I just need a change of scenery.

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I am 14 years old and i hate my living situation. I live alone with my mom and we constantly get into fights. I have been cutting myself for over a year and she just recently found out. She hasnt been very supportive and just sends me to a psychologist to fix me. She never thinks its the way she treats me that makes me cut. I have also been dealing with depression and she gets mad at me when im sad. She says that she doesnt know why im sad all the time even though my life is so "great". She refuses to believe i have depression. I cant take it anymore. All she sees me as is a cutter and i cant live like this. Some nights we dont even speak. I want to run away for only a few days and show her i cant live like this. Im not going to sacrifice my future so im not dropping out. And im not leaving my boys and girls club behind. If i did leave for a few days do you have any ideas of where i could go? i have no idea where to sleep or how to last a few days. Please help!

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RE: I just need a change of scenery.

Hi there,

Thank you for writing to us at the National Runaway Safeline. We’re really glad you did because it sounds like you’ve been going through a rough time, which is causing you to harm yourself. Cutting yourself is especially worrisome. Your happiness, health, and life matter. You also mentioned that you have been dealing with depression. This can be difficult to go through alone. There are some resources we can provide for you. To Write Love On Her Arms, www.twloha.org, is a resource you can start with that can assist you in finding help to deal with your depression and cutting. Another resource that might benefit you is the Self-Injury Hotline. You can look them up at www.selfinjury.com or call their hotline at 1-800- DON’T CUT (1-800-366-828. Finally, another resource that could benefit you is the National Suicide Prevention Lifeline located at www.suicidepreventionlifeline.org , this is also a free and confidential hotline for individuals in emotional pain. I hope those help you find a place to start.

You also mentioned that your mom is not very supportive during this time. This must be difficult for you not to have her support. It sounds like you have thought a lot about this, you do not want to drop out of school and you want to continue attending your boys and girls club. Running away is a big decision and it is really good that you are thinking ahead. One resource that might be helpful to you is www.nationalsafeplace.org. If you click on your state in the upper right corner, you can see if there is a safe place near to where you live. You might be able to stay there for a few days. If you wanted to call into our hotline at 1-800-RUNAWAY (1-800-786-2929) we could find you a place to stay and talk you through some options . We are here 24 hours a day and are confidential and anonymous. You can also reach out to us through our website (www.1800runaway.org) from 4.30pm-11.30pm Central Time.

We look forward to your call or chat.

Good luck to you,

NRS

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