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  • #31
    i always feel like running away sometimes its better off if i do like no one will remember me anyway i just feel lik going somewhere else alone so i dont have to deal with anybody and start my new life

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    • ccsmod2
      ccsmod2 commented
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      Hello There,

      Thank you so much for reaching out to The National Runaway Safeline, we are here to help and here to listen.

      It sounds like you are going through a difficult time, and we want you to know that you are not alone. Running away is a big decision and because you know your situation best only you are able to decide if running away is best for you. But we can give you some more information to help you make the best informed decision.

      We are not legal experts but if you were to run away your legal guardian could file a runaway report. If the police were to find you they most likely would bring you back home. We know you mentioned wanting to run away for a while, one option to consider wo uld be to speak with a school counselor about what is going on at home. They would be able to provide you with support and help you explore options and offer you resources. If running away is your best option safety is the top concern. You could see if you could stay with friends or family. We can also help you look for a safe place to go.

      We hope that this information will be helpful to you in your situation. If you have any other questions or would like to explore more options please give us a call. We are here 24/7 to listen and to provide support. Best of luck!
      NRS

  • #32
    Hi I want to run away and I'm 12. Is anything I need to worry about? I already have and idea of where i'll be stay what I need and when to go. The reason is because my mom and dad are never home and when they are there yelling at me or my brother and I'm sick of it. So yea also PLEASE DON"T TELL MY PARENTS bye until next message :P

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    • ccsmod15
      ccsmod15 commented
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      Hi there,
      Thank you for writing to us here at National Runaway Safeline (NRS). We understand it takes great courage to reach out, and we appreciate you sharing a little bit about what’s going on. It seems there is a lot that you are faced with right now and you’re feeling like leaving is one of your only options. It seems you want to know some information on runaway laws.
      While we are not experts on the law, 18 is generally the age that an individual may leave home without parent permission. If you are under 18 and leave home, your parent/guardian may file you as a runaway and you may be returned home. Also, those you stay with may run the risk of being charged with harboring a runaway. For more specifics on the law, the local non-emergency police or legal aid may better answer legal questions.
      We are here as support to help through this challenging time. We can best help by phone or chat as NRS is unable to respond more than twice by forum to assist you. If you would like to talk more in detail please call or chat soon.
      Our contact information is 1-800-RUNAWAY (786-2929); www.1800runaway.org (click on the chat button).
      If you are at risk of any danger or feeling unsafe, we encourage you to reach out to 911 or seek emergency assistance immediately.
      Be safe,
      NRS

  • #33
    My parents treat me like ******** they used to beat me when i was 6,8,9,10,11 but now im 15 and their threatening to do it again if i dont get my grades up so im gonna run away because i dont have to deal with that i have blackmail that i plan on useing because their ********ing *******s
    Last edited by ccsmod8; 01-26-2021, 02:42 PM.

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    • ccsmod8
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      Hello there –

      Thank you so much for taking the time out of our day to write to us here at the National Runaway Safeline. We hope that by helping them and helping you that there are other’s that are scrolling through will get the information that they need.

      It’s hard to talk to just anyone one about what has been going on. From reading your post it sounds like you thinking about leaving home due to the long history of abuse you face in your household by your parents. No one deserves to be treated that way at all. Just know that you always have the right to report any abuse (physical, mental, sexual, or neglect/abandonment) to child protective service in your state or you can talk to us about it. You have rights too.

      Only you know yourself when it’s time to leave home due to it being an unsafe situation. We want you to know that if you do choose to leave home, we hope that you have a plan to stay safe. If you want to talk to us about your options or even find a safe place that you might be able to reach out to for some more local support, you can always give us a call or chat in.

      We certainly want to help you.

  • #34
    ive been feeling of doing self harm bc i am failing at everything i wish someone cared no one care ive dealing with depression alot lately ive seen a counselor but i dont say as much i dont wanna do it but i have no other choice , help.

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    • ccsmod7
      ccsmod7 commented
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      Hi there, thank you so much for reachig out.

      It sounds like you are thinking about harming yourself or ending your life. It takes a lot of strength to reach out for help, and we are so glad that you did. Your life has worth and our top priority is your safety. If you feel this is an emergency you could consider calling 911 for emergency assistance. We are here to listen and support you in any way that we can, and we can help you find resources that can help you cope with these feelings. You do not have to face this alone, and there is so much help out there for you. If you are thinking about hurting yourself, the National Suicide Hotline could be a good resource for you. You can check them out at www.youmatter.suicidepreventionlifeline.org, or you can call 1-800-273-8255 for help and support any time.

