My stepdad hates me and I can't stay here any longer.

[Guest]

Hi, My story or situation is nothing compared to the posts I've been reading, but different people cope with worse situations better, unfortunately my situation is not that bad, but it's worse than anything else in my life, for me of course...
My mom and dad got divorced when I was 12 months and remarried about when I was 18 months,
my real dad was trying to stay a float but had his ups and downs, after I called him one night telling him about the way my stepdad was treating me he decided enough was enough and to move closer, so now he lives an hour away instead of about 4-5 hours away,
I now get to see him less than I did when he lived far away, and he is struggling to pay his bills,
obviously that's kind of an awkward situation for us both because we don't really have that connection or bond to be open enough to talk about it...

recently things have become worse at home,
I moved out of the hostel because next year is my most important year of high school and I need to stay focused, but since I've moved back there's been more tears on my pillow at 3 in the morning that ever before...
my mom had 2 girls with my stepdad, 5 and 7 years younger than me,
my stepdad is constantly being unfair towards me in the way he treats us,
I get along with the sister that's 7 years younger than me
but for some reason my middle sister and me hate each other,
i think that through the years I knew that she was getting everything she wanted and that kind of built up a hate towards her,

I'm very scared of my stepdad as he has shown numerous signs of aggression so I always just say "yes" and "sorry" even though I know I'm not wrong...

he will always pick her side, and I can't even get a chance to explain my self or tell my side of a story, when she says I'm mean, he says I'm mean, he yells at me, hits me and sends me to my room...

my mom used to stand up for me a lot, but he threw a plastic chair at her and since then he manipulates her and she has become a different person, like he brainwashed her with going to Church and everything, they are the wrong type of Christians and I can see that because he tends to swear at me and uses God's name for the wrong reasons...
my mother was a relaxed person, but he changed her by threatening her, when I would do something wrong that my mom knows wasn't wrong at all he would yell at her and tell her that if she doesn't do something about her daughter than he will and not in a nice way...

I can't deal with him nor my sister anymore... I have no friends left because of a depression dip I went through so I lost them all as they couldn't understand what was wrong with me, I feel no motivation to fix those friendships at all, yet I don't know why,

I really want to go somewhere else, any place would be better, I really feel that they would be the perfect family if it wasn't for me being here...
they have these fun movie nights in my parents room without me all the time, and my sisters get to sleep in their room all the time but I am not allowed to because it's too childish for me,

I have tried to commit suicide, but all that did was make things worse,
they didn't do anything, they just yelled at me and said that I'll go to hell if I commit suicide and It's against God's Will..


j don't know who to turn to, the only person that still makes a light in my life is one of the teachers at school, and I don't see her till next year...

[ccsmod2]

Hey there,

Thanks for reaching out to us here at the National Runaway Safeline (NRS). It sounds like you have been dealing with a very difficult situation with your family. We are here to help in any way we can.

You mentioned that your step-dad has hit you. No child should ever have to endure abuse, physically or emotionally. In case you would like to report your abuse, Child Help is the national child abuse hotline. Their website is childhelp.org and their phone number is 1-80-422-4453. They are available 24/7. If you are interested in reporting this abuse but do not want to make this call on your own, you can feel free to call in to us here at 1-800-RUNAWAY (786-2929). We are happy to help you in making that call.

It is hard to feel like your relationship with your mom has changed and that she no longer stands up for you. On top of that, feeling as though you are not included in the family is an isolating and lonely feeling. If this is something you want to talk through with her so that you can fully express yourself and maybe come up with actionable ways to improve your situation, we have a conference calling service here at NRS to help ensure that conversation stays positive and compromise-driven. You would call in here, talk to us a little bit about your situation, and then we would call out to her mom, talk with her for a bit, and then connect the call. This may also be something that you are comfortable doing on your own or with a friend or family member that both you and your mom have a good relationship with.

