should i ru away?

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ok well im gonna start of by saying that i hate my life.. i hate it cus my parents make me go insane!!...i go to therapy and let me tell u smething to me it dose work well im 15 go to a regular high skool and live with both my parents and 3 bros .. im the only girl!!i had this one cusin witch i saw as some one more then a cusin she was like my sister to me and then so i use to tell her everything and she use to tell me everything to ok well she use to talk to me about everything she use to do and stuff like drugs sex and yeaa u guys get the point well i had sex because her .. people can change you.. well i had it cus she made it seem like nothing will happen and stuff so then months passed and days and in total i f *edited for language* 8 guys!!! she told her mom and thats my dads sister then so she told my dad and he got all mad keeps me inlockdown dosent let me do s *edited for language*!!only lets me go to my best friends house for like an hour.. he took eveything from me to keep away from guys!!he tried taking me out of skool and puttinbg me home study but im the oldest and their mexican and didnt finish all of the skool so the counseler of the skool didnt let him!!well all i talk is about my dad cus my mom dont do s *edited for language*so she just follows my dad!!ok well so i have so many arguments with him i cant talk to him in peace for s *edited for language*!!so i mostly go to my room and dont eat for most of the rest of the day and cut my self and take more then my acne prescribed pills!!!!i have cried alot ever since my dad has found out that i had sex and yes i do regret and understand that i did somethingt rong but i dont deserve this i feel like leaving but i love my boyfriend and my bros and my best friend so0 i dont wanna leave and get in much more trouble!! so what can i do some one help me!! i need a good answer cus they will drive me so muchh i9n depresion and make me do something i dont wanna do!!

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Re: should i ru away?

Thank you for contacting us at the National Runaway Switchboard. It sounds like you are dealing with an awful lot right now and are not sure what you are going to do. We are sorry to hear that you hate your life and you cut yourself. That sounds incredibly difficult and we imagine having an angry father and being in “lockdown” makes things even harder at home. It sounds like the main issue you are dealing with is that you had sex and now your family has found out. It sounds like you became very close and trusted your cousin and now you’ve made some decisions you regret. Just so you know we are not here to judge you or any decisions that you have made. A website that you might find helpful is www.sexetc.org. They cover a variety of issues including sexual health, emotional health, and relationships.

We can only imagine what you are going through and are here to listen and offer support. Although we are not here to make decisions for you, you are welcome to call us at 1-800-RUNAWAY to discuss the pros and cons of any decision you are thinking of making. We can do our best to help you come up with options and offer any resources that might be helpful. You stated that therapy has worked well for you and if you are in need of any other resources like support groups or reproductive health services we can do our best to locate those based on your area. The title of your post asks if you should run away and later you mention that you don’t want to leave because you love your boyfriend, brothers, and best friend. If you haven’t had a chance to check out our website, here is a link to some common questions to think about before running away. http://www.1800runaway.org/youth_teens/nrs_help.html

You state that you need a good answer and that you don’t want your parents to make you do something you do not want to. We are not sure exactly whether that “something” refers to hurting yourself or running away, but we hope you are able to stay safe. If you would like to continue talking about your situation, we encourage you to call our hotline. We can be reached 24/7 and you can remain anonymous and confidential.

Best of luck to you and stay strong!
-NRS