      You can also call us 24/7 at 1-800-RUNAWAY (786-2929) if you need to talk. We are always here for you and we care about your safety.

      Best,

      NRS

  • #35
    I wanna run away, mainly because my family don’t like the fact that I’m “lesbian” they would take my phone away because of it and wont let me get near guys cause they would “rape” you, or girls because I’m lesbian, my mom doesn’t me to go out and just tells me stay in my room she doesn’t even make me food anymore after I told her I’m lesbian, she talks bad about me telling me “I’m going to hell” or “I wish I had a son not a lesbian daughter” there’s times where she beats me because I’m useless, in her way and etc. I done self harm and smoked cus I couldn’t take the stress and the negativity of my mom, I wanna know where can I go cause I wanna run away as far as possible I’m 14

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    • ccsmod15
      ccsmod15 commented
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      Hi there,
      Thanks for reaching out to the National Runaway Safeline. It sounds like you are in a really tough situation at home. We hope to help in the best way we know how.
      It sounds like you are enduring serious physical and mental abuse and neglect. We’re sorry you’re going through this…it is definitely not okay. You should be respected and treated with love for exactly who you are. You don't deserve to be hurt in any way. If you are at risk of any danger or feeling unsafe, we encourage you to reach out to 911 or seek emergency assistance immediately. You may also be able to report any mistreatment to CPS. Child Help USA (1-800-422-4453 www.childhelp.org) is an organization that helps protect minors from being harmed. They can tell you more about how CPS could respond to your situation. If you ever need assistance calling out to CPS to make an abuse or neglect report please call us at 1-800-RUNAWAY.
      You mention having some experience with smoking and self-harm. These are somewhat natural responses to high levels of stress, which you are definitely enduring. You are not alone. We encourage you to check out the website To Write Love on Her Arms (twloha.com) during moments that feel especially difficult for you. It is a blog in which people share their heartbreaking, raw, but hopeful stories of self-harm. We believe you may get something out of reading.
      You also talk about wanting to run away. We encourage you to call us to discuss your options. It can be scary to run, and for some it may be the right decision. Without an active abuse report, it is possible you may get returned home by police if your parents report you. We can talk through this and other runaway laws when you reach out.
      You may also reach out to the LGBT National Youth Talkline to discuss these and other issues with members of the LGBTQIA community. Their number is 1-800-246-7743.
      Stay safe and strong out there.

      Sincerely,
      NRS

  • #36
    I wanna run away. My life is very stressful rn. Im very unmotivated to do anything and the work i have for school is stacking up. I feel sad for no reason but only thinking that i am useless. I did self harm yesterday and I know im getting worse mentally. i cannot tell my parents cuz they would tell me im just weak and to suck it up. I want to run away from here. Maybe to a safer place that makes me feel comfortable and where the work amount is tolerable and where i can see my boyfriend cuz rn he is a secret from my parents cuz my parents would never ever let me date till im 18. rn i am 16. i barely get to see him and he is the only thing that makes me happy anymore.

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    • ccsmod2
      ccsmod2 commented
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      Hi there,

      Thank you for writing to us here at National Runaway Safeline (NRS). We understand it takes great courage to reach out, and we appreciate you sharing a little bit about what’s going on. It seems there is a lot that you are faced with right now with your depression and anxiety and you’re feeling like leaving is one of your only options. It seems you want to know some information on runaway laws.

      While we are not experts on the law, 18 is generally the age that an individual may leave home without parent permission. If you are under 18 and leave home, your parent/guardian may file you as a runaway and you may be returned home. Also, those you stay with may run the risk of being charged with harboring a runaway. For more specifics on the law, the local non-emergency police or legal aid may better answer legal questions.

      You mentioned that you are feeling sad for no reason, have been getting worse mentally, and that you harmed yourself. It may be important to work through your mental before making other big decisions. You may want to think about who you can reach out to, or what resources you can contact if you aren’t ready to talk to someone in person. NAMI is a resource that can provide you with some mental health support. If you would like to do so, you can text “connect” to 741741 to communicate with a crisis counselor 24/7. Also, if you are having trouble with workload at school, it may be helpful to reach out to a counselor or teacher at your school to help you work through that.

