I am 18 and I am done with life.

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I'm 18, and I'm seriously done with life. My days are spent with my mother who discourages and demoralizes me every single day. I was a bright student but due to some events I couldn't graduate. Now I want to attend community college but not anywhere close to her or my father at all. I get suicidal thoughts everyday because I feel like the biggest failure because I wasn't able to graduate, and my mothers remarks don't help it at all. I seriously want to fix my high school mistake and want to attend college and do something good with my life, that's the only reason why I'm not thinking about suicide, rather just running away. I have had a lot of time to think, and I think this is my only way out. I careless about a warm soft bed, or the healthy meals. If I'm at peace in my mind, then I can survive in any condition. I'm a California resident and wish to go to San francisco. I have no money,and 10 units short of a high school diploma. I don't know what to do with my life. I don't have a single person to talk to or who I can consider my friend.

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RE: I am 18 and I am done with life.

Hello,

Thank you for getting into contact with us here at the National Runaway Safeline, it takes a few minutes to writing what has been going on and we appreciate the time that you have spent reach out to us. We are always here to listen and here to help in any way that we can. From what you have told us about your situation, it sounds like you have been going through a lot right now dealing with going to community college that is far away and your thoughts of not finishing high school. No one deserves to be treated that way and talked down to or discouraged from doing the things that they want. Especially if it’s about wanting to finish your education.

You have stated that you were feeling like you’re having suicidal thoughts every day, have you told anyone about this before? If you research your college, there might be some one-on-one resources for those that attend and are enrolled there. Have you ever thought about possibly talking to someone at your school about this thoughts and feelings that you have been struggling with? Another get resource is the National Suicide Hotline which can be reaching by calling (1.800.273.8255(TALK)) and they can talk to you and help you through some of those emotions.

Now at 18 years old, you’re allowed in most states to leave someplace and live in another if you choose to do so. It wouldn’t be considered “running away” after that age. It sounds like you’ve been thinking about leaving to move to San Francisco to get away from everything, but don’t exactly have the funds to go and you’re 10 units short of getting your diploma. It seems like you have given this a lot of thought though. If you were to leave, what kinds of things do you think that your parents would do? What is your overall plan (i.e. housing over there, transposition, financial stability, school options, do you know anyone over there, etc)? Thinking critically about a solid plan might help you on learning more about what you want to do and every better communicate this to someone else; like a counselor at your school or even your parents. Perhaps knowing better how to communicate your plans or even your feelings might make it easier to talk to someone and connect.