What to do?

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Just to start off i am 14 So... Here's the story. Last night i got up to get a drink and i was on my way back to the chair and my 8 year old little brat of a sister jumped up real quick and got in the chair so i kept telling her to get up and would not let go of the chair. Then my 16 year old sister started touching me because i wouldn't leave the chair alone. I don't appreciate being touched so i started hitting her arm away every time she touched me. Now i have always been a somewhat emotional kid when it comes to stress, i can not take very much of it. As a result of this i start to get mad and tear up as it goes on. Also coming with that anger is hitting harder. so then my mom gets home and walks through the door and sees me hit her in the arm so she comes through the door like a bull dozer, slams me into the shelf and starts pulling my hair very hard as a result of that i have a massive bruise on my back and this morning my hair is falling out little by little. but after she did that i was on the floor so she grabbed my hair and pulled me up...Did i mention i am a boy... and then pushed and hit me till i went out side barefooted. she would not give me my shoes and i was in shorts and a t-shirt and then she locked me out side saying something like if your gonna act like your 20 and hit a girl then i'm gonna treat you like your 20. So she made me walk to a friends house... Now keep in mind snow just melted here so it was wet... snow?! Yes, it was 37 degrees out to be exact and i'm barefooted with shorts on... my only friend in this town lives around two miles away so basically i walked 2 miles in 37 degree weather and he let me stay for a bit but then took me home when i did not want to. at this point i am pretty much done with my family, i would be happy to turn my so called mother in for abuse if that's possible considering she pulls this kind of crap a lot. and as for my two sisters... hate them both. people may say they hate their family and things like that and not mean it in the long run but i do mean it. i have pictured my hole family getting hit by cars and trucks and stuff multiple times, BUT that does not mean i would harm them seriously for fatally myself so don't look at me as some psychopathic 14 year old who is going to murder his family. i just don't know what to do about this i will probably end up running away if this doesn't stop. i have never been a big fan of running away as my best friend was murdered a while back after running away but right now it is the only option i can think of other that harming my self fatally and hopefully i am far away from that option.

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RE: What to do?

Hello,

Thanks for reaching out to us for help. It sounds like last night was really tough. Nobody deserves to be hit, and you have a right to feel safe at home. It sounds like you were in a really tough situation. You mentioned that you are thinking about making an abuse report. If you want to report this incident, we can help you file a report. It might be helpful to take pictures of your injuries and bruises. It takes a lot of strength to reach out for help and make a report. If you are interested in this option, you can call us at 1-800-RUNAWAY or call Child Help USA at 1-800-422-4453.

You mentioned that you have a difficult time with stress and anger, and that you have thought about harming yourself and about harming others. It sounds like you also have a difficult time with your family and have had some violent thoughts about them. That sounds very difficult and painful, and you should know that we are here to help you. We are here to listen and support you in any way that we can. Have you ever talked to anyone about these feelings, or seen a counselor or therapist? We could help you find resources for one if you are interested.

Our primary concern at NRS is your safety. It sounds like you have had some thoughts about suicide. If you feel you might hurt yourself, you can always reach out to the National Suicide Hotline for help at www.suicidepreventionlifeline.org or 1-800-273-TALK (8255). It sounds like you also worried about your safety if you decide to leave home because of what happened to your friend. We are very sorry to hear about that. If you need someone to talk to about how to stay safe and make a plan if you decide to run away, you can talk to us anonymously and confidentially 24/7. We are looking forward to hearing from you, and wish you the best of luck.