      Also, if you are having trouble at home with your parents, this is a resource that may help you find a possible solution: (www.ChildHelp.org).

      We are here as support to help through this challenging time. We can best help by phone or chat as NRS is unable to respond more than twice by email to assist you. If you would like to talk more in detail please call or chat soon.

      Our contact information is 1-800-RUNAWAY (786-2929); www.1800runaway.org (click on the chat button).

      If you are at risk of any danger or feeling unsafe, we encourage you to reach out to 911 or seek emergency assistance immediately.

      Be safe,

      NRS

  • #37
    I'm 8 and I always get blamed for what my sisters do, I'm thinking about suicide but then I thought of running away, please help me

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    • ccsmod15
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      First of all, thank you so much for reaching out to NRS today. We know it can be difficult and take a lot of courage to reach out. We are so sorry to hear that you are getting blamed for what your sisters do – that is not fair.
      You said you were thinking about suicide. Your safety is our first priority here at NRS. If you ever feel like a danger to yourself, a great resource to reach out to is the National Suicide Prevention Lifeline. They are available 24/7 if you ever want to talk at 800-273-8255. You can also chat with them on their website.
      You mention running away. Running away is not illegal, but if you do run away, your parents may decide to file a runaway report to the police. In that case, the police will most likely go looking for you and if they find you, they will bring you back home.
      One option is a service we have here called the conference calling service. Using this, you would call out to us and one of our liners would talk to you about the situation at home and set guidelines for a conference call with your parents. With support from one of our liners, you would have a conversation with your parents that would hopefully would be productive and help them see how you are feeling.
      Lastly, you are welcome to reach out to us anything to talk about your situation more in depth either through live chat at 1800runaway.org or by phone at 1-800-RUNAWAY(786-2929). We are available 24/7 and are happy to help with whatever we can.
      Best of luck and stay strong,
      NRS

  • #38
    hello im living in a ruff time right now due to the pandemic and everything so the issue is how my grandma treats me like im nothing to her brings up how my other siblings are much better than i am brings me down alot im just 13 having to feel all of this and my grandma finds the littlest things so i will get in trouble my mom she is very tried of getting complains for the littlest things im fed up with this to. my mom cant do anything cause my grandma is "right" and she is "wrong" when my mom is tried of it she starts to blame me and thats all. i have a good mom but i hate how they they put me in the ground i just feel sad like im the worst person to exist i blame my self alot well thank you for hearing me out.

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    • ccsmod6
      ccsmod6 commented
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      Hi there!


      Thank you so much for reaching out to us at the National Runaway Safeline. It sounds like the way your Grandma speaks to you is causing you a lot of pain and stress. Nobody deserves to feel that way in their own home, and you deserve to be treated with respect.


      If you feel comfortable speaking to your Grandma in a non-confrontational way about how her words have been affecting you, the NRS provides a conference call service that could be beneficial. In this call you would be able to tell your Grandma how you feel with a non-judgemental mediator present so that potential conflicts could be deescalated. We also encourage you to reach out to our chat line any time you’d like to vent or discuss your options. The chat line is free, anonymous and open 24/7.


