Hi,, I'm 16 and have severe depression and anxiety and ADHD. I'm a huge introvert with rejection issues and a terrible fear of being abandoned. Also, I'm a trans boy. My family tries to be supportive but they're really controlling and I feel like I'm under constant scrutiny, to the point where I'm terrified of messing up for fear of punishment, which is dumb because I rarely do my schoolwork and get yelled at for it all the time. As I write this I'm supposed to be writing an English essay. I go to therapy twice a week and have a few good friends, and I'm on Prozac and Adderall which kind of help. Now, the issue. I have this really strong desire to run away somewhere, but only for maybe a week or so. I know how to live on my own, I'm an avid survivalist and prepper. I would probably go to the woods. I told my therapist and she said that my feelings are valid but i shouldn't because I"m not in an unsafe situation, which is true. I know it's risky and I'd probably get in trouble when I come home, but I feel like it's worth it. Am i being irrational? Should I stay and be thankful to have a family that loves me despite showing it in ways that don't really help me? Or is best if I go, and have my independence? I need help.
Thanks for reading, which nobody probably did.
~Eli
(I made it green bc I like green)
Thanks for reading, which nobody probably did.
~Eli
(I made it green bc I like green)
Comment