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  • Guest
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    Hi I’m 12 years old and turning 13 in October my dad shouts at me a lot and he threatened to hit me or in one occasion break my back my mum tells me that he’s the adult and I’m the child but that’s why he shouldn’t say he is going to hurt me there was one time where I spiled the Curial it was in the early morning so I thought I should wait until my family woke up to start hovering the floor my dad whoke up early and came down and said what is this I told him that I spiled some cireal and why i dident clean it up when he was asleep he shouted at me to hoaver it up when I did that the hoaver got stuck on the corner of the door I had cleaned it all up by then and said in a tired voice is it done now he said clean up the rest on the floor when there wasn’t emu left so I said just that and just swung his hand down at me as if he was going to hit me just before he did he stoped and said don’t talk back to me I have just found out that I sufferer from sever anxiety and very severe depression I feel like I can’t breath around my perents and I want to run away but I can’t leav my friends and brother behind I think I might try to get to a group home thank you for reading

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  • ccsmod4
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    Reply: Letter from a 20 year old:

    Hi,
    Thanks for reaching out to the National Runaway Safeline.

    It sounds like you are in a tough situation and may be looking for some options to help cope with everything.
    We understand it was probably difficult to speak about what has been going on and how it makes you feel.
    You are very brave for doing so. Good for you. No one deserves to be abused. It sounds like you have great empathy for what your mother has endured however the stress from the situation has you feeling depressed. Taking care of yourself is important. Sometimes when things become overwhelming it might help to talk with someone like a friend or even to seek counseling. NRS is here to listen and here to help. Reaching out was a good first step.


    We would like you to know we are here to support you at this difficult time.
    We can best help by phone or chat. If you would like to talk more about your situation ,please call or chat soon.

    Let us know how we might help, please contact us at 1-800-Runaway (786-2929) orwww.1800Runaway.org (live chat).

    Persons or Family members involved in domestic violence can seek help by contacting the National Domestic Violence Hotline 1-800-799-7233 www.thehotline.org

    Take care,
    NRS


    We hope this response was helpful! We’d love to hear from you about your experience using our crisis email/forum. Your feedback plays an important role in helping us improve our services to youth and families. Please click the link to fill out our survey: Your Opinion Matters to Us

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  • Guest
    Guest replied
    Letter from a 20 year old:

    Ohh wow, how do I even start my story. My parents got arranged marriage and my dad has been physically and mentally abusing my mom. I even saw him kick and hit her once, after coming back from a party drunk. She ran away and slept in my room, while I slept downstairs. My mom is the most caring person and does so much for us, but I feel so bad for her. The worst thing is she’s not getting a divorce, because she doesn’t want her parents to know that she is having a bad life and also does it for my sister, brother and me. I feel so bad and can’t imagine how many times I have seen her cry or how many times I have cried because I felt so bad for her. I always hear my parents fighting and screaming and sometimes it’s intense. I just hate him so much he’s a horrible person who is lazy and always drinks. He has alcohol problems, is also angry at everyone and even had depression. I remember when I was little so many things happened, like when he threw his shoe at her or tried to hit her with a whine bottle, and told her that he didn’t love her. My mom is so hard working and works for 12-14 hours a day in a restaurant for 6 days. She even cooks and cleans the house and fixes everything. She’s like the man of the house, unlike my day who is to lazy to even stand up. One day I found out that my mom was having an affair, I couldn’t blame her despite what she’s been though. Then my dad apparently tracked her phone and found out everything. They had a huge fight. Just being in this house or should I say Jail, makes me so anxious. They are always fighting over the most stupidest and Childish things and this house is never quiet. I hate living here and want to escape so badly, I do have a job, but not enough money to get out of this hell hole. Although I can take care of myself I feel bad for my little brother who is only 8 years old and isn’t being looked after properly, along with my 17 years old sister. I get jelous of my friends parents or other people who don’t have to suffer like I do. I want to leave this house so badly, but I feel so bad for my mom that I have to stay here and I don’t know how to get past this. I also feel like I’m slowly becoming depressed.

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  • ccsmod2
    commented on Guest's reply
    Hi there, thanks for contacting National Runaway Safeline. We’re sorry to hear all that you are going through at home. It is not right to be abused by your parents or anyone in any way. It is not fair that you have been told such hurtful things by your parents. This all must be really hard on you. We would hope that you have some support right now, maybe through a friend or someone else you may trust. If not, it may be beneficial to contact NAMI to speak with professionals who are trained to help assist someone who is experiencing depression. Just so that you are aware, the things you are reporting sounds like abuse. You are able to report abuse that is happening in your home. If you would like to know more information about what classifies as abuse, how to report abuse you are experiencing, or just more information about ways you can protect yourself then, it may be beneficial to contact an agency called Child Help. Their website is childhelp.org and they have a hotline 1800-422-4453. We would like to be of support to you. . If you have any additional questions or concerns, please feel free to give us a call at 1800-RUNAWAY or chat with us live by visiting our website 1800runaway.org. We are available 247/7. Best of luck to you

