I don't agree with my parents rules and I feel if I try to talk to them I'll get hurt

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Iv been fighting with my mom sense I was 11 and couldn't get any help because no one believed me when I was 14 me and my mom got in to a fight and she told me she was going to kill me and she choked me till I could get my feet under me and kicked her away from me she made me go to a shrink to talk out my problems with didn't work so we stopped but then we got into another 5 months later but she says it never happened cause I never had any marks but she threaten to turn me into the cops for attacking her cause I bit her trying to get her off me cause she was choking me again witch worked until she got her legs around my rib cage and tryed crushing my rib cage. She lied to my dad who of cores beleaves her more then me cause she's his wife and I'm a "stupid teenager with hormonal problems" I told my case worker and she just ignored it for some reson I'll never understand. I'm 16 now and we haven't had any problems cause I try and control myself but instead of takeing it out on her I have be come overly stressed I have no motivation at all and I want to cut myself but don't because I love and respect my boyfriend not to hurt myself like that. I do not agree with my parents rules at all and want out of this house but runing away gets me no were of cores but I feel if I try to talk to them by myself I will get beat (she's done it once way not again) she complains her back hurts all the time but yet she goes out every saterday nights and gets drunk and dances till she can't feel anything. She makes me do the laundry cause she "cant" but when they really need cloths she dose it and she's fine and she cleans the house once a week if that all she dose is sit on the computer and plays on Facebook or sits in bed and plays on her tablet. She on a lot of medication for her back witch makes her tired all the time. When my brother comes home I'm made to wash his cloths all of his cloths he's 19 and can do them himself the way I see it if it's your crap you take care of it I cook for myself most the time I do my own laundry and I keep myself healthy and clean I have no pet to take care of so for the most part I take care of myself really well other then my greads but I'm to depressed to do that cause to me school isn't about what I want it's what my parents want they want me to be the perfect child like my brother but I can't cause I have a small learning disability that makes it harder for me to learn. I feel like I'm there personal slave my brother is only here on his school breaks so they have no other kids at home just me. They tell me to be myself around them but I can't because who I am isn't want they want I have told them things I have done and said one of my friends did it to see how they react to it and they usually react badly so I know they will never accepted me for who I am so I hide who I am from them witch is a not her reson why I am depressed. I would like some advise on what I should do.

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Re: I don't agree with my parents rules and I feel if I try to talk to them I'll get

Thanks for reaching out to us and being so honest and open about your situation. It sounds like you have had some rough experiences with your mom. You don't deserve to be treated that way by your mom, and the types of physical attacks you describe sound like physical abuse and it sounds like these experiences have had a very real impact on your mental health. It sounds especially difficult that you have reached out to adults like your dad and haven't received help.

Do you feel safe at home right now? If you do not feel safe, we are happy to help locate a safe place for you to go in your area or contact the local authorities. If this does not seem like a good option for you, we're also happy to talk with you about what you can do to stay safe for right now. Give us a ring at 1-800-RUNAWAY 24/7 and we can talk to you more specifically about your situation.

We can link you with other counselors in your area if that would be helpful. Even though your first psychiatrist wasn't helpful, another psychiatrist or counselor may be more helpful because the relationship you have with them is the most important predictor of success with these types of services.
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Best of luck,

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