I'm 13 and Want to Leave

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I'm 13years old and I want to leave, sometimes I just want to runaway and sometimes I want to die. My 15year old brother mentally abuses me and sometimes physically. Anything that I do is retarded, or stupid, or gay, etc.. and he has recently started to tell me I should kill myself (And I often think about it). My parents rarely intervene, and if they do we usually both get in trouble (Because if he hits me I hit him back, if he calls me a name I call him a name, even though it doesn't faze him). I've also been begging my mom to let me get homeschooled because I have no friends at school and it puts a lot of stress on me to go there every day, but she wont let me. I don't think she will ever understand how much anxiety I get from school. I really don't know what to do.

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I'm 13 and Want to leave

Hello,
Thanks for contacting the National Runaway Safeline.
First let us say that we are sorry to hear that you are having a hard time at home and school.
You do not deserve to be hurt by anyone by any means ;we can't imagine what it must feel like for you.
It sounds like your brother is being very inconsiderate of your feelings by saying or doing such cruel things to you. You have feelings and we understand how hearing that can have a negative effect on you emotionally. You should not be harassed in your own home.

It's too bad that your parents don't seem to get as much involved with bringing resolve to the situation as you might like. When dealing with stressful times it can be comforting to know that you have a support base. As far as what you might do well it's good that you are reaching out to NRS; sometimes just being able to express your feelings openly might help to relieve some of the stress. Good for you.

Can you think of anything you can do to avoid having confrontations with your brother?
You might consider not becoming combative verbally or physically with him instead maybe you might try ignoring his comments or leaving the room as to avoid conflict.
We certainly understand that this might be difficult to do but it's an option to do something different.
Does that make sense?

School sounds like it's been difficult as well because you don't have any friends there.
That's tough. Have you thought about joining some activities at school as a vehicle to meet some of your peers? This might help in being around other students where you have something of interest in common. Another option is working with your anxiety. Is there a school counselor that you can meet with. Sometimes talking about an issue might help in coming up with ideas on how to cope with the issue at hand. Would you be interested in counseling?

NRS has a national data base which allows us to help you search for support services in your area.
You can call our 24hr crisis line at 1-800-Runaway (786-2929) talk and maybe go over some more options. NRS offers live chat via our website www.1800Runaway.org available from 4:30pm until 11:30pm (CST) 7 days a week.

Also there is the National Suicide Hotline: 1-800-273-8255
This might be helpful if you are feeling overwhelmed and having thoughts of suicide.
They have counselors available to talk 24hrs a day.

You did great by reaching out to NRS tonight and we hope that you continue to seek positive outlets to ease any stress you might be feeling.

Thanks again for contacting NRS.
Take Care

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