I Want Out

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I want to be as far away from my parents as humanly possible. My father doesn't understand how difficult it is just to get out of bed every morning. I've been suicidal for four years and it hasn't let up in the slightest. I moved here because I thought my life would be better but it isn't. There's nowhere I can go and there's nothing I can do. I want to be gone, and I'm afraid if I don't get out soon, I'll wind up offing myself.
I'm 17 and it's illegal in my state to run away but...

Is there anything I can do? There's no abuse, no neglect, but I want to be freed of this burden.

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Re: I want Out

We are so sorry to hear that you are feeling this way and thank you for reaching out to us. It sounds like you are really struggling at home and you have been for a long time now. You don't deserve to feel the way you do, and we want to help you in any way that we can to help you get to a happier place. Your safety is the most important thing to us and although you said there is no abuse or neglect in your house, we are also concerned about your own feelings of hurting yourself. If you are feeling suicidal, please don't hesitate to call the National Suicide Hotline at 1-800-273-TALK). Also, if you are feeling in danger right now, you can call the police or go to the emergency room.

You said that you really want to get away from your parents because they don't understand what you are going through. That must be really tough to feel misunderstood by them. Do you have anyone in your life that understands what you are going through? We have resources for counselors and therapists all over the country and we would love to share those with you if you contact us with more information about yourself. Also, if you feel like you want to runaway and have nowhere to go, we will work with you to figure out what some options are for you. Remember, you are not alone in this struggle. Don't hesitate to call our 24/7 hotline at 1-800-RUN-AWAY or through our online chat system through our website (www.1800RUNAWAY.org, 4:30-11:30pm CST). Good luck and stay strong.