I don't deserve my parents

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Thank you for reaching out and contacting us. Here at the National Runaway Safeline we are a completely confidential and anonymous hotline for youth in crisis but we don’t generally talk about ourselves. But, we are all trained in the very same way and are definitely here to help you out if you need assistance.

Please remember that we are available 24 hours a day, 7 days a week at 1-800-RUNAWAY (786-2929) if you ever need to call and talk with someone. We also have online chat services that are available from 4:30 PM-11:30 PM (CST) if you would like to talk with someone that way instead.

We wish you the best of luck and look forward to hearing from you.

~NRS

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Re: I don't deserve my parents

Hello,

Thank you for reaching out to us at the National Runaway Safeline. It sounds like you are going through a very stressful time in your life, and we are sorry that you feel like you have to run away. You say that you stopped caring about your parents when you met your boyfriend, but it sounds like you really care about them since you want to be truthful with them, and alleviate some of their worry. Writing a letter to your parents sounds like a good way to express your thoughts and feelings.

You mentioned running away, have you thought about where you would go? We would be able to explore your situation further and offer you helpful resources if you reach out to us on our 24hr crisis line at 1-800-RUNAWAY (786-2929), or on Live Chat from 4:30pm to 11:30pm (CST) at 1800runaway.org

We appreciate you sharing your story with us, and wish you the best of luck.

Take care,
NRS

They have done and still do everything for me, every wish i ever had came true because of daddy and mommy , but I keep repaying them in a bad way. I get bad grades I mean I fell from straight A's to D's. Where I live we're not allowed to have relationships, I have a boyfriend I really love him and he loves me even more:S we basically gave up everything for each other, we have had sexual intercourse, we always have the time of our lives and we are always non stop together, our lives are just about us two and no one else. So another thing that isn't allowed here is drinking and ********. Well I live in a small town and I got really drunk, so drunk that I don't really remember anything just my boyfriend taking care of me..My father was so disappointed he didn't talk to me for weeks... I came home late, I always went upstairs and locked my door and stayed there talking on the phone with my bf till i fell asleep. All they ever wanted from me was just learning and to be educated so I could create a future for myself. They work their asses off everyday just so I can enjoy life now. I seriously stopped caring about them six months ago the day i met my future husband , I didn't give a fu*k about anybody else... Three nights ago my boyfriend came over at 1 am when everybody was asleep, we had sex , we played, we watched a movie and i fell asleep in his arms. Next day i woke up and had to go to school (we go to the same school btw) my father took me to school and my mother stayed home for some reason. I told my bf that he couldn't go out from the door because my mother is there, so he went out the second floor window my mother saw him but when she got out to see who was there he ran away. When I came back home my mother asked me crying if I brought a boy home. I couldn't stand myself when I lied and said no. She was so scared and they haven't slept for two nights now , they think it was a thief which didn't steal anything.. they thank GOD because she says they could have been killed. My parents are scared and tired and they don't know it's all because of me. I wanna write a letter saying I'm sorry for every single thing their little princess has done the past months, I wanna tell them that the 'thief' was actually my boyfriend which I love to death and I would give up anything and anyone for him so they're not scared anymore. Also I want them to know I'm safe and that I'll be just fine and I'm sorry that I'm running away but I don't want to cause anymore pain to them no more stress no more problems and most certainly no more child they have to worry about every second.. WHAT DO YOU THINK I SHOULD DO I'M CRYING I NEVER CRY I'M STRONGER THAN THIS I DON'T KNOW WHATS HAPPENING