I cannot live here anymore

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Re: I cannot live here anymore

i know how everyone feels. trust me i do. my mom treats me like im a little kid. well im not. she takes her stress and anger out on me and hits me. she treats me as if i am a piece of ********. and after a while i believe it. i constantly get bullied and harrased and honestly i just wanna die or run away forever. but then i see i have a little sister and i think what type of influence will that be on her ?? i just wanna die sometimes so all the pain can go away!!! or just run away and never turn back. but even if i do more problems will happen and i dont need or want more problems. so yea i just cry myself to sleep to go through every bull******** life puts ahead for me. because believe it or not our parents love us and want the best for us but they just treat us in a bad way that we dont like. but believe it or not whatever the problem or case that us teenagers go through is to make us a better person in the future. my name is emely and i am 15 years old but i have gone through things that you guys wished ya would never go through. so love your life. were still young and theres a long way to go.

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Re: I cannot live here anymore

Thank you for using our bulletin service
First off we want to say that abuse whether its physical, emotional or verbal, it is never okay and you do have the right to report it and do not deserve it. You might want to think about making a report with Child Protective Services. Child Help USA is an information and referral line that can connect you with your local CPS abuse hotline. That number is 1-800-422-4453. If you ever felt like making a report or needed help, we are here to assist with that. We understand that making an abuse report can be intimidating so if you like we can call together to provide support.
Thank you for being strong enough to share your story with everyone. It sounds like you are having a really hard life and we are so extremely sorry to hear that you feel like you want to die. We want you to know that you are not alone and there is a lot of support out there for you. If you ever still feel like you want to die you can call 1-800-273-TALK and talk to someone at the National Suicide Hotline.
It is great that you still have a positive ray of light in your life and you focus that love on your sister. It sounds like you really care about her and the influence you have on her. Even though your mom has been doing all of these really awful things to you, can still find the strength to stay positive and look forward to the future.
We would love to talk to you more, you sounds like such an intelligent and insightful young person.
Please consider giving us call 1-800-RUNAWAY

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Horrible parents

Hi, I'm not really sure how these things start but I'll just start, my 3G on my phone is almost done for the month so you probably won't have time to reply but I needed to say this. I truly hate the couple who gave birth to me, I'll be 15 in just over 2 weeks. I recently got back from a Gaeltacht. It's a camp of sort where it is forbidden to speak English, ( I'm Irish and we could only speak Irish there ) I hated it there and spent most of the nights crying my eyes out. I repeatedly said in letters that I needed to come home but my parents made me stay. It was for 3 weeks on the far side of the country. I had one " friend " there with me. My friends are nice people but when we're all together , I'm just there for them to slag and take the piss out off... I had depression about a year ago now, well I didn't get diagnosed or anything and I've never seen a counsellor but it was a horrible time so I guess that was it. I've spent a lot of time on these kind of sites. I guess runaway type stuff is my option since I'm too much of a wimp for self harm or suicide. My dad just takes the piss out of me in public to make others laugh. It's not your standard embarrassing dad stuff, I just end up the but of his jokes over and over again... If I retaliate in any form , him and mum just team up on me, taking my phone and the like. The wifi got taken permanently today ( it isn't the sole reason or anything that this is being written. It's just there's so much ******** I've just taken from them and I feel ( and look ) like a mess. There's a a lot of other ******** they have done and said but that's not what you're here for I know, I just can't bare them anymore , my gran and far away cousins are the only people that don't seem to hate me right now and I've never done anything to anyone.. Any solutions?

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Hi there –
Thanks for reaching out to NRS – sometimes asking for help can be difficult and we’re glad you’ve taken that step. We will try to help in any way you can.

You said you’ve been suffering from depression and we think you may benefit from having someone to talk to about it. You could certainly call us here at the National Runaway Safeline and we could talk through your situation and explore options with you, however, it sounds like you may be writing from Ireland. Since we are based in the U.S., we are not sure if you would be able to call us, but we want to help in any way we can. The resources we have in our database are also all located in the United States. Have you searched for resources in your area? After doing a quick Google search, we were able to find an institution called Barnardos (www.barnardos.ie) located in Dublin and their website has quite a bit of information on various issues that many teens are faced with. You can find discussions about common issues here: http://www.barnardos.ie/resources-ad...teen-help.html. There is a directory of services the organization offers here: http://www.barnardos.ie/resources-ad...-services.html. If you look under the “Abuse” section on this page, there is an organization called Samaritans that offers “confidential, non-judgemental support 24 hours a day” and lists a hotline number. There are also a number of resources listed under the “Mental Health” section, both online resources as well as hotlines, that might be of use to you in finding someone to talk to about your feelings.

