im about done with this.

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im 15 years old. i want to runaway because i seriously feel attacked at home. my whole family hates me, LITERALLY. all i want is to be loved, i never knew what that feeling is like. my mom treats me like a dog, not even a dog, my dog gets treated better than me. i wanna commit suicide everyday. school is alright i guess cause im bigger than all of the kids, so ther scared of me. i will beat them up even if they just talk to me. i dont know how to fix my problems.. i wanna love my mom but i cant, how am i suppose to love my mom if i dont even love myself???

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Re: im about done with this

We are so glad that you wrote in and shared a bit about your situation. It sounds like you are dealing with an awful lot right now and we are sorry to hear that you are going through such a tough time. You mentioned that things at home have been pretty bad and that you have been having an especially stressed relationship with your mom. When you mentioned that you feel your family hates you, how long have you been feeling this way? You also mentioned that because of the situation you often times feel suicidal. Have you ever attempted suicide before? Have you ever been able to talk with anyone about how you feel? If you are ever in a situation where you are feeling like harming yourself in any way you can always call the National Suicide Hotline at 1-800-273-TALK (8255).

No one should ever have to feel unwanted or bad about themselves and we are sorry to hear that this is something that you are dealing with. It sounds like you realize that home may not be as comforting and loving as you would like. Do you think there is anything that would make living at home a better situation? You mentioned that you have thought about running away. If you do decide to leave have you thought about a safe place you can go? It sounds like you really want to be in a loving home and realize that some of the things you are dealing with may be because you want to love yourself more as well. That’s not always the easiest thing to do but you definitely deserve to be loved by yourself and others.

Just so you know if you should ever want to discuss your situation more in depth you can always reach out to us here at the National Runaway Switchboard. We have a crisis hotline, 1-800-RUNAWAY (786-2929) that is available 24 hours a day. We also have a crisis chat that is available through our website at www.1800runaway.org. Out crisis chat is currently available from 4:30p to 11:30p CST. There is always someone available to listen, provide support, discuss options, and even find resources in your area if needed. All of our services are completely confidential so you can feel free to tell us as much or as little as you feel comfortable with. Please reach out to us anytime. Take care and stay safe.