You mentioned that you were staying in a hostel but moved back in with your mom and step-dad so that you could focus on your school work. You also said that you feel as though any place would be better. You know your situation best, but perhaps you can weigh whether living in an alternate place, like a hostel, will be more beneficial than living at home for you right now. If you would like to talk about more youth-focused alternative living homes in your area, you are welcome to call us here at 1-800-RUNAWAY (786-2929), and we can discuss what potential arrangements are available in your area.

You said that you have attempted suicide. The number for the National Suicide Prevention Lifeline is 1-800-273-8255, and they have a chat option on their website, suicidepreventionlifeline.org. You also mentioned how you have dipped into a depression. Perhaps you already go to therapy or counseling, but if you do not and it is something that interests you, the Substance Abuse and Mental Health Services Administration has a really great website (samhsa.gov) where you can find resources near you. They also have a hotline number: 1-877-726-4727. It is great that you are aware of your mental health, and these resources can help you connect with counselors and therapists to help teach you tools to manage and understand it.

It is wonderful that you find a light in a teacher, but it is difficult that you will not be able to see them until next year. Perhaps there is a way you can keep in touch with her to remind you of that brightness, even maybe via email. School counselors are also there to listen and help in any way they can. Teachers and counselors are mandated reporters, so it is good to keep in mind that should you discuss your abuse, they are required by law to file an abuse report. This can be empowering knowledge for you, whether you choose to talk about this with them or not.

If you would like to talk through any of the above or anything else, feel free to call us here at 1-800-RUNAWAY (786-2929). We are a 24/7, toll-free, completely confidential helpline. Here to listen, here to help.

Best of luck,
NRS

[Guest]

My Mum and step dad makes me want to commit suicide. I get told off for just being on my phone. I get told off for every little thing. My step dad treats me differently compared to my brothers. He tellls me off and not them. Its driving me insane. What do i do?!? Pls help me..

[ccsmod9]

Hi there,
Thank you for writing to us here at National Runaway Safeline (NRS). We understand it takes great courage to reach out, and we appreciate you sharing a little bit about what’s going on. It sounds like you’re quite overwhelmed by things at home right now and you mentioned being harmed. We’re sorry you’re going through this. You don't deserve to be hurt in any way. If you are at risk of any danger or feeling unsafe, we encourage you to reach out to 911 or seek emergency assistance immediately. You may also be able to report any mistreatment to CPS. Child Help USA 1-800-422-4453 www.childhelp.org is an organization that helps protect minors from being harmed. It may also be a good place to explore options for staying with another family member or someone you trust as far as transferring custody. It sounds like you’re quite overwhelmed by things at home right now. It sounds like you’re fearing that the situation may end in suicide if things don’t change. Your safety and well-being is important. If you are at risk of any danger or feeling unsafe, we encourage you to reach out to 911 or seek emergency assistance immediately. The National Suicide Prevention Lifeline 1-800-273-TALK (8255); www.suicidepreventionlifeline.org is also a great resource to reach out to in addition to our crisis services.
Often, having a safe space to share how you’re feeling may bring a variety of solutions previously not thought of. You are not alone in this. We want you to know that we are here as support to help you through this challenging time.
If you would like to talk more in detail please chat soon through our website www.1800runaway.org (click on the chat button) if you are unable to call in. We unfortunately cannot give advice as we are non-directive. You know your situation best
We hope to hear from you soon.
Be safe,
NRS

[Guest]

I ran away the other day because my stepdad and mother dont want me to be with my girlfriend. So i get home and my stepdad proceeds to whoop me so i get up and tell him that he isnt my dad and he has no right. so my stepdad tells my mother i have to leave but my mother is telling me that i cant go anywhere. Can i still leave even tho my mom is telling me no?