We hope that you can find someone to talk to through one of these resources. If you give us a call, we would talk through your situation and see what you would like to do to improve you situation. We wish you the best of luck and we’re here to listen, here to help if you would like to contact us again.

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I'm 14 almost 15 years old and I can't stand life at home. All day everyday my older brother who's only 17 yells and cusses at me and sometimes either threatens or actually hits me. This has been going on for many years and now that I'm old enough to actually get help its gotten worse and all people say is that its not that bad and I'm vying for attention. My so called mother just sits there and let's it happen and then claims to other people that she jumped in and tried to stop it. If I had done that to my younger brother she would've slapped me or hit me another way, but she never does it to him. My older brother doesn't do this when my oldest brother is around or when my sisters 21 year old boyfriend is around but they don't live with us. My "mom" let's him do whatever he wants whenever he wants she gives him money then yells and complains that she can't afford anything. If I need something like my inhaler since I have asthma she says she can't afford it but will turn around and give him over 50 dollars. She also tells other people that I don't listen and I'm bad so I get in trouble but never him. I don't know what to do anymore since I have no where else to go.

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Hi there,

Thank you for writing to us here at National Runaway Safeline (NRS). We understand it takes great courage to reach out, and we appreciate you sharing a little bit about what’s going on. We're sorry to hear about the conflict you are experiencing at home with your family. You don't deserve to be hit or threatened by anyone. It seems maybe your older siblings may be able to help in some way. We want you to know that we are also here as support to help you through this challenging time. It is often helpful to talk things out in a safe space. We offer that safe space through our confidential and free crisis talk line. If you would like to talk more in detail and share more about how we can help specifically (provide resources, complete conference call with your parent, etc), please call or chat soon.

Our contact information is 1-800-RUNAWAY (786-2929); www.1800runaway.org (click on the chat button).

If you are at risk of any danger or feeling unsafe, we encourage you to reach out to 911 or seek emergency assistance immediately.

We hope to hear from you soon.

Be safe and take care,
NRS

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Re: I cannot live here anymore

My parents treat me like a little kid I'm 11years old. When ever my brothers get a bad grade they don't yell at them they say Harder next time when I get a bad grade they yell at me and say go away I'm the second oldest. Still my older sister would tell my mom about it. I want to stay with my grandmother on my mom's side but I would see her on holidays same with my dad's side it gets annoying. Please help and how do I tell them.

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Hello,
Thank you for taking the time to write to us here at the National Runaway Safeline.
We are sorry to hear that you parents are treating you like a little kid. We want you to know that it takes a lot of maturity to reach out for help when you are having issues at home. It sounds like your parents are not treating your fairly, we can only imagine how infuriating this must be for you.
You mentioned that you would like to go and live with your grandmother but need help telling your parents. This really brave of you and if you would like we can be on the line when you tell them. Perhaps you can consider using our conference calling service, this is a service where you would call us and we would hold a conference call between you and your parents to talk about how both sides are feeling. We would serve as mediators, we are not here to necessarily choose sides but rather help come up with a solution that would make the situation at home better. This might be helpful to you if you have concerns about your mother not listening or not being open to hear what you have to say. If you feel like this is a service that you would find useful you can give us a call and one of our trained liner will be happy to assist you.
1-800-RUNAWAY

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Re: I cannot Hid this

I want to take a DNA to see what I am. But the thing is I'm adopted and they would think I want to leave to see them but the thing is I don't I just want to know them. And see if I have any siblings that I can get close to. I just don't want them thinking that I want to leave them.

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Re: I cannot Hid this

Hello There!

