17 and my grandfather is getting hostile with me

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i'm 17 years old and i'm male, i have un-diagnosed d.i.d (multiple personalities)
things at home used to not be like this but ever since I've been getting older; my grandfather, who is basically my legal guardian has been getting more and more hostile with me, its not physical only verbal, he doesn't respect me and tells me i'm garbage, its gone further than that but its hurts to tell anyone. i can't tell him how i feel for the fact i fear he will hit me, i just can't take it, i've taken up putting rubber bands on my arms to show how many times he has gone far enough that i thought about suicide im up to six bands but i just need help before he starts to take out his frustrations on my other personality, i feel like the only way to stop this is to run away but i have no place to stay. i tried asking friends if i could stay but none of them would let me stay,

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RE: 17 and my grandfather is getting hostile with me

Hello there,

Thank you for reaching out to us, we are sorry to hear you are being abused at home. Nobody deserves to be verbally abused or made to feel unsafe in their own home. It sounds like you live in fear of being hit physically as well. You mentioned being afraid to tell anyone, but do you have a trusted adult or teacher you could talk to about what is going on?
It also sounds like you have been struggling with thoughts of suicide. If you feel like hurting yourself the National Suicide Hotline at 1-800-273-TALK is a good resource to reach out to. It sounds like you already have some good coping skills by using rubber bands. You deserve to feel safe and listened to.

You also mentioned that you have no place to stay. www.nationalsafeplace.org is a list of all the shelters you could go to if you needed a safe place for a short while. We can also call any shelters in your area for you and see if they have any beds available. If you wanted to call and talk about what’s going on, we would be more than happy to help you explore options and come up with a solid plan on what to do next.

We can be reached at any time at 1-800-RUNAWAY (786-2929) or by live chat at www.1800runaway.org from 4:30pm-11:30pm Central Standard Time. We wish you the best of luck and hope to hear from you soon. Take care and be safe.

-NRS