  • Guest
    Guest replied
    I don't want to live here anymore

    I'm a 16 year old girl. Living at home is very challenging. I dont know what to do anymore. I dont even know where to start. I cry myself to sleep everyday. My mom constantly shouts at me. She doesnt even see thay I try my best. She's always comparing me to my older sister. There are certain thinhgs that I am not good at, like cooking. She told me that if one day the stove burns me she will punish me physically. I know how painful the punishment is. After beatings, I always have red swollen marks all over my body. I'm forced to wear long sleeved clothing so that people dont notice my marks. Whenever I cry she forces me to stop and is always shouting at me. I have a headache problem. I tried telling my parents but they all think I want attention. I'm not allowed to go anywhere. Not even school functions. They never tell me that they're proud of me. They just put pressure on me Recently, my dad told me to die. I've been crying for hours now. My mom shouted at me saying that she isn't raising fragile kids but she's raising kids that can handle any situation. This makes me want to die. I feel lonely, alone, useless and depressed. Pls help

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  • ccsmod1
    commented on Guest's reply
    Hey there,

    Thanks so much for contacting us, it takes a lot of courage to reach out and share your story. It must be really hard to live in a home with so much tension. It sounds frustrating to not have any privacy or space to yourself at home. Running away is a big decision and it can be very stressful to figure out what you want to do.

    You mentioned some things that raise concern for your safety and well-being. If you are at risk of any danger or feeling unsafe, we encourage you to reach out to 911 or seek emergency assistance immediately. If any harm or abuse is happening at home, you have the right to report it. If you feel like this is an option you want to explore, you may find this website helpful: https://www.childhelp.org/child-abuse/. We can also help you to file a report if that’s the route you are considering.

    You also stated that you feel like you’re about to kill yourself, it can be hard to deal with these feelings alone. If you’ve been struggling with depression or thoughts of suicide you can always reach out to the National Suicide Prevention Lifeline at 800-273-8255 (suicidepreventionlifeline.org) for additional support.

    If you’d like to go over what’s going on in depth, or if you’d like to explore other options that you may have available to you, please don’t hesitate to call us at 1-800-RUNAWAY. You can also chat us by clicking on the “CHAT” button on top of our homepage. We’re open 24/7 and here to listen and support you in any way we can.

    All the best,
    NRS

  • Guest
    Guest replied
    Hi... I can’t stand this house everyone’s just ********ing so aggravated ! This air is so ********ing toxic my mom lets people in and out of this house all day! We have 12 people living here with 3 bedrooms small bedroom ! And this house is a mess and so disgusting so I get no privacy I share my room with 4 of my sisters plus her boyfriend plus my mother like wtf ! My dad got deported at a young age ! Tbh Idek why I’m still alive I’m bout to kms ! My mom doesn’t even care I was telling my sister how this house makes me crazy and my mom told me to **** Whatever my cousin lives with us and her child and she has me watch her baby all day while she does herion and I can’t I ********ing can’t bye guys
    Last edited by ccsmod1; 02-16-2019, 01:58 AM. Reason: Profanity

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  • ccsmod15
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    Hi. Thanks for reaching out to the National Runaway Safeline. It must be heartbreaking to feel like your own mother doesn’t care about you. Moving out on to live on your own can be a very stressful transition especially when you may not be prepared. It might be helpful to consider other trusted family members or friends you may be able to stay with while you can potentially search for employment and save up for your own space. There may also be shelters or transitional living programs available for you to stay at. If you need help searching for these resources please feel to contact us via phone at 1800-runaway or via chat at 1800runaway.org.

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  • ccsmod0
    commented on Guest's reply
    Hi. Thanks for reaching out to the National Runaway Safeline. It must be heartbreaking to feel like your own mother doesn’t care about you. Moving out on to live on your own can be a very stressful transition especially when you may not be prepared. It might be helpful to consider other trusted family members or friends you may be able to stay with while you can potentially search for employment and save up for your own space. There may also be shelters or transitional living programs available for you to stay at. If you need help searching for these resources please feel to contact us via phone at 1800-runaway or via chat at 1800runaway.org.

  • Guest
    Guest replied
    My mam wants me out the house nd am seventeen a want to be out the house to tbh she really doesn’t care about me as she says her self a need to move out but I don’t have a job or anything what should I do

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  • ccsmod2
    commented on Guest's reply
    Hello There,
    Thank you for contacting The National Runaway Safeline, we are here to help and here to listen. It sounds like you are going through a difficult time right now. It must be frustrating to feel like your mother is being over protective of you. You could consider talking to her about how you are feeling. Also many people have track phones there is nothing to be embarrassed about using one, if people make fun of you that may be them having insecurities and have nothing to do with you. You mentioned your mother beating you and saying mean things about you, you do not deserve to be treated this way. When your mother does those things we want you to know its not you and you are not any of those things your mother is taking her anger and insecurities out on you. If you would like to make an abuse report you can call The Child Help Line at: 1800-422-4453. We know that sometimes making abuse reports can be scary if you would like our help you can call us at any time and we would be happy to help you. If you ever feel like you are in danger please call 911, and an officer can help you. We are glad that you have a great time at school and are able to enjoy your childhood. There is a way to have a good time at school without getting in trouble and flunking your classes. You could consider talking to your teachers about ways to bring up your grades. You can also try talking to a school counselor about what is going on at home, because that could affect your grades.
    We hope this information will be helpful to you in your situation. If you have any more questions or would like to talk more please give us a call we are here 24/7. We wish you the best of luck!
    NRS

