First off the problem is there are alot of problems, and I'm really confused and scared.
I'm homeschooled so I can't talk to a counsler or teacher or anything, and My friends all moved away so there is literarally nobody to talk to.
my mom got a divorce a few years ago, and met a boyfriend about two years later. He eventually moved in and been here for I think 4-5 years. He's got emotional problems... He blames himself for his mom's death (it wasn't his fault) he had a fight with his mom and she had breast cancer and he didn't drive her to the doctors to get treatment... and she died. After that he dropped out of art school and joined the army. When he got out he met my mom. Now everything is going fine for about 5 years... but then my family found out that my step brothers father (who he was living with) was physically abusing him and had been for years. So we had to go through a long legal battle to get custody, which we did. And now he's living with us. I guess the problem is my home, and I'm sad to say it. My mom plays video games a lot (and has an advanced college class she attends twice a week to get a new job) money is tight. I mostly don't eat much because of it. I skip breakfast and lunch and just have an apple and dinner. Right now my mom's boyfriendn is paying the bills but he says he isn't happy here and he feels like he is just working himselfl to death and we don't appreciate him and take his money. I do appreciate him and I know my family does.. I just don't show my emotions at all since my mom's divorce, and I'm ookay with that. After that day I knew I just never wanted to love somebody to have them leave. My real dad left my mom when she had to help her famliy. And my step dad never fufilled his promises... but he was a good guy... And on top of it all a few days ago he touched me weird... it made me VERY uncomfortable... I don't know what to do I want to tell my mom but they fight and he leaves we will have nobody to help pay bills and I'm scared we will starve.
I finally thought about this all for the past few days and I don't know what to do
I thought about
-running away
-cutting
-commiting suicide
-or just ignore it all and stay in my room till i move
I'm also really angry at life for the situation I've found myself in and I feel as if I have no control over anything anymore...
please help
I'm homeschooled so I can't talk to a counsler or teacher or anything, and My friends all moved away so there is literarally nobody to talk to.
my mom got a divorce a few years ago, and met a boyfriend about two years later. He eventually moved in and been here for I think 4-5 years. He's got emotional problems... He blames himself for his mom's death (it wasn't his fault) he had a fight with his mom and she had breast cancer and he didn't drive her to the doctors to get treatment... and she died. After that he dropped out of art school and joined the army. When he got out he met my mom. Now everything is going fine for about 5 years... but then my family found out that my step brothers father (who he was living with) was physically abusing him and had been for years. So we had to go through a long legal battle to get custody, which we did. And now he's living with us. I guess the problem is my home, and I'm sad to say it. My mom plays video games a lot (and has an advanced college class she attends twice a week to get a new job) money is tight. I mostly don't eat much because of it. I skip breakfast and lunch and just have an apple and dinner. Right now my mom's boyfriendn is paying the bills but he says he isn't happy here and he feels like he is just working himselfl to death and we don't appreciate him and take his money. I do appreciate him and I know my family does.. I just don't show my emotions at all since my mom's divorce, and I'm ookay with that. After that day I knew I just never wanted to love somebody to have them leave. My real dad left my mom when she had to help her famliy. And my step dad never fufilled his promises... but he was a good guy... And on top of it all a few days ago he touched me weird... it made me VERY uncomfortable... I don't know what to do I want to tell my mom but they fight and he leaves we will have nobody to help pay bills and I'm scared we will starve.
I finally thought about this all for the past few days and I don't know what to do
I thought about
-running away
-cutting
-commiting suicide
-or just ignore it all and stay in my room till i move
I'm also really angry at life for the situation I've found myself in and I feel as if I have no control over anything anymore...
please help
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