are going through a difficult situation right now. It takes a lot of courage to reach out for help and we are glad that you decided to reach out for help.
It sounds like your home is not a safe place to be. It is not ok for anyone to be calling you name and physically hurting you. You could consider calling Child Help USA at 1-800-422-4453 and they could help provide you information on filing an abuse report. If you are ever concerned about your safety you can always call 911. Things sound really overwhelming at home. Sometime talking to a family member, friend or even a counselor can be helpful. You could call the Substance Abuse and Mental Health Services Administration at 1-800-662-HELP (4357). If you ever feel sad or depressed and thinking about hurting yourself you could also call 911 or the National Suicide Hotline at 1-800-273-TALK (8255). School counselors can also be helpful in many situations. But school counselors are mandated reports so if you mention abuse to them they will be mandated to file an abuse report. Family counseling can also be helpful in many situations. You could also us at our 24 hour confidential hotline at 1-800-RUNAWAY (786-2929) and we can just listen to you, explore your options and provide any resources.

We wish you the best and hope to hear from you soon.
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