[ccsmod2]

: Hi, thank you for reaching out to the National Runaway Safeline. We’re sorry to hear what you’re going through with your stepdad. Everyone deserves to feel safe and loved at home. You mentioned leaving—we are not legal experts but generally, if you are under 18, it’s against the law to leave your parents’ or guardians’ home. If you do, they are allowed to file a runaway report with the police. Running away is a status offense, which means that it’s illegal because you’re a minor but you can’t get arrested or have a criminal record because of it. You should also know that if you stay with someone, they could get in trouble for harboring a runaway.
That being said, if you are 18 or older, you are legally allowed to leave home. Either way, if you decide to leave, your safety is our priority. It’s often helpful to think about where you would go, what you would take, and how you would access money and food. Please call us at 1-800-RUNAWAY (1-800-786-2929) or chat with us online at www.1800runaway.org if you need more help. We are here for you 24/7. Best of luck with everything.

[Guest]

i dunno what to do

im eleven years old and i have lived with my stepdad for four years now and he's abusive and calls me selfish,lazy and fat i wanna get out of here asap we've been kicked out multiple times i don't know what to do its making me depressed and behind in school he screams at me and my mothers too scared to stand up to him shes turning into a monster too

[ccsmod9]

Hi there,
Thank you for writing to us here at National Runaway Safeline (NRS). We understand it takes great courage to reach out, and we appreciate you sharing a little bit about what’s going on. It sounds like you’re quite overwhelmed by things at home right now and you mentioned being harmed. We’re sorry you’re going through this. You don't deserve to be hurt in any way. If you are at risk of any danger or feeling unsafe, we encourage you to reach out to 911 or seek emergency assistance immediately. You may also be able to report any mistreatment to CPS. Child Help USA 1-800-422-4453 www.childhelp.org is an organization that helps protect minors from being harmed. It may also be a good place to explore options for staying with another family member or someone you trust as far as transferring custody.
Often, having a safe space to share how you’re feeling may bring a variety of solutions previously not thought of. You are not alone in this. We want you to know that we are here as support to help you through this challenging time.
If you would like to talk more in detail please chat soon through our website www.1800runaway.org (click on the chat button) if you are unable to call in. We unfortunately cannot give advice as we are non-directive. You know your situation best
We hope to hear from you soon.
Be safe,
NRS

[Guest]

My stepdad is trying to make me unsuccessful, buy taking me out of school, and he always disrespects me, completely trashed my bathroom and bedroom, he also wants me to be put back into foster car, I wish he would actually like me, but he only like my brother, and whenever he’s at the home, it’s like 3 people v.s me and I feel completely destroyed mentally, because of this verbally abuse stepdad.......please help me

[ccsmod7]

Hello,

Thanks for reaching out to National Runaway Safeline. It sounds like you’re feeling hurt and frustrated by the treatment you’re receiving from your stepdad. It can be difficult to reach out for help when you’re being verbally abused at home, so we’re glad you’ve taken the time to do so.

You mentioned your stepdad wants you to return to foster care, and that he is choosing to remove you from school. That must put you into a difficult situation. If you are thinking about running away, depending on how old you are and the state you reside in, there could be various possibilities. If your stepdad chooses to file a runaway report, you could be returned home. However, it is possible that if you are being abused, you could be removed from your current home. If you would like to file an abuse report, you could call the National Child Abuse Hotline at 1-800-422-4453. We do not give legal advice, but if you have questions regarding the outcome of you running away, you could also reach out to law enforcement in your area.

To discuss more options and explore your situation in more detail, you could reach out to us at 1-800-786-2929. We also have a chat option at www.1800runaway.org. We are available 24/7, so don’t hesitate to reach out. We look forward to hearing from you.