Thanks for reaching out to the National Runaway Safeline. It sounds like you are going through a lot right now with wanting get the information to know more about your biological family. It is perfectly okay to want to know this information. It may be a good option to talk to your adoptive parents about how you are feeling and to ensure that you are not trying to venture somewhere. We are not experts in this, but there may be some information that your adoptive parents can have about your biological family. Maybe something from the agency this was facilitated with. Generally when taking DNA tests to test paternity or maternity, you need something to compare/test it with. Meaning, just taking a DNA test will not reveal who your parents are because there is no collective database to do so. Again, this can be something that you can discuss with your current parents to see if there is anything they can offer as far as information of how to do so.

Please call us at 1800-RUNAWAY or live chat with us to talk more about what you are going through.
Best Wishes,
NRS

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Re: I cannot live here anymore

I absolutely cannot live here anymore, i have serious depression and my brother is relentless and yells at me for logn periods and threatens to take my cat away
and my cat is the only thing keeping me here right now and i have no where else to go i just im so trapped and my mom is out of the picture but my dad constantly
is yelling and screaming and belittling me and threatening me with kicking my cat out or taking my phone away, and my phone is the only way i can talk to my best friend
whom i am very close to but she lives in sacramento for college. I woudlnt be able to do emancipation because im not 16 yet i am 15 turning 6 in may and emancipation in
california requires adult permission. my father would never let me and im too young to have a job let alone i dont have a social security card and dont know
my number and my dad has no idea where it is. Im so stuck and everyday it feels like i want to die so so so much i just hate this and i hate being verbally abused and feeling like
im nothing and that im a horrible child and person for it and i dont know what to do. i have a friend with a car and she lives with a roomate but i would get in trouble
my dad is so strict and i just feel like im drowning i want to leave so badly and be on my own. i want to live with a family member but my dad would NEVER
let me do that because of how strict and over bearing he is. and my family live either across the country or in Germany and i cant go there i dont know ggerman like
my dad does.

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re: I cannot live here anymore

Hello,

Thanks for sharing your story. It seems like you are feeling really overwhelmed at home and have considered a number of things including running away. Based on your age, it can definitely be difficult to leave and be on your own as you mentioned. If you leave, your dad can file a runaway report for you and potentially make you return home. Living with another person may cause legal problems for them as well. Without being able to work and your dad likely not allowing emancipation it could mean you aren't able to leave home like you want to. You definitely don't deserve to deal with verbal and emotional abuse. It may be helpful to consider ways you can cope with your stress using hobbies, activities, or talking with an adult that you trust. Sometimes school counselors are helpful with this as well. If you need support you can always call or chat with us, we are available 24/7. If there is anything you feel we can help with, please let us know.

Sincerely,
NRS

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Re: I cannot live here anymore

hi! my names Brittney and i struggle with depression because of my abusive/bipolar parents. I have been called CRAZY for almost 2 years because my parents make me look like the problem in my house. i have 4 sisters and one brother, i only live with 3 sisters and one of them is my full blood sister. i made A's, B's, and C's all through elementary school because i was so happy with my life. No bullying, abuse, and i had lots of friends. Now my mom married an abusive man who wont spend a dime on me and my younger sister Baylee because we aren't his children. i do believe we disrespect him but we do it because a man who abuses is not a man himself. He doesnt own up to his mistakes because he honestly doesn't think he is wrong. a coupl weeks ago he threw a phone at my moms face and i watched him do it but she made excuses for him like he didnt mean to hit her she just didnt catch it. i need help i really do because i cant live here anymore. ive been to mental hospitals because he didnt want me exsposing him and his abusive ways and he wont let me talk to anyone about these problems because he knows someone out there can help me.

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Reply: I cannot live here anymore.

Hello,
Thank you for reaching out to the National Runaway Safeline.

We are sorry to hear about the situation you are in at home with your family.
Being a victim of Domestic violence is something that too many people face and one of the hardest things to confront. It must have took a lot of strength for you to use the NRS forum say something out loud. Good for you.
No one deserves to be abused. The most important thing is the safety of you and the members of your family.
NRS is here to help and here to listen.

Let NRS know what you would like to see happen going forward.
You are welcome to call our 24hr crisis hotline number 1-800-Runaway (786-2929).
You might even consider contacting the National Domestic Violence Hotline: 1-800-799-7233 or passing the number on to your mother.

Reaching out is the first step. Good for you, great job.

Take Care,
NRS

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Idk what to do my brother he acts like he has anger Issues and I don't feel safe around him and my mom does nothing he has threatened me and my other brother and I just don't want to live here anymore.