  • Guest
    Guest replied
    hello

    ok so ever since i was little my mom has been trying to keep stuff from me and protect me from the world in the wrong way.she has always tried to keep me from bad things and i would do it to my child to but you have to think about the tole it will have on your child.But basically ever since i was like 4 my mom told me that she would never have to ask me to do things like wake up in the morning for school,actually she told me i would wake her up already ready and everything.But as i got older(im 14) she wouldn't let me do stuff like go outside or go over a friends house because she is just SO over protective,like really over the top protective.And at home its just me and my mom and our dog.i have an older brother and two younger sisters ,and im very close to my sibling ,we dont have anything wrong with each other,but since im the only child at home you could understand how lonely it gets ,and when she would get me a phone it would be a track or a n817 and trust me everybody made fun of me because everybody have iphones or new galaxy and i had a f u cking track phone,but since im the only child in my house theres nobody to talk to ,and i have a bunch of friends so when i get to school i just talk my ass off and have a good time,and i was trying to have a child hood at school that i knew i would never have at home.This really upset ed my mom to see me fluncking and getting in trouble all the time but it was because of HERRRR.so when she would woop me she would beat the hell outta me, and im not filling this way because she would just beat me ,im feeling like this because of the things she says to me. She says things like:i hate you i only love you because i have to,you'll never be anything,your pathetic,,your just like your ****** daddy slow and dumb(even though he's not),you make me ******* hate being a mother,you were a mistake, i was going to get an abortion and i should have,gay ass boy(im not gay at all),faget.and when she would be me i would have welps on my arms or bruises.but now my mom would get mad about anything.its still a lot to say but im getting tired so
    thank you for listening.
    Last edited by ccsmod2; 01-30-2019, 10:00 PM.

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  • ccsmod5
    commented on Guest's reply
    Hi,
    Thank you for reaching out and sharing some of your story. It takes a lot of courage to reach out for options and support. We are so sorry to hear about your father’s passing; an event like that could put stress on anybody, particularly in combination with something like ADHD (or HDHD). It sounds like you’ve given a lot of thought to what your ideal low-stress situation would look like, which shows that you are thoughtful and reflective. Good for you! From what you’ve written, it sounds like your ideal situation right now would be quiet and mostly just you alone. You mention that you don’t have family members who would help and don’t want to live with other people. Unfortunately without a means of supporting yourself, it could be difficult to find a quiet place to stay that is also safe—your safety is our highest priority! We do want to put out some options you might consider. The first is talking with your family about what you need to feel supported. For example, perhaps you could work out a plan for how much alone time you need during the day. If you need help having that conversation, we are happy to mediate a conversation between you and your parent or guardian. If you’re interested in that, you can call our hotline at 1-800-786-2929. Another option to consider is therapy if you’re not already doing that. Therapy can be a great time for you to talk about what you’ve been feeling and develop strategies to cope with that stress. It sounds like you’re going through a really difficult time right now. It’s understandable that you would feel overwhelmed. You deserve support! For mental health resources near you, you can call the National Alliance on Mental Illness at 1-800-950-NAMI or text “NAMI” to 741-741. You can also call the Substance Abuse and Mental Health Services Administration: 1-877-726-4727.
    Stay strong and take care! Feel free to call if you need any resources or support. We are here to listen and help in any way we can.
    Sincerely,
    NRS

  • Guest
    Guest replied
    I need help!! I am 15 years old and live my mom and brother. My dad passed away a while back and I think he stress has ruined us. I have HDHD and Autism. I have been so stressed and don’t know what to do. I feel like I need to live somewhere else at least for a while. My other family members can’t help me right now. I also don’t want to live with other people. I want to just live by myself and do my school and eventually get a job. I can’t financially support myself and my family won’t help me. Therefore emancipation is not an option. Please help fast!

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  • ccsmod2
    commented on Guest's reply
    Hello there,
    Thank you for reaching out to us here at National Runaway Safeline. It sounds like you are going through a lot with your father.
    The easiest way for you to move out would be to get your parent’s consent. If you decided to leave home without your parent’s consent, they have the right to file a runaway report. With a runaway report, if the police find you they would return you home. You mentioned that you would like to room with your friend that is 18, if you stay with your friend without your parent’s permission, they could get in trouble for harboring a runaway.

    It sounds like you are interested in emancipation. Although the age of majority is typically 18, it depends on the rules of each state. If you are interested in learning more about emancipation options, please contact us direct via our crisis hotline (1-800-786-2929), email, or live chat, we could provide you with resources for the state that you are calling from.
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