      Our contact information is 1-800-RUNAWAY (786-2929); www.1800runaway.org


      Best of luck,


      NRS

  • #39
    i cant do this anymore my mom left to visit my sick grandma like a month ago along with 2 of my siblings and thats where it all started. i was left at home with my dad and my brother who is 3 years older than me. a few weeks later my dads friend didn't have anywhere to stay so he stayed with us. i dont know why but it made me so uncomfortable being in a house with 3 men i dont even know. i would stay in my room and not eat because i was embarrassed to eat in front of my dads friend and also i wasn't hungry. i started going online and searching up things like why i dont have any motivation and why im not sleeping (i would always sleep at 6 to 7 am and get less than 4 hours of sleep) and why i wasnt showering or eating and a bunch of other things. i took like 10 tests and they all said i have depression. i was also failing most of my classes and my dad would take my phone and scream at me and slam my door and throw things everywhere. i had so many breakdowns and tried to commit about 4 times. i just couldnt take it anymore. i would cry every single night and bang my head (till it left bruises) and scratch myself so much till it was all red. i didnt take a shower for months and my hair was matted and so tangled and my dad would always make fun of it. it wasnt even funny at all. my teacher made meetings with my dad because of my grades and then when i tried to say i didnt have the motivation to do it i couldnt. i almost burst in tears so i put my head down because my face was so red. i was trying not to cry. my teacher and dad noticed. my teacher then had a meeting with me again but without my dad. i think she knew i was struggling with depression because i would skip every class (and she would email my dad about it until he had enough and ignored me) i also have low iron and i wasnt drinking water or eating at all at the time. after the meeting was done my teacher she wrote my dad a really long email and told him to take me to a doctor. he talked to me about it and i told him he really should take me to the doctor. he ignored it and never took me. i struggled like this for months after that. my dad would walk into my messy room and throw everything on the ground and yell at me and tell me to clean it up. about 2 months later my mom finally came back and my parents would always talk about me and i hated it. (they also told every single person back home like my aunts uncles cousins and told them i was depressed. i hated that.) i would pray each night and all i asked for was to die, since i already tried committing but it always fails. and no one knows until now. im putting it out here. after my mom and my two siblings that went with her came back i was a bit happier ig. a few days later i realized i wasnt happy at all because i was only allowed to use my phone in the weekends and they would take it away at 10 pm. and they would also take away the remote and my laptop so i had nothing at all. i couldnt talk to my friends because she would say "do ur homework and give it to me". and this is STILL happening. i cant take it anymore. just like last weekend i started cutting. cutting till it bleeds. now i wear my sweater everyday and my mom keeps asking me why but i just say im cold. i had a long talk with her and told her she was being toxic and she said "ok i dont care ill be toxic". i just ran to the bathroom and had a breakdown and started cutting. i cut so much till it was like almost all the way up my arm. and on both arms too. i dont have any privacy they walk into my room and dont let me call my friends because they always listening to everything i say and i just cant take it anymore. before my mom came back my dad took my phone and looked at all my texts and opened everything and my photos. every single thing. he opened snapchat which i would do streaks on and my friend who wears a hijab sent me a photo and my dad opened it!!! she didnt have her hijab on in the photo. i didnt even know what to do. i told her and she blocked me. i was losing friends because of my parents and i just couldnt take it anymore. im still cutting to this day and im never going to stop. i tried talking with many therapists online but it just wasnt working it all costed money and i didnt want my parents to know even tho i told them to take me to a therapist and they called me crazy. and when im using the bathroom or taking a shower i would close the door fully and my mom WOULD LITERALLY STILL WALK IN. she even knows that someone is in there she still does it. im telling you i just cant do anything here. i wanna run away. i also pull my hair out because of stress and things. i dont even know if im depressed because i started eating but thats the only thing thats changed. all the other symptoms are still there. i started drawing yesterday and the photos i draw are um like i dont know i just do it to try and take my mind off cutting and stuff like that. my mom saw my drawings and she asked why i was drawing stuff like that because the drawings were all dark and they had like girls screaming and crying and a lot of stuff like that. its just how i feel. i told her i found it online and just copied it. she said okay and of course she had to go through my things and find my drawings even though i hide them. i also made online friends while my mom was gone but i dont talk to them anymore. i just cant. i want to disappear. im probably going to run away. but the problem is where will i go? i dont have anywhere to stay. i tried committing again like 2 weeks ago lol. theres too much to say and i just cant say it all so bye.

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    • ccsmod5
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      Hi there,