Best,

NRS

[Guest]

My stepdad argues with me about everything he calls me names all the time tonight he just started a big fight over nothing again saying I’m a ******* over and over and that he doesn’t want me to ever meet his child tomorrow and that I can ******** off and that my real dad doesn’t give a ******** about me. Before he has thrown a pillow at me and I have thrown it back thinking it’s all for fun until he snapped and started a big fight and forced us all to write him notes saying why we love him. He always does this he has even told me to kill myself and has hit me over the head a few times then tells me he “taps” me and my mum doesn’t do anything ever then ********s on me just to make him happy I just feel like I want to die or runaway anything that will be better then this I don’t know what to do ((((((((((((((((

[ccsmod1]

Hey there,

Thank you for reaching out to us at the National Runaway Safeline. It sounds like you are in a difficult situation, and we understand it takes courage to reach out for help. No one deserves to be treated the way you have been bt your stepdad. Everyone should be respected and feel safe at home. The National Runaway Safeline is located in the United States of America (USA). Our knowledge of helpful community based resources and our understanding of youth in crisis-related laws is limited to the USA. If you are located in a country outside of the USA, you can use this link to find a youth helpline in or around your country: https://www.childhelplineinternation...pline-network/.

We hope that by reaching out to a local resource, you are able to get the support you need from an organization that understands the laws and circumstances that affect youth in your country.

Best of luck,
NRS

[Guest]

My step dad treats me like ********. He calls me names like stupid and says I’m so pathetic and two faced. He always try’s to get my mum to bollock me for the slightest thing. He’s recently started manipulating the situation with me and my step sister, we have small arguments now and again, buts she’s 7 and I’m nearly 14 and she gets on my nerves. He’s started saying I can only invite friends round when she isn’t here and then saying if I’m not happy move out and go with your dad etc. My sister has now started turning on my due to the way he acts with me.

[ccsmod6]

Hi, Thank you for reaching out to the National Runaway Safeline. The way your step dad is treating you sounds just awful. No one deserves that kind of treatment, and it's good that you're reaching out for support. It must be frustrating to be facing this kind of treatment from your stepdad and hard to feel like it is affecting your relationships with your mom and stepsister, too.

If you ever want to talk to someone about this situation in more detail, the National Runaway Safeline is always available--we're a 24/7, anonymous and confidential hotline, and we're here to help. You don't deserve to be called names like stupid or pathetic by anyone, including a family member, and you don't have to go through this alone. It makes sense that you're feeling unhappy and manipulated, but you're doing the right thing by asking what you can do to take care of yourself and improve your relationships in your family. It also makes sense that you're feeling unsure what to do about your relationship with your stepsister; it's normal to want to have a good, positive relationship with a stepsister, and also normal to sometimes find it hard to talk to a 7-year-old.

You might consider thinking about the situations in which your stepdad mistreats you or calls you names. You can also think about whether there's ever an opportunity to tell him how he's making you feel, and what would happen if you did. Sometimes it can help you to tell the person how their behavior is making you feel, if you think they'll be open to hearing you out. You might also consider telling your mum how you've been feeling and asking her if she can help you out. Sometimes writing down how you feel in a journal or a letter can help with having tough conversations like this. You'd also be able to call the NRS anytime at 1-800-RUNAWAY if you would like help planning out how you want to talk to your family.

You mention that your stepdad has suggested that you move out. It might help you to think about specifically how it makes you feel when he says this. You might also want to ask yourself whether moving out is an option you want to consider, and what it would look like if you did. You don't have to decide anything right away.

This sounds like a tough family situation to be dealing with, but it sounds like you're doing your best to move forward. You can always reach us on our 24/7 hotline 1-800-RUNAWAY or on chat at 1800runaway.org. Best of luck!

[Guest]

Although my problem is a bit lower scale. I always feel like my stepdad hates me. He is constantly saying things that did not come out of my mouth to my mom. And then later says to her ____ doesn’t want to do that or ____ doesn’t like that and what not. When I never said those things to begin with. He also only cares about my mom and not about my brother and I. I am a bit younger so my brother doesn’t really care all too much. But he always accuse me of doing something wrong that I haven’t done. I also feel like he is really awkward sometimes, I know i shouldn’t hate anyone I don’t get along with, but I can’t hold any conversation with him because we both don’t want to talk to each other. I will also ask random and naive questions sometimes to him and he will just question back, “why are you so annoying”. And when I tell my mother she simply just laughs it off, as if I didn’t care. Thanks and I hope you can help.

