am i crazy

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This took a lot to write out. But I think I am a compulsive liar and it has caused my life to turn to hell. Everyone has this version of a life I’m living when I am not.

My parents think I graduated undergraduate with a 3.6, while I actually flunked out.
My sister thinks I am this smart kind person who helps her through her nervous breakdowns (she has mysophobia), while I actually don't give a crap and just pretend.

There is another thing I am afraid of that I don't care about anything, I can tune out of every emotion. Some time I feel like I’m playing a part rather than living it.

I don't know what that means but I don't want to do this anymore.
I feel the only way I can stop is to run away.
I know that sounds cowardice but I can't picture telling any of them the truth to all my lies.

I would rather die than ruin their images but I can't keep my story up anymore.

I’m 22. And I don't really have money and I don't have a job. I know I’m not exactly in the age group you guys help. but is there anywhere for me to go. I want to just go clear my head and then start on life.

Here is too much pressure and they already have these images and no matter how much I try to hint I’m not like that they don't get it.
and I’m too much of a coward to say it out right.

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Am I Crazy?

Hi,

Thanks for posting on our NRS bulletin board at www.1800runaway.org

It seems like you are going through a life crisis and have been struggling to figure out the best way to handle it.

Is that right?

Contacting NRS may not have been an easy thing for you to and we really commend you for doing so.
It shows courage to take that first step and reach out for help so we hope you feel good about your decision.

We understand how difficult it must feel for you trying to figure out how you can express your true feelings to your family members.

Would you consider talking with a counselor?

Counseling may give you the chance to discuss your situation and try to come up with a plan of action to cope with it.

Does that make sense?

There may be services in your area that offer services for individual, education or career counseling and transitional living.

Would you be interested in any services of this kind?

Here at the National Runaway Switchboard we provide services for teens and youth up to Twenty-one years of age.
Our resources lean more towards this age group and their families.

We can appreciate your feelings about trying to deal with your situation.
We would like to offer you a couple of referrals to consider as an option to try and locate helpful resources in your area.

http://www.211.org/

https://www.unitedwaycg.org/211.da

Thank you again for contacting NRS and we hope that your situation will change for the better.
Take Care,
NRS