      Thank you for reaching out, it sounds like things have been overwhelming lately. We appreciate you reaching out, it can be difficult to ask for help especially if you are being limited access to any internet access.
      It sounds like you’re fearing that the situation may end in suicide if things don’t change. Your safety and well-being is important. If you are at risk of any danger or feeling unsafe, we encourage you to reach out to 911 or seek emergency assistance immediately. The National Suicide Prevention Lifeline 1-800-273-TALK (8255); www.suicidepreventionlifeline.org is also a great resource to reach out to in addition to our crisis services.
      Often, having a safe space to share how you’re feeling may bring a variety of solutions previously not thought of. Suicide is a permanent solution to a temporary problem. This may be an isolating and lonely time for you, but you are not alone in this. We want you to know that we are here as support to help you through this challenging time.
      You are correct in that mental health services can be very difficult to find and they can be pretty expensive sometimes. If you want to talk to someone and maybe focus primarily on the mental health aspect of what’s going on you can also use NAMI. NAMI is the National Alliance on Mental Illness, thay are a free, nationwide peer-support service providing information, resource referrals and support to people living with a mental health conditions, their family members and caregivers, mental health providers and the public. HelpLine staff and volunteers are experienced, well-trained and able to provide guidance. You can reach them at 1-800-950-NAMI (6264) or nami.org.
      You mentioned some things going on at home that raise some concern. Unfortunately, emotional abuse is often harder to provide evidence for compared to physical abuse which is often what CPS relies on when conducting an abuse investigation. That said, we can’t be 100% sure what the outcome will be if your local CPS decides to open a case based on what you share. Sometimes CPS decides to remove minors from the home and other times they offer services such as family counseling or mediation instead. The only way to know the outcome might be to reach out to them directly and if you’re ready to do that we are here to help you through that process. Reaching out to Child Help USA at 1-800-422-4453 or www.childhelp.org may help to get a better understanding of what may happen before and after a report is made.
      While we are not experts on the law, 18 is generally the age that an individual may leave home without parent permission. If you are under 18 and leave home, your parent/guardian may file you as a runaway and you may be returned home. Also, those you stay with may run the risk of being charged with harboring a runaway. For more specifics on the law, the local non-emergency police or legal aid may better answer legal questions. If you need help making a plan or finding resources near you, please call or chat with us so we can help.
      We are here as support to help through this challenging time. We can best help by phone or chat as NRS is unable to respond more than twice by email to assist you. If you would like to talk more in detail please call or chat soon.
      Our contact information is 1-800-RUNAWAY (786-2929); www.1800runaway.org (click on the chat button).
      If you are at risk of any danger or feeling unsafe, we encourage you to reach out to 911 or seek emergency assistance immediately.
      Stay strong,
      NRS

  • #40
    I wanna runaway.
    i have family things going on. And I need a chance to breathe. And see the world a bit. I wanna runaway and be able to breathe again. I don’t wanna deal with life. I wanna feel alive again. I wanna runaway but I need help. Someone answer back ! Plz

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    • ccsmod15
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      Hi there,

      Thanks for contacting us here at the National Runaway Safeline (NRS). We understand it takes a lot of courage to reach out for help and we want to know that you will get through this. You deserve to feel happy, to do the things you're describing and we're here support you along the way during this challenging time.


      If you are a minor, your legal guardians would be able to file a runaway report if you leave without their consent. However, we are happy to discuss specific options with you, such as finding shelters or other resources. NRS is unable to respond more than twice by email or bulletin for assistance, so if you would like to talk more in detail about what's going on at home, please call or chat in. Our contact information is 1-800-RUNAWAY (786-2929); www.1800runaway.org (click on the chat button). If you are at risk of any danger or feeling unsafe, we encourage you to reach out to 911 or seek emergency assistance immediately.

      We hope to hear from you soon.

      Be safe and take care,
      NRS

  • #41
    sometimes i wanna just run away from here. my parents have these long talks with me and its so often and i cant handle it, they expect me to just sit and listen and maybe like not have genuine emotion and cry. "this isnt something to cry about" or "this is your fault, you know." sometimes its not my fault. i have been diagnosed with adhd and mdd and they dont think i get un motivated? yet, they praise my sister for being soooo successful, meanwhile she drinks so much alcohol all the time, leaves bad influences on me, and yells at me for little mistakes. one time she stepped on a tack, like the sharp things you use to attach things to walls with, and yelled at me because my toys were near it. i was 8, and i have a memory of her doing that. now my sister can be pretty great at times, but my parents like her so much more and its my fault. im lazy. im stupid. im the one not doing my assignments. im the one they call a "problem child", and im the one who is a ********ing burden to their name. i just wanna have a place i can just walk off to and stay in to calm down. like a big cabinet, they comfort me for some reason. i just want a "get outta jail free" card and just have my own, quiet, cozy, small place i can always go to.