[ccsmod15]

Hello,
Thanks for reaching out to us. We’re so sorry to hear that your stepdad’s behavior has made you feel that he hates you. It sounds like the things he says and does really make it challenging to connect with him, and your mom’s response hasn’t been as supportive as it could be.

One option is to try to discuss it again with your mom. Perhaps writing down your thoughts and bringing up concrete examples will help you communicate to your mom how difficult things have gotten between you and your stepdad. Beyond that, it may be helpful to think about what you’d like your relationship with your stepdad to look like, and whether this is something you would be comfortable talking to him about. If neither of these options seem like something you’d be comfortable with, it may help to reach out to a school counselor, school social worker, or school psychologists. They’re there to support you, and might be able to help you figure out your next steps. Finally, you can always give us a call. We are here to listen and support you, and we will do our best to help you troubleshoot your situation with you so that you can decide how to approach your situation.

Whatever you decide, know that we are here for you. We won’t tell you what to do, but we will do our best to help you stay safe with whatever you decide to do. You can reach out to us 24/7 by phone at 800.RUNAWAY (786.2929). We are also available every day via chat. We’re here to listen, here to help. Stay safe!

-NRS

[Guest]

Please help my sister and I. I have a sister who is 11 years old and I am 12 nearly 13. My mum and dad had a divorce when I was 2 and we miss him but we are grateful we still see him. We had a great relationship with our stepdad and when mum and him had a child who is now 5, life was stressful. Our stepdad is mean to us. When we tell him we love him, he ignores us and when we try to give him hugs he just pushes us away. It has been like this me years. He is quite rude to us and kicks us down from the dinner table for no reason. He doesn't say goodnight to us. We end up in years. He smacks our 5 yr old brother when he misbehaves and we hate that. We don't speak to him much anymore. We get the blame for everything when it was him who did something wrong. We are always arguing with him and we are all fed up. I have ran out the house only once and he caught me. Me and my sister have had enough and have thoughts about running away and killing ourselves and I am getting in a lot of trouble in school because I have given up because all I can think about is him being mean and I never want to come home. He has just bought us a new trampoline and doesn't let me go on it because of school. He doesn't know how I feel and we have both lost trust with him. I don't know what to do but me and my sister hate it here and want to move school and live with our dad. What can we do? We are always in tears. We hate it.

[ccsmod1]

Thank you for reaching out to us at the National Runaway Safeline. It sounds like you are in a difficult situation, and we understand it takes courage to reach out for help. The National Runaway Safeline is located in the United States of America (USA). Our knowledge of helpful community-based resources and our understanding of youth in crisis-related laws is limited to the USA. If you are located in a country outside of the USA, you can use this link to find a youth helpline in or around your country: https://www.childhelplineinternation...pline-network/.

We hope that by reaching out to a local resource, you are able to get the support you need from an organization that understands the laws and circumstances that affect youth in your country.

Be safe,
NRS

[Guest]

Hi, I'm Haitian and my stepfather hates me. Im like that bad but respectful child. I smoke, and come home late but it's not that. He hates me cause he thinks that I am disrespectful even though i never did anything to him. I respect him and treat him as if he's me own father . He calls me pig and how me and my little sis are bad but we aren't and I'm tired if crying everyday, cutting myself, smoking , leaving my house, I'm just tired and I can't stay here. I just turned 15

[ccsmod1]

Hey there,

Thanks so much for contacting us, it takes a lot of courage to reach out and share your story. It must be really hard to live in a home with so much tension, it sounds like some of the things your stepfather says are really hurtful. Running away is a big decision and it can be very stressful to figure out what you want to do.

We care a lot about your safety here at NRS, and we know that stressors like this can be overwhelming at times and it sounds like you have turned to cutting yourself as a way to cope. It’s totally understandable that you would want to do something to give you a feeling of power and control when you may feel hopeless. To Write Love on Her Arms is an organization dedicated to supporting people who use this coping mechanism on their road to self-realization and recovery. You can check them out by going to https://twloha.com/.

It sounds like your stepfather listening to you when you are trying to express your thoughts and feelings about your current situation. It could be a good idea to work with a local family counselor or have a conversation mediated by a school counselor/social worker, trusted friend, or family member to help clear the air. If you'd like, you can also call us directly and we can conduct a conference call with your stepfather so you have a safe environment where you can express yourself.

If you’d like to go over what’s going on in depth, or if you’d like to explore other options that you may have available to you, please don’t hesitate to call us at 1-800-RUNAWAY. You can also chat us by clicking on the “CHAT” button on top of our homepage. We’re open 24/7 and here to listen and support you in any way we can.

Stay safe,
NRS

[Guest]

My step dad hates me

My step dad has never liked me and in the beginning I tried to be civil and get him to like me as I longed for a father figure, but with his bursts of anger and him blaming EVERYTHING on me (like one time he found a staple on the floor and got mad at me for it although it was a staple gun staple and he was hanging insulation up) its minor things like that all the time and I'm afraid my chances have run out for him. I have no money and can't get away from this house...I'm so stressed and have depression and anxiety bcuz of him. I just want to leave this house and never come back, but I have no where to go no money to go, I'm stuck in this stupid house that I don't feel safe in anymore. I just want a place to feel safe and loved again...

[ccsmod15]

Hi there and thanks for reaching out!
Sounds like things are really stressful living with your stepdad and it is taking a toll on your mentally. It sounds like he gets angry easily and that can be really hard to deal with.

Perhaps there is another adult whom you feel comfortable talking with: friend's parents, aunt, uncle, cousin, grandparent, neighbor, family friend. We are also 24/7 at 1-800-786-2929 and online via our chat at the top of the page, so feel free to reach out anytime to talk more about all this! We also offer conference calling if you think having a third party help facilitate a conversation with your mom would be helpful. Again, reach us at 1-800-786-2929 to do that conference call.

There is also other supports for you regarding the depression and anxiety you are feeling. You can text a volunteer counselor anytime at 741-741 or find a local therapist, counselor or support group by calling NAMI at 1-800-950-NAMI or contacting SAMHSA at samhsa.gov. They have an online map of resources based on city and state where you can find local support.

We also have a large database of affordable/free, youth-specific services that we can provide you with if you call or chat us directly.

Thanks again for reaching out. We understand that takes a lot of courage and strength!

Best of luck and stay safe!

[Guest]

Run away

I feel like my parents hate me. My stepdad and mom don’t trust me, they go through my phone, my computer, everything. I’ve been dating a guy for 3 months and I love him, he’s helped me through a lot. I know three months isn’t that long, but he’s literally stopped me from killing myself. They forced me to break up with him. my mom yells at me all the time, my stepdad is always screaming or telling me in doing something wrong, my real dad and my stepmom don’t accept me and can’t take care of me. I cry all the time and I’ve cut myself a lot. I don’t think my parents care. I just want to run away, but I don’t know where to go or what to pack. My friend might let me stay with her, but my parents would find me. I just want to leave and live somewhere else, and be with my boyfriend again. I want to ask my friends mom to adopt me, but my parents probably won’t let her. I really want to run away. What do I do?

[ccsmod4]

Run away

Hello,
Thank you for writing to us here at the National Runaway Safeline .

It sounds like you have been going through a lot of stress with your parent’s and you are trying to find a way to make things better. We understand that you are feeling upset about the way they have been treating you. You did a good job by reaching out to NRS.
It sounds like because of everything you’ve been going through you sometimes resort to cutting. Your safety is important. Even though you are feeling the way that you do there may be alternatives to try that might be safe for you to try. Sometimes it might help to talk with someone. Perhaps the friend or her mom you mentioned might be someone you could talk to. Sometimes having someone take the time to listen can be helpful with bring some temporary relief to a stressful situation.