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    • ccsmod15
      ccsmod15 commented
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      Hi there,
      Thank you for writing to us here at National Runaway Safeline (NRS). We understand it takes great courage to reach out, and we appreciate you sharing a little bit about what’s going on. We want you to know that we are here as support to help you through this challenging time. We can best help by phone or chat as NRS is unable to respond more than twice by email or bulletin for assistance. If you would like to talk more in detail and share more about how we can help specifically, please call or chat soon.
      Our contact information is 1-800-RUNAWAY (786-2929); www.1800runaway.org (click on the chat button).
      If you are at risk of any danger or feeling unsafe, we encourage you to reach out to 911 or seek emergency assistance immediately.
      We hope to hear from you soon.
      Be safe,
      NRS

  • #42
    Hello I’m 18 and i’ve Been thinking of running away for 4 years now (all of high school) cause of the things my sister(legal guardian) and her children have said and done to me since I was 8. My sister likes to gas-light me and she recently took away all of my privilege to make my own decisions. She kicked me out yesterday then took be back in only to tell me I had to get a job of her choice, go to school for something I don’t want to, and I have to pay rent for my room, pay her back for the things she bought, and sleep with my door open. Everything I worked towards she took it all away just so I can do all the things she wants. It isn’t fair and it’s worse when I tell her I want to do something and she calls me names and tell me I’m rude or ungrateful. I thought things would be better but it’s getting worse. I have no money to move out and if I get back into school I would have to wait till December to go back. Everything feels like my fault, but no one in my family is listening to me. They all take her side because of the crazy things she said about me to them. Is there anyway I could get more information on what I should do?

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    • ccsmod15
      ccsmod15 commented
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      Hello There,



      Thank you for reaching out to The National Runaway Safeline, we are here to help and here to listen. It takes great courage to reach out for help, and we are glad that you have decided to reach out to us. It sounds like you are going through a difficult time and we want you to know that you are not alone.

      Since you are 18 years old, you’re considered an adult and you don’t need your sister’s approval to move out. If your sister doesn’t let you leave the home, you have the right to call your local police department and they can assist you while you gather your belongings to leave in a peaceful manner. You will not be considered a runaway since you’re an adult now.

      Also, I am sorry your sister mistreats you and know you don’t deserve to be treated that way. You are of age to make your own decisions in regards to school and what type of job you want. If you are being abused in any way (physical, neglect, emotional, verbal, etc.) and feel unsafe you have to the right to contact 911. You do not deserve to be mistreated, and you do have the right to file an abuse report. One option would be to contact Child Help at: 1-800-422-4453, and they can help you file an abuse report.

      Only you know yourself when it’s time to leave home due to it being an unsafe situation. We want you to know that if you do choose to leave home, we hope that you have a plan to stay safe. If you want to talk to us about your options or even find a safe place that you might be able to reach out to for some local support, you can always give a call or chat in.

      We hope that this information will be helpful to you in your situation. If you have any other questions or would like to explore more options please give us a call. We are available to you 24/7 to listen and to provide support through this challenging time.

      Our contact information is 1-800-RUNAWAY (786-2929); www.1800runaway.org (click on the chat button). If you are at risk of any danger or feeling unsafe, we encourage you to reach out to 911 or seek emergency assistance immediately.



      Best of luck!

      NRS

  • #43
    Hi, I'm 15 and I've had the strongest urge to runaway for the past few months. I live with my step-mom and my father and I really do love my father and I appreciate everything he's done for me but at the moment I feel really alone. Every time something happens somehow it falls back onto me and I really don't understand why. I try to stop having these thoughts because I know there are people in much worse conditions than I am, but I can't help it and I hate that I'm being this selfish. It all started around November of last year until February of this year, when I was in a terrible mental condition and nobody even noticed when all the signs were very obviously there. My cousin tried to commit suicide and I guess this scared my step-mom so she took away the remotes to the T.V. in our living room and I don't have a phone because they're scared I'm going to look at things that are going to make me do what she did. I'm also in 11th grade at the moment so not having a phone realllllyyyy sucks. I don't really understand the logic behind why they won't let me get a phone and I get stressed every day because along with not really having access to the internet, aside from my brother's pc, my father wants me to do all of these academic things and to be at the top when the time I was doing my best to stay at the top I was so low mentally that I started to question if I really wanted to be alive anymore because I didn't really see the point of life. One time when I had a band concert, my dad got up half-way thru the concert and went to wait in the car knowing I didn't have a phone to call and see where he was. At the end of the concert, I got scared that he left me and I didn't see anyone I knew to ask to borrow their phone so I started panicking. It was raining that day so that added to the mess of a night that was, finally I decided to go check if the car was there and he was waiting there. I didn't really understand why he was waiting in the car when the concert hadn't finished but when I got in the car he started yelling at me saying that I needed to practice more and how I wasn't doing enough because at my school there are 4 bands and the 1st band is the best band. I wasn't in the 1st band. I was in the 3rd band and I still don't understand why because I practiced an hour everyday when kids I know that never practiced got into that band so... Anyways, it was so bad that I started crying because I felt like a failure knowing I put a lot of work into band and sacrificed so much of my time for band trying to make him proud. He asked my why I was crying and I told him because all I wanted to do was make him proud and he said that I can't make him proud. I cried for a really long time that night. Life really sucks and there's not really anything I can do to make it suck less.