You also welcome to call or chat with someone on our 24hr crisis line 1-800-Runaway (786-2929) or at www.1800runaway.org (Live chat). We are here to listen and here to help no matter the circumstances.

We can provide an open forum where you can communicate and express your feelings.
If you would like to talk more about your situation and explore options we would love to hear from you.

Take care,
NRS

[Guest]

MY mean step dad. ok my step dad is mean one time when i was sleeping at his house he came in and said lay your ass down so when me and my mom were talking about going to lost dog. He started screaming at me and my mom and said y'all are not going to lost dog he also calls me names like little ********, and mistake. When we first met he was so nice he got me a phone for my birthday. he also texted me and said he hated me and said my grandmom was a idiot so now i am depressed i hope the best for everyone with mean stepdads and moms i was talking to teachers at school he also said that i am ruining his and my moms relationship i have been telling my mom to break up with him but she then gets really mad at me my grandmom has been taking me to a phsyciatrist but its so hard for me i hope the best for all of y'all.

[ccsmod9]

Hi there,
Thank you for writing to us here at National Runaway Safeline (NRS). We understand it takes great courage to reach out, and we appreciate you sharing a little bit about what’s going on. We want you to know that we are here as support to help you through this challenging time. So from what we can gather there isn’t much out near where you are. However it might be best to give us a call and we can help see if we can help with finding long term programs for you and your baby. We recommend calling us or using our chat option because we would need more information from your end to find you something. We typically only respond to forums once or twice so it is recommended you use the chat or call options avaliable. If you would like to talk more in detail and share more about how we can help specifically, please call or chat soon.
Our contact information is 1-800-RUNAWAY (786-2929); www.1800runaway.org (click on the chat button).
If you are at risk of any danger or feeling unsafe, we encourage you to reach out to 911 or seek emergency assistance immediately.
We hope to hear from you soon.
Be safe, NRS

[Guest]

I need help please

I am only 12 but my stepdad treets me like garbage he and my mom talk bad about me infront of he is always insulting and he is always I don’t give a **** if you aren’t my son you should have nothing and to make matters worse my mom joins in all of this and hits me and pulls my hair so does my uncle and I am tired of every thing I’ve had suicidal thoughts since I was 9 please help me

[ccsmod13]

Hi there
,
You did the right thing by reaching out. You don’t deserve to be talked to or treated like that. Nobody does. We’re so sorry you’re going through this and we’re here to help.
It will be important to talk with someone soon. The thoughts you’re having surely feel awful. You’re not alone in having them. Many people who go through such abuse have suicidal thoughts; they can be an indicator that you’re not in a supportive situation and need help. The important things to remember right now are:
You’re not alone
There are people in the world who want to help you
You’re important and deserve to be in a supportive and loving household
And you have options. If you ever feel in danger of hurting yourself, please don’t hesitate to call the National Suicide Prevention Lifeline at 800.273.8255 or visit suicidepreventionlifeline.org.
What is happening at home could be considered abuse. If you’d like to talk to someone about what to do about it, you can contact Child Help at 800.422.4453 or visit childhelp.org.
Also, if you’re in a dangerous situation in your home, and feel at all threatened by a member of your family, you can call 911 for emergency help. Your safety is the most important thing.

Finally, if you want someone to talk to right away, you can always call us at 1800RUNAWAY or chat with us at 1800runaway.org. We’re here to listen and here to help 24/7. We’re completely confidential and can talk more about the situation and help you form a plan of what to do next.
Please don’t hesitate to reach out to any of the numbers and sites above. Remember, you’re not alone, you matter and there are people who want nothing more than to help you. We hope you reach out to us and/or any of the resources above soon.

And we wish you the best!
-NRS