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      Thank you for contacting National Runaway Safeline. It was brave of you to share what is going on right now. You are going through a lot, and you deserve to feel supported throughout all of this. It sounds like your dad has been emotionally abusing you with his words. It is unfair that he is putting so much pressure on you to succeed at school when you are going through your own mental health struggles. Please know that if you are feeling unsafe, we can always provide you with the resources you need. It might be a good idea to see if you are able to call in or chat online (1-800-786-2929 or www.1800runaway.org). We can help you find free or affordable mental health services in your area. We can also help you report any abuse that is happening at home so that a caseworker will be notified to assess your situation.


      You mentioned you were also thinking about running away. We can help you find shelters or transitional living programs that help youth get on their feet, but some information that might be helpful to keep in mind is that those who are younger than 18 typically cannot leave home without their guardian’s permission. So if you were to run away, your dad can call the police to file a runaway report. If that were to happen, they could look for you and bring you back home if found.




      You are going through a lot, and we appreciate you reaching out to us. Please feel free to contact us whenever is suitable for you as we are open 24/7. If you feel that you are in immediate danger, please do not hesitate to contact the police (911) to get immediate assistance.

      We hope to hear from you soon,
      NRS

  • #44
    Im 11 and my mom yells at me at me and sometimes makes me sleep out side like I'm a dog

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      Hi there,

      Thank you for writing to us here at National Runaway Safeline (NRS). It takes a lot of bravery to reach out, and we appreciate your ability to share what you're going through. We are here to support you.

      You mentioned that you have been experiencing some issues at home. You do not deserve to be treated this way, and it is your parents’ responsibility to keep you safe. If you would consider it, this is a resource that may help you find a possible solution: (www.ChildHelp.org).

      It may also be important to maintain good mental health, especially when you are feeling like you are being mistreated at home. You may want to think about who you can reach out to, or what resources you can contact if you aren’t ready to talk to someone in person. NAMI is a resource that can provide you with some mental health support. If you would like to do so, you can text “connect” to 741741 to communicate with a crisis counselor 24/7.

      We are here as support to help through this challenging time. We can best help by phone or chat as NRS is unable to respond more than twice by email to assist you. If you would like to talk more in detail please call or chat soon.

      Our contact information is 1-800-RUNAWAY (786-2929); www.1800runaway.org (click on the chat button).

      If you are at risk of any danger or feeling unsafe, we encourage you to reach out to 911 or seek emergency assistance immediately.

      Be safe and stay strong,

      NRS

  • #45
    Hi um I am done with everything my mom found my diary and read It now I am in trouble My birthday is on Sunday and I am going to be 17 I want to end my life on my birthday. I have tried 3 times to run but I am scared

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    • ccsmod2
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      Thank you for reaching out to the National Runaway Safeline. You are very brave to take the initiative to share this information with us. Writing down thoughts in a diary can be a great way of expressing feelings in private. We are sorry to hear that your mom found your diary, but we are here to offer you support during this time.



      Our priority is always your safety. You mentioned that you have engaged in self harm. This has got to be really tough. In some cases, it can be helpful to talk through these thoughts with someone. The National Suicide Hotline is available 24/7, just like us, but they have trained counselors that are there to talk through anything that you are thinking or feeling. If you’d like some additional support, an organization that may be helpful is the National Alliance on Mental Illness (NAMI). You can contact them by calling 1-800-950-NAMI or you can text them by sending NAMI to 741741.



      If you would like to discuss additional options for you, feel free to reach out to us. You can call us at 1-800-RUNAWAY or chat with us via the chat feature on our website: www.1800runaway.org